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okay gang, i'm gonna be giving komaeda a bit of a makeover! for right now, i want to clear out some followers (esp those who i have not written with or those who have been inactive for a long time). so if you want to ensure i don't softblock you, please like this post! and, if i do break mutuals with you, you're free to refollow. i'm just doing housekeeping. nothing personal.

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okay gang, i'm gonna be giving komaeda a bit of a makeover! for right now, i want to clear out some followers (esp those who i have not written with or those who have been inactive for a long time). so if you want to ensure i don't softblock you, please like this post! and, if i do break mutuals with you, you're free to refollow. i'm just doing housekeeping. nothing personal.

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"If you use em dash in your works, it makes them look AI generated. No real human uses em dash."

Imaging thinking actual human writers are Not Real because they use... professional writing in their works.

Imagine thinking millions of people who have been using em dash way before AI becomes a thing are all robots.

REBLOG IF YOU'RE A HUMAN AND YOU USE EM DASH

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i’m returning to tumblr with an eito hundred line blog so if you want the url drop a like

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i’m returning to tumblr with an eito hundred line blog so if you want the url drop a like

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i’m returning to tumblr with an eito hundred line blog so if you want the url drop a like

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i know i promised to get drafts done, but i had to take my cat to the vet. if i have time over the next few days between homework, then expect to see more komaeda on your dash <3

also, if y'all want to follow my new koizumi blog here it is.

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guys what is this i’m scared

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Send me a kink and I’ll rate it

No | rather not | I dunno | I guess | Sure | Yes | FUCK yes | Oh god you don’t even know |

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if you’re a bad kisser komaeda will say it to your face and i just find that really funny

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HYPER-SEXUALITY AND THE TRAGEDY.

it's sinday and that means i finally can talk about one of my favorite headcanons about komaeda in the tragedy. strap in folks — and hold your judgement because i know it sounds really fucking funny at first (and it is) but i promise i have deep thoughts about this.

as i've mentioned before, i do believe that komaeda would be hyper-sexual. and i do mean hyper-sexual — not that he has a high sex drive — but rather the fact it is an issue that plagues him and inconveniences him. this, rather than being a proper addiction or even a trauma response, is instead due to his ftd. meaning that this isn't really something he can work on/fix with therapy or most typical ways of treatment. however, hyper-sexuality is one of the handful of ftd symptoms that can be dealt with via medication. and i do believe that komaeda is medicated for his health issues.

however... once the tragedy hits i do not believe that he would be able to keep getting his prescriptions. and even if he could, i don't know if he would. be it the ultimate despair mindset or simply because he has bigger fish to fry. and so, it becomes something at the forefront of his mind again.

now, i have often seen the fandom depict komaeda in the tragedy as a sexual deviant. depravity is welcome in the tragedy and thus he is able to fuck freely. thanks to the existence of the servant persona, some people even go the extra mile with that... (personally, i don't think that "servant" existed prior to udg — but that's another thing for another time). however, despite everything i've said: i think komaeda was the least sexually active member of ultimate despair during their time of operation.

lerf — i hear you cry — how can this be?! well, let's talk about how ultimate despair is:

often it is easy to forget that ultimate despair isn't extremely hedonistic in their actions. they too despair — they may revel in it, but they do cause pain to themselves as they cause pain onto others. they'll kill and torture, but they'll also destroy their own families and bodies. ultimate despair is not indiscriminate in spreading despair. there is suffering on the part of everyone involved. be it via mutilating themselves, starving themselves, or something else.

and so i bring you the thing i have been alluding to for fucking weeks (maybe months???) on this blog at this point: the cage(tm).

aka: the komaeda chastity cage era.

okay, okay, get the giggles out because this is serious business (yes it's also really funny conceptually but stick with me). komaeda's hyper-sexuality is something that is gonna unfortunately plague his mind with constant sexual thoughts and desires. he literally cannot help it. and to prevent him fro alleviating these desires someone (likely junko <3 thanks queen) could lock him up in a chastity cage. which would not only make it fucking worse, but also completely stop him from getting any real satisfaction/gratification even if he did have a sexual encounter. in essence: he is fucking suffering ladies, gentleman, and everything in between.

it is a special brand of torment just for him. it's not a kink thing or anything like that — it's not fun for him at all. it's distracting, it's annoying, it's stressful, and it is a constant source of frustration. and before you comment, yeah this is logistically sound — he can pee, and depending on the type he can probably clean it pretty well if need be. i did my fucking research (i'm committed you guys).

anyway if junko doesn't keep the key i do think the idea of ultimate despair fucking trading it around is super fucking funny. taunt him, bully him, whatever. this is me fighting against overly sexualized version of tragedy komaeda. what if he was sopping wet and pathetic guys? have we considered this? well, now you have.

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komaeda thriving bc he can get free kisses from his beloved symbols of hope u_u

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like for a komaeda kissy in your inbox

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i’m winning gang

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i’m at anime expo today gang