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i need to live in the forest with a shrine dedicated to myself. i need altars. i need somebody to fawn over me. i wish to be indulgent and adored for a day

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Naum Gabo, Linear Construction in Space no. 2, 1935-1937

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‘‘ In the silence I can see you for the first time…’‘

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i need to live in the forest with a shrine dedicated to myself. i need altars. i need somebody to fawn over me. i wish to be indulgent and adored for a day

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a gentle and kind reminder that delusional nonhumans/alterhumans are valid and their nonhumanity isn't stripped away simply because it is due to psychological reasons

Another reminder that you dont HAVE to identify as nonhuman if you don't want to, even if you meet the critera, whether you consider yourself nonhuman or not is strictly up to you

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Balance

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‘Sheep Eyes’ by Jamie Wyeth, 1968

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need more wings and eyes. immediately.

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And the sky opened up

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(this is my perspective as a schizophrenic + psychotic nonhuman but i encourage anyone who relates to reblog if they want)

i don't even care if my belief in me being physically, mentally, biologically, and instinctually a coyote is a delusion or not. it doesn't matter.

I've never felt so comfortable as myself when I feel like a coyote. when I engage in coyote like tasks. when I discuss being a coyote. when I feel my ears and tail move. when I feel my fur ruffle in the wind. when my prey drive makes me focus and pounce at things. the joy i feel vocalizing and howling and just being a feral animal. the need to protect my territory. the yearning of digging a den.

it's the purest joy I've ever felt in my life. with no shame.

I know deep in my bones I have been a coyote all along. getting to discover it and learn and feel and everything....im so glad to have been able to finally feel more at peace with myself.

I am more comfortable as an undead coyote shapeshifter than I ever was trying to force myself into being a human. I was so afraid for so long of embracing this part of me but now that i have...I've never felt better. even with all the struggles, I wouldn't trade this discovery and acceptance of myself for anything.

I love my coyote self. I love my undead self. I love my shapeshifter self.

- Gar 🗑 (it/its)

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Vent comic abt being autistic and a therian

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Fellow psychotic or delusional nonhumans and alterbeings, where are you? I want to follow more of us.

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I wish I could find a place for myself in the nonhuman community. Sometimes I feel so alone here.

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The Hunger Konstantin Korobov

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Yes, this is similar to some of what we've experienced, trying to find our place in the nonhuman community. Thank you.

Anyone else feel like an outcast in the alterhuman community?

Most of the therians/alterhumans/nonhumans I see online are minors; I’m 20 years old.

Most of them can do quadrobics; I can’t run on all fours for five minutes without everything hurting, and if I did a jump, I’d probably break my wrists

A lot of them seem to enjoy the company of humans; I’ve never trusted or liked humans

Most of the community talks about being “silly” or “cute” when experiencing a mental shift; I have violent, animal instincts and avoid others when I feel a mental shift coming on

I don’t know. I just feel like a lot of us have become… tame. And I’m not. I feel like we as a community don’t talk about the “darker” side of not being human. The violent prey drive. The instinctive fear of humans that wild animals have.

To clarify, I mean no hate towards those who genuinely enjoy not being human. I just feel like even in a community of outcasts, I’m an outcast.

It’s just frustrating. In a place meant for those who aren’t human, I’m still too different to fit in. I just want to have a place to belong, you know?