unbrokensilence

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Today is the day we get high. Today is the day to let all of your problems go for a few hours. Live in the moment of peace, serenity, silence..breathing space to THINK. Happy 420

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I post because I know there’s someone that relates to all of my inner thought and emotions. I post because I know someone is thinking the same thing that I think. The same things that I want, I post it for someone who just wants to relate, comment( no rude shit). Share stories, etc. the loners, introverts, social anxiety, thoughts are of a mind as such....just wanted to bare my soul in hopes on finding like minds and beautiful people with the same feelings and emotions.

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It’s been a min since I was on here. I finally got over her. I was on to another one that didn’t work out, and on to another..I’m slowly realizing that may not work either..the same effort and poured back on to me. I feel stupid for allowing this to happen again. But is it actually happening or am I reliving my traumas as a daydream? It’s crazy because my friend told me today that I like, liking people. It made sense but it makes me feel so stupid at the same time cause why do I have to like people so hard? To the point I feel like they not matching my effort when it wasn’t mutually agreed upon. I jus want love and someone to like me back just as much as I do. I just wanted someone to match my energy but with me liking so hard that will be almost impossible. It hurts cause I always end up hurting me. I wanna give someone the world so bad, like I yearn for it. I love me so it’s not about self love..I wanna give it. And receive it in return just as much. But I’m blind to the fact that I like to hard too early. And it ends up blowing up in my face when signs were already shown and blown off by what I wanted to see..patience is a must. Detachment is a must. An Occupied mind forgets what was least important instead of confusing it with what we thought was most important.

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The letter

Ion really do the chase..but for you i might have to iono if i even qualify..ion never say the right shit...i juh know ion wanna wake up another day without saying I at least tried. Ion wanna wake up another day without you being here you mean the world to me. I dont know how to explain it to you. I jus know I cant stop thinking about you not a day goes by ur not on my mind I swear..i jus know u make me feel like my world is alright..its  greater than I ever couldve imagined I love you and I am in love with you. If that means I gotta step out my comfort zone to get you..then here I am. You are EVERYTHING to me. I know that sound crazy but ima different breed. I want nothing more then to just love you, hold you, kiss you, just feel your embrace. I wanna give you the world and the moon and the stars to go with it. I know you have been hurt. But when your with me you wont EVER have to worry. I promise I got you...all you gotta do is say the word.

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I muted her on social media thinking I was gon forget about her. But I still think about her everyday. You ever been in love with someone and they don’t know it? Yearning to breathe the same air the breathe and they don’t even know you exist. They don’t even notice you. You pray they just see YOU. For once but your only fooling yourself. It’s hard to get over. It’s hard to let go cause u feel like maybe it’s not time yet or maybe jus maybe one day..so u hold on to that one day, When you know you shouldn’t..and that’s the part that breaks your heart cause you know the truth.

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It’s hard to fall out of love with someone, let alone someone you barely even know, Truly. I’ve loved on you since I met you, it’s been about 4 years or maybe longer but I’m in love with A heart that will NEVER belong to me. No matter how hard I try to get acquainted with it. We are not on the same Rhthym. I’ve searched for love so long and it finally feels right. Why does it feel so right if your wrong? Why do you feel so good on my skin? Why do you feel so good to me with your energy? why do I feel like you get me when no one else does? Am I wrong for believing you to be my soulmate? I’ve ran this course of me hoping and praying to marry you one day in my head but I know once i come to my senses, I’ll be disappointed. I try to ignore you and how you make me feel but my heart can’t seem to let you go, the hardest thing to do in my life is letting you go. Even though we don’t date, in my mind..your mines. I can’t help these feelings and I even spoke you into the universe but your heart, will never be mines. I’m my brain, I’m good for you, I won’t EVER hurt you but your heart..it’s not mines. I cry sometimes because I pray for you and ask god to send you just for me. But in reality, I need to let you go. It hurts cause there’s no replacing you, I don’t want do. But when the universe has spoke it’s peice...and you realize the heart that you want will NEVER be yours, you have to let go...-UNBROKEN SILENCE