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` 一 hourglass ` 》julian

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“Wonderful.” He murmurs sarcastically under his breath, obviously bored, as he gazes up at the blank night sky. The sky is completely empty, only the moonlight illuminating his own was present.

He’s lonely but he doesn’t show it. He’s alone but he doesn’t feel cold. He wants to go back, yet he isn’t sure where. “Ow-” He curses under his breath, almost tripping on a twig while he had his eyes at the sky.

“...” He mouths, unsure what was it he’s trying to say. He sighs for the nth time for being confused at himself. “I must be tired.”

He takes a deep breath, taking in the smell of the forest 一 maybe some animal corpses too, but he doesn’t really mind 一 before he finds himself under a large oak tree, big enough to cast a shadow on him until the morning. He closes his eyes for now, his mind still alert, while he waits for the daylight to come.

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"you liar!"

He swore he could hear ringing inside his head.

He had never expected to be shouted by one of the twins 一 of all people 一 Oliver. Alasdair came out from the library, several books at hand. His eyes glowing, eager to flip through the worn out pages.

He stared at the taller and tilted his head, his face showing no void of emotion, but the tone of his voice showed he’s obviously confused.

“What is this you speak of, Ollie?”

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everyday baby yes I’m gonna pray smiley face looking good so just stay

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HAMILTON | ACT I | SENTENCE STARTERS

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“You could never back down, you never learned to take your time.” “He looked at me like I was stupid, I’m not stupid.” “Talk less. Smile more. Don’t let them know what you’re against or what you’re for.” “Fools who run their mouth off wind up dead.” “Who’s the best? C'est moi!” “It’s hard to have intercourse over four sets of corsets.” “If you stand for nothing, what’ll you fall for?” “I will lay down my life if it sets us free.” “I imagine death so much it feels just like a memory.” “I’m laughin’ in the face of casualties and sorrow, for the first time, I’m thinkin past tomorrow.” “I’m lookin for a mind at work.” “Excuse me, miss, I know it’s not funny, but your perfume smells like your daddy’s got money.” “You want a revolution? I want a revelation.” “Look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now.” “Chaos and bloodshed are not a solution.” “It’s hard to listen to you with a straight face.” “Chaos and bloodshed already haunt us, honestly you shouldn’t even talk.” “You say the price of my love’s not a price that you’re willing to pay.” “You’ll be back. Soon you’ll see. You’ll remember you belong to me.” “When you’re gone I’ll go mad, so don’t throw away this thing we had.” “When push comes to shove, I will kill your friends and family to remind you of my love.” “Close the door on your way out.” “Have I done something wrong?” “Dying is easy, living is harder.” “But what do we have in common?” “You walked in and my heart went ‘Boom’!” “I’m about to change your life.” “My love for you is never in doubt.” “I just might regret that night for the rest of my days.” “I’ll never forget the first time I saw your face.” “When you said “Hi” I forgot my dang name, set my heart aflame, ev'ry part aflame.“ “You’re like me. I’m never satisfied.” “He’s a bit of a flirt, but I’m ‘a give it a chance.” “I’m a girl in a world in which my only job is to marry rich.” “From what I hear, you’ve made yourself indispensable.” “Well, well, I heard you’ve got someone special on the side.” “I will never understand you.” “Love doesn’t discriminate between the sinners and the saints.” “I am the one thing in life I can control.” “If there’s a reason I’m still alive when so many have died, then I’m willing to wait for it.” “Stay alive ‘til this horror show is past.” “I’m a general. Whee!!!!” “Yeah. He’s not the choice I would have gone with.” “Don’t do a thing. History will prove him wrong.” “I can’t disobey direct orders.” “Pick a place to die where it’s high and dry.” “Pray that hell or heaven lets you in.” “Should have shot him in the mouth. That would’ve shut him up.” “Watch your tone. I’m not a maiden in need of defending, I am grown.” “My name’s been through a lot, I can take it.” “The fact that you’re alive is a miracle.” “I don’t pretend to know the challenges you’re facing.” “If you could let me inside your heart…” “I’m never gonna stop until I make ‘em drop and burn 'em up and scatter their remains.” “You have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story.” “History has it’s eyes on you.” “So what happens if we win?” “If this is the end of me, at least I have a friend with me.” “Oceans rise. Empires fall. It’s much harder when it’s all your call.” “I swear that I’ll be around for you.” “Why do you assume you’re the smartest in the room?” “Why do you write like you’re running out of time?” “Yo, who the f is this?” “What are you waiting for? What do you stall for?” “If I could grant you peace of mind, would that be enough?” “They are asking me to lead. I am doing the best I can.”

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“Wasn’t I worth a goodbye?”

Alasdair stood there frozen, pondering on what to respond to the elder but his face wasn’t showing it. They haven’t seen each other for almost a year, although he did promise he would return. And here he was, standing in front of him.

His lips curl into a small smile, happy that he was welcomed by him (even though he wouldn’t admit it).

“Did you wait too long,” he responds in his usual bored tone. His expressions remaining the same. For someone who struggles expressing himself, his eyes spoke different volumes. He definitely missed him. “Prince Valentine.”

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A sly smile spread on his lips, his fists curled into a ball, beating up a helpless acquaintance, again. It’s the third time that week, a few days after he had lost his sanity.

He had stopped feeding himself after getting out of that horrid house filled with porcelain dolls, terrified, thinking that he was one of them.

He looks at the body in front of him, 一 thinking he should spare his life一 then back at his fists. Another smile had played across his lips, taking the stranger’s blade and impaling it on its chest countless of times, making sure it’s dead, before dropping the blade next to the body.

“Rest in peace, old friend.”

Fluttering his eyes open, his eyes quivered in fear and confusion. His breathing had become unstable, moments ago before he woke up, his head buzzing terribly. His eyes scanned the room, taking notes in his head of how big and how well-decorated the room is.

‘Too much white’ he thinks as he continued to scan the room. Turning his head to the side, finally, he had noticed those concerned red eyes observing him for a while now. He doesn’t dare to speak first, instead he stares back and waits for the other to say something, anything, to break the silence.

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➟ looking glass land; 5 years ago

it was early morning, and elliot felt his fingertips freezing without his twin brother’s hands to hold onto them, but he was unable to go back to sleep. he watched oliver’s slumbering figure for awhile, but at sixteen years old, elliot was restless, thus his impulse to roam the palace area. the garden felt empty without oliver, and so the castle gates were his next option. unlike oliver, the guards trusted elliot enough not to stray far away from marmoreal ground, and let him walk around outside for a little bit.

today was different, however, because after taking the first few steps outside, he immediately stopped in his tracks. there, in front of pearl-white gates, was a boy much younger than he. the guards had not noticed him, lying unconscious on the ground. elliot told the guards to keep at an eye out on the boy as he ran back inside the palace to wake his nanny up.

elliot stood close as the nanny inspected the young boy for any injuries or sign of force, and they were surprised to see none. she ordered one of the guards to carry him inside, scolded them in the process for not paying close attention. they had one job, after all. elliot followed quietly, wide, curious eyes on the boy that lay limp in the guard’s arms. they brought him to one of the empty guest rooms, laid him on the bed, and left – the guard to head back to his post, the nanny to call the medical examiner.

elliot sat on a chair by the bed, watched as the little boy’s chest rose as he breathed in. for a moment, he forgot about his brother, and in the quiet of the room, there was only him and this peculiar stranger.

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"I haven't been resting. I can't sleep."

He hums in response, unsure of what to respond to his elder sister, that’s what she told him at least.

He doesn’t ask why she couldn’t sleep, 一 not that he doesn’t want to know 一 afraid that he’s butting into her business. He doesn’t say anything either but he moves closely to her, an arm resting over her shoulders 一 it’s his way of affection, he thinks.

“Sorry.” Alasdair mutters sincerely, his voice laced in worry, apologetic that he couldn’t do anything to help.

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“What more do you want from me?”

“Huh..?” It comes out of his mouth, a few seconds the latter had approached him. He doesn’t remember asking anyone for anything, nor owing anyone. So, he stood there dumbfounded.

“What does she want?” What does he, himself, want from her?

Alasdair thinks but, without noticing, he spoke his mind. Loud and clear. He gives her a curious glance, awaiting for her reply.

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hello. polaris’ mun here. i’m just gonna apologize for not posting over the weekend due to personal circumstances. i’m about to reply to posts and please do not hesitate to send me messages and all o/

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( angst starter sentences. )

“Are you going to leave me again?”

“Be quiet!” 

“Do you trust me?” 

“Don’t pretend that you cared about me.”

“Don’t you love me anymore?” 

“Foolish.”

“Forgive me, please.”

“Get out of my face.“ 

“Go away.” 

“How could I believe someone like you?” 

“How could you do this to me?”

“How was I supposed to know?” 

“Leave me alone already.” 

“I can’t let you go, not when you’re like this.” 

“I can’t trust you.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt you.”

“I haven’t been resting. I can’t sleep." 

“I just wanted to help you.” 

“I needed you and you weren’t there.”

“I said I was sorry.” 

"I thought we were friends." 

“I’m a nobody.” 

“It’s too late now.” 

“It was hard for me to say goodbye.”

“Maybe, I don’t need your help.”

"Please don’t go." 

“Please, stop it already.” 

“Stop lying.” 

“Stop pretending.”

“Stop trying to fix something that can’t be fixed.”

“Wasn’t I worth a goodbye?”

“We need to talk.”

“What more do you want from me?” 

“You don’t care anymore, huh?” 

“You liar!”

“You’re hurting me.”

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` 一 in the heart ` 》val

@udvalentine

9 Years Ago, Queensland

“What is this place?” The young boy had questioned himself, amazed as he turned to examine his surroundings. It was like a garden 一 an extraordinary garden to his eyes. There were bushes that towered over him, and flowers, only they were painted in red.

His curiosity had led him there. A maze, and he had no idea. He wiggled his toes and looked down at his feet, bruised from wandering all over Wonderland. Polaris had noticed the stoned pathway, blotched with the color of red. He doesn’t question but his curiosity made him strut, following the pathway, not knowing where it’s headed.

“Hello.” He says, peeking from behind the bushes. It seems that the pathway led him at the heart of the maze. There, he found a young man. He observed from head to toe 一 soft locks of auburn, blank yet mysterious emerald eyes, and 一 he doesn’t have an idea what are those moving things at his feet.

He had to walk closer to the young man, his curiosity bothering him. “Hello.” He greets as he tugged lightly on the stranger’s sleeve, “What is your name?”

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🔪 Please welcome POLARIS HYSTERIE LIDDELL to Wonderland, a SEVENTEEN year old WANDERER and HERALD, belonging to the LIDDELL family as the THIRD BORN and residing in LOOKING GLASS LAND.

     Madness is not a state of mind, madness is a place.                                Let’s go there, shall we?

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different sides.