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So I don't want to be that person who begs for scraps when a story ends. But I would like to know if Aurore visits her parents often (with James too, sometimes?). And if Hermione and Draco are still happy. I hope they stay happy until their death. They deserve it.

Aurore did visit her parents. And Draco and Hermione were happy, much happier than either of them ever expected to be.

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"I'll get going", he said. "Book me a ride?"

She booked him a ride, waited for it to arrive and said her goodbyes.

Yet again, she's left dissatisfied and used. She has never hated herself more. It wasn't supposed to be this way. He was supposed to be the one who feels broken and used every time he leaves, not the other way around.

As she closed her door that night, she vowed that will be the last time that door opened up for that person. She can't count on anyone to make things right for herself. She only has herself.

May the gods, the God, the Universe--whatever is out there hear her prayers this time.

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Me

I’m selfish. I’ll hurt you before you get the chance to hurt me ...

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All time fave. 💕

ok but hear me out… it’s been years and i still can’t stop thinking about percy in the huge ass ocean just feeling annabeth’s dagger somewhere in the water and immediately going over like “my girl needs me” and just flooding octavian and crew and then just being like “you dropped this”. all poker face as if he didn’t just. do that. like. that’s ROMANCE okay. unparalleled.

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I know I said I needed space but wow I am surprised to find out how much of an ass you are. Like I knew it but I’m still very much surprised that you would really run away at the first sign of trouble. What an ass.

I’m thankful for the space though. I hope my thoughts of you stop haunting me, too.

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I need you to stay away from me because I have to do what is right.

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I just want to be loved.

I’d give them everything. Everything.

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I will always want you. I will always choose you. That fuccing ring fuccening hurt more than it should. It’s stupid. Borderline insane.

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karen mulder✨ | 90s versace runway

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Why am I always attracted to fuccbois. 😩

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Sometimes I think I’ve gotten over you completely. And then there are days like today when I wish you would just ask me how I am out of the blue. Like call me and not just message me so I can’t ignore you. Force my hand to ignore what is right and wrong and just go all the way with you. I know healing does not follow a linear path. I also know that I have to want to heal. I know that but I still don’t know what I want. 

If only all of these happened earlier. before everything.

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I am happy that there’s some form of engagement there but there are times when I long for the days when my Twitter account was a void I could just shout to when everything drives me crazy. I could write there and not censor any thoughts because people don’t care or don’t read anything I post. At least that’s how I imagine it to be. Now I’m scared that my tweets will point to stuff I’m hiding and my intellectual twitter friends will piece things together. It’s not their fault and I love the intellectual discussions but well, I miss being able to use socmed irresponsibly. This pandemic really has changed everything. Lol

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I was just starting to feel okay with you finally ignoring me as you should even though it hurts me. I was starting the emotional journey and then you come back and laugh at my jokes again and my ice cold frozen heart does this little fluttering thing and boy am I glad that I did some writing last night so now I’m feeling a little bit stable even though you just pulled one over me.

I also accidentally started watching the Izzie-George arc in Grey’s anatomy. I used to hate it so much but now I can seem to relate to Izzie’s line. My heart also felt tugged when the scene showed Derek choosing Mer regardless of how much he knows it’ll hurt him and idk, I kind of wish one day you might pull a McDreamy to my Meredith. I’d even settle for a McSteamy to my Lexie.

I’m still writing from the 12th floor though.

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Dear Universe,

Twice in a lifetime is already too much, don’t you think? I refuse to believe you are that cruel.

💔,

me

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