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so I guess I’ll just leave this is for whoever finds me All I can really say is I’m sorry I can’t live with myself I can’t take the pain, the emptiness It’s all just too much I’m hollow  I can’t take life anymore

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The taste of your lips were so sour

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Me: oh my god, you're so fat, you need to start eating healthy, you don't even deserve to eat at all

Also me: eats 4 pieces of bread, and avocado, chips, berries, and 3 pieces of pizza and still wants food

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HELP

i miss missing you 

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me: *sends a single text* why am i so clingy

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American Horror Story

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Days of endless struggle

More hopeful pills today

Trying to appear 'normal'

In some sort of way.

It seems that the struggle

Is always here with me

And I wouldn't be here now

If guilt would leave me be

I know there's been many

Who've had it worse than I

But that doesn't always mean

That I wouldn't say good-bye

People say I have a lot going for me

I'm sorry, but I just can't see

I can't see because my worst enemy

Is not my life, but inside of me.

Always on a roller coaster,

Not much consistency

I'm nothing if I'm not up or down

I'm nothing if just 'me.'

Very little energy

Wanting to stay in bed

Wishing to be enthusiastic

Instead of feeling like I'm made of lead.

Wanting to be excited

Wanting to care for more

But when nothing makes sense

It's hard to focus on the poor.

Cluttered mind, cluttered thinking

It's hard to keep in touch

With what is happening around me

And not to worry too much.

I feel that everybody is better than me

And that I can't do anything right.

This is how I've felt my whole dang life

It didn't just start last night.

No confidence, no self-esteem

Everybody else is right

To speak my mind is to be a fool

So I just try to 'sit tight.'

Any one of these problems

Would be a heavy vice

But when you have them ALL

Living seems like a roll of the dice

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She stood on the bridge 

In silence and fear

For the demons of darkness

Had driven her here

They cut her heart 

Right out of her chest

Making her believe 

That the demons knew best 

They were always there

Sometimes just out of sight

Waiting in the background 

Till the time was right 

These demons were destructive 

Knocking down the life she knew 

Hating everything about her

She hated herself too

These demons can't be seen

But they're far from fairy tales 

They live inside your mind 

Their evilness prevails 

So on the bridge she stood

About to end the fight

Then she stopped and thought

I'll fight them one more night

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Have you ever wonder what it is like to die ... no ?

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via weheartit

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Smartest, hottest, most popular girl She flashes a smile that would make your vision swirl Silky brown hair down to her waist Everyone she meets, she will embrace Such a perfect girl with a warm, kind heart No one knows the secrets that tears her apart Perfect tan skin that never ceases to amuse Choosing clothes that will hide the bruises Strutting down the halls with unbeatable grace No one knows the torture she has to face She watched the clock with a sad, broken face As soon someone approaches, the smile is back in place When she comes home, it is impossible to smile He breaks her body and spirit in such a violent style She arrives home, desperately hoping he wasn't there As he calls her from his room, her eyes fills with despair Her eyes start watering, knowing what is to come Just imagining the bloody mess she was to become Her body shaking, she heads up the stairs Hoping God will answer her prayers She starts stripping her clothes along the way Again, not knowing if it was her last day She reaches his room, not daring to look in his eyes Silently crying, as he runs his hands up her thighs He lays her down and the painful sting returns No matter how many times it happens, it still burns It continues for hours, then it comes to an end She wakes up the next morning, sore, ready to pretend That she is perfect, that she is okay Putting on makeup and shutting the pain away She fixes herself and looks in the mirror "That's not me", the thought becomes clearer Her trademark smile is in perfect place The sadness is blocked away from her face She feels she could collapse under the strain She heads out the door, repeating the cycle again

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Yes, James!

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