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[ukaaku]

Grownups : "welcome to our world, you must working hard for living"

Me : (find a job, and working hard af as they said)

The best thing for having a job is being busy and tired, so i don't have time to overthinking and don't have energy to be sad.

The bad thing about it that i must living in this capitalist society. Being treat like a trash by trashy people. Must always keep lower my head & faking a smile.

[ukaaku]

Life ain't easy. I hate being grownup. I hate live in this grownups world. I know basically i hate to live, but this 'grownups world' so cruel. I can't take this anymore. I want to go, but this virtual game's setting makes me can't go if i don't finish the mission. Tbh, there's a shortcut. But, in this virtual game's setting if we take the shortcut we will get banned. Get banned from the heaven. So i don't have choice, i have to keep alive just because I'm still breathing. But I'm still waiting the endgame to come, so i can saying goodbye to this fcking world.

Yeah, that's how she felt inside.

But she still pretend to be happy.

And keep smiling all the time.

[ukaaku]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all.