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fuck me (or don't)

i dont even know where to start again im really angry at people. i just, i just can't stand them anymore. the past 2 days for me have been hell. im really angry at men too. especially attractive ones? i dont even find most men like that attractive, but other women do. which makes me angry, because usually guys like that end up using their physical appearance so they'd be fuck boys. I've met a guy like that yesterday, he seemed cool first. then it turns out he's a horny retard who constantly wants to fuck girls, but only attractive girls. he's exactly what i thought he would be. it's sad because my friend wants to get with him. what is wrong with people lately? what's with this obsession with sexuality? anyone saying i need to get laid, keep in mind that i dont want to. i just can't imagine myself doing anything sexual, it makes me uncomfortable. it's not that im asexual, im straight as hell but i just feel like fucking is nothing important. but that's where the problem comes in. today's world is obsessed with sexuality. it's really obsessed, and women are expected to be sexually appealing. what do i mean by this? look at any piece of media. Hollywood only seems to cast actresses that are considered beautiful by today's standards. rarely they'll cast someone who, let's say, has fuck ton of pimples on them. which is something most people find not very appealing. or rarely, they'll cast someone overweight. and I mean actually overweight, the too much stomach type, not the "curves in the right places" type. this isn't just with Hollywood, this is with video games. each time they wanna make a badass female character, she has to be attractive too. or if they wanna make a female character who's entirely the opposite, who's gentle and motherly like, she has to look beautiful. when will i see a female character who's NOT a villain, who's NOT lame or pushed in the background, a woman who's likable but isn't painfully attractive at the same time??? i mean this both face wise and bodywise. I'm genuinely pretty done with seeing the same lame stuff. Why can't I see something realistic? Why can't there be a character I can relate to looks-wise? (inb4 someone says i can relate to Urgot)

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Hello, friend.

It's me again. I know you haven't missed me, but that doesn't stop me from sliding into your dashboard like a sneaky fox, right? Anyways, speaking of my old posts... I know some of the shit I said were fucked up, but to my defense, the enrage came from reason. At the time, I just didn't have anyone stopping me from thinking these things and telling me this isn't normal. I'm not normal, that's for sure. Maybe these could be viewed as bad excuses, but even some excuses have an amount of truth behind them. And mine have a good complexity of truths in them. I know I'm not a sexist, yet I did say some shit about my own gender. Addressing that issue, I have a lot of identity issues lately, I think. And some of it stem from the fact that I was born this, a woman. And as I grew up, a lot of things are expected from you when you're a woman. More on that soon. I've come to realize, a lot of things in me are influenced by other people around me. Their choice of words and actions. Every time, I tend to take them more seriously than I should. And that tends to sometimes backfire. Keep in touch, friend. Even though in reality... I am just a shitty person.

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Hello, friend.

Hello, friend. It's me again. Damn this is lame. I came back after reading my posts from a year ago again and well... I'm glad at least that phase was over. But not much has changed. I'm still alone. But at least now im 101% sure I will probably stay alone. I reached the age of 18 before Halloween, so that's cool. (No its not.) I have many things to say they are just not ready to come out yet. In the meantime, stay close, friend.

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Welp, its official. Life is so horny that it keeps fucking me in the ass without a condom OR lube.

Sorry for the wait, person who doesn't even read any of my posts. That wasn't meant to sound so salty but it ended up that anyway.

Its been prolly like a month or two since i last cared enough to post here anyway.

So what happened since then?

Well, the thing is, I've gotten better. Just a little.

I've felt not AS miserable as before. Fuck, my English ran away.

So, i got over my ex, typical teen girl thing but its okay, i knew that I'll get over him it'll just take time for me. Its really difficult because i always take everything...so personally.

Which screams how insecure i am.

There's really one way to fix this but i can't help it, i just have nothing positive in my life anymore. Everything seems to fail. Just about everything.

But anyway, here's the bad part....my ex messaged me a month ago.

He apologized, told me he's sorry and that he was immature, and i asked him well what about your girlfriend? And it turned out he didn't even get one lol. At least that's what he said but i can still hardly believe it.

So long story short, i did the BIG mistake of getting back together.

I just couldn't fucking help it, i missed him and he seemed he was willing to try again!

But boi was i wrong.

It was pretty much the same, it's just that we didn't argue over things such as boohoo, not paying enough attention to me, etc. I was more understanding and I guess a little more mature this time.

And i was hopeful things will be okay.

But it wasn't because SOMEONE HAD TO INTERFERE. And im not speaking of cheating, im speaking of his friend, who suggested "why don't you see someone already, you wont be depressed anymore".

And when he told me the news that he's being FORCED to "meet" another girl, i was so fucking angry.

And then HE GOT MAD over my reaction!! What a fucking slob he is.

Ofc I'll get mad when he's technically CHEATING AND REPLACING ME.

I'm not gonna let myself be CUCKED by a guy like him!

But anyway, full story will be posted another time. This was just straight up depressing. I hate this.

And remember, next time if your ex comes back, kick him straight out!

Its just that,

The worst part is...

I know mine won't.

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❛ ┊ — ✶ 30 K/DA ICONS

here are 30 icons from the new music video featuring k/da. I’ve never played LoL in my life and idk shit about it but. im gay and these girls are hot so I made some icons. they took awhile so credit is appreciated. enjoy!

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The Countdown In The Opening Ceremony

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See 언제든지 내 모습 Magic (see my anytime magic) 단 한 번에 내가 잡어 (I only catch one at a time) 절대 기죽지 않지 (I never get to sleep) Pow pow 네가 뭘 알아 (pow pow, what do you know) 견딜 수 없어, 원해도. (I can not bear it, even if I want to) 원하는 게 얼굴에 보여 (Show me what you want) I’m trouble and you’re wanting it I’m so cold When I move that way You gonna be so blown I’m the realest in the game uh!

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hello fren

have i ever mentioned how much i despise America and American people??

they're so fucking rude and arrogant for no reason, and their tastes are terrible. and it seems that most shitty basic popular trends originate from there, dear lord.

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