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this is a true story it happened to me just 2 hours ago

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“Get his ass” Is so unreasonably funny to me. A huge win for the English language. Today’s version of “seize him” imo

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ch.5 ouma

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Horse figure of the day: CollectA #88671 Thoroughbred Foal

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it's happening again I need more lobotomies. now.

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i hope a ceiling fan falls on the empty spot in the bed next to you and it starts understanding your needs

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if you read this no you didn't fuck you suck my dick it's like a mile long (nonexistent flaccid) so you'd choke and die

everyone's really reflecting on ex related things and basically is? kinda normal at this point. but I dunno if I actually processed it until now. the fact that I also got kinda treated badly. and still continue to be even though we aren't in a relationship and we went NC (not publicly elaborating). its alwayssss me. it really sucks when your whole thing is wanting to be acknowledged as a person and you finally find someone who does. and then you lose them. and then you look back and realize you couldn't talk about something so important to you because while yeah that was one of the guys kins it wasn't the main one or whatever and talking about your own canon would probably make him mad (and the few times I got passionate about something related to the version of that kintype i knew he got annoyed). so like. idk even with the first people to see me as a person, a real breathing human fucking being, I couldn't actually be myself half the time. talk about what was important to me.

all of that leads into tonight. post simulation with momota-chan. i really don't like talking about this but all my friends know so whatever... im (referring to myself, not the system) an intense crybaby. im overly emotional. and im currently awake at 5:30 in the morning thinking about momota-chan and how much I miss everything. because he was also the first person to see me as a person. and after the simulation and shit. when I found out the world saw me as a character. and the other people I knew saw me as the mask I put on (and I wanted them to see me as that anyway so really that's my fault). he was still the only. one. who looked at me like I was a person. and i couldn't express it fully then because it was in my nature to not. but he was so important to me. he knew he was even if I couldn't say it, he's a smart fucker, he could read me easily after a certain point. and now I've split here. a bunch of years ago. and I still can't express it to him. or to anyone really. because I don't really know if words can really convey what he means to me.

something that's so fucking awful.about being spiritual kin is the flow of time. there's no guarantee that you exist at the same time as the people you care about. the people you miss could be here, but they could be like two months old or in their 90s. the idea of being able to meet the people important to you is so improbable it makes me feel kind of sick. and even if you meet a version that wasn't the version you know, it gets awkward to talk about your version. don't wanna fakeclaim you know? or make things awkward? like no i promise im not flirting with you when I talk about wanting this guys tongue down my throat. im talking about a complete different guy who happens to also be you but I'm not talking about You you.

so yeah. it sucks. and ive been up for hours thinking about how ill never find that one person again. i have people in my life that see me as an individual now. its nice. but it's not the same as with him and i don't think it ever will.

i hope wherever he is momota-chan spontaneously chokes on an egg. like the egg randomly spawns out of nowhere and now he's dead. i say this non romantically as im currently in a heterosexual relationship with 3583047285783 girlfriends and yes they smoke weed. im not gay momota i don't even know what that word means

i can't even say the words. man i fucking hate being me! i can say all of this but i can't say the simplest words that I want to say! dont recommend being me. i need like twelve lobotomies

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5am and I'm awake with kin thoughts. im omw to the river for unspecified reasons catch me sleeping with the fishes

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damn, she’s a bad bitch. oh they’re nonbinary? my bad. damn, they’re a bad person

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💌Matching pfps💌

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blowing up eito with my mind

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yeah could I get a uuuuuuhhhhhhh...some whimsy? could I get some fucking whimsy up in here?

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was going through some of my health records and some doctor put “dresses oddly” next to my psychotic symptoms. hey fuck you too man