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It was an accident.

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heathersinclairs​:

heather only knew tough love and it translated with holly j. she knew she was pretty harsh with her for years but heather is a realist. she can tell by the tiniest wrinkle on holly j’s face whatever she’s feeling and she would usually call it out. she loved her little sister and made sure to look after her especially now that she was harboring this secret. “you’re always going to have people hate you because they envy you. you just have to let it go.” her face was stern with her hands on her hips. she wanted her sister to have everything which came with a lot of pushing from heather. “it was pretty good. danced a little, spent some time with addy, maybe made out with a guy or two.” her red painted lips turned into a smile.  “please tell me you aren’t fucking craig manning and involved in some weird love orgy.”

They understood each other, and that’s really all that mattered to Holly J at the end of the day. Heather’s word were true, and something Holly J constantly had to replay in her mind to check herself to maintain the level of polished she had achieved. It was good for her to hear her older sister’s advice, and she nodded thoughtfully. “Yeah, duh, of course. I mean what not to be jealous of really,” She smiled back at Heather, raising a brow in amusement. “Oooh sounds very eventful, now I’m jealous,” which was half true. The last comment soured her expression, moreso at just even the thought of involving herself in that web of drama. “Absolutely not. Craig may be extremely attractive, but pretty fades, stupid is forever and I need someone that has the whole package before I can pretend to entertain something.” Holly J’s standards were impossible, which is probably why her romantic life was dry as can be.

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heathersinclairs​:

heather can already see the doubt in her eyes, it was constant with her which she tried to help her with. she drilled it in her that she could be powerful if she let go whatever fear that was in her way. besides she shared the sinclair name with her which gave her that footing. “well why not? you had no competition. you think i’d let this school choose the girl from lazytown or darcy’s little sister to win? hell no.” she now got up from her seat and going over to holly j to face her. “well it doesn’t matter now. i’m sure you won by a landslide.” she said as she placed a strand of hair out of her face, fixing the tiara on her head. “there. perfect.”

These were moments Holly J lived for, even if she wouldn’t admit it, the feelings that welled inside of her told her differently, knowing that in Heather’s own special way this was a moment of approval. Heather was truly everything Holly J strived to embody. She looked down, and laughed a bit, shrugging a shoulder. “I can’t argue with you there, I just always figured everyone hates me more than they like me,” a small smile played on her lips, “I guess I was wrong.” The praise made her smile bigger, flashing her almost blinding white teeth, “You’re right, I probably did.” Heather’s gesture once again welled some emotions in her she tried to suppress, and while most would try to get mushy, Holly J just wanted to accept it and change the topic, so she did. “How was your night, Heather? Anything fun happen? I almost got caught in between drama with Ellie Nash, Craig Manning, and Xan Mason.”

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b-tchcraft​:

“Oh, believe me, I didn’t rule out the possibility.” The way Holly J’s face lit up, made Ellie’s face light up, especially with how touched the other girl seemed to be at the gesture. “…Yeah, I know I didn’t have to. That’s part of what makes it so fun.” Readjusting her backpack straps over her shoulders, she shrugged a little. “I was having a rough night and you came in clutch. I just wanted to say thank you. Everything kind of worked itself out after the fact—I told them I’d basically spent the night with royalty and I think it humbled them a bit.” She said with a playful wink. Obviously the details ran deeper than that, but she wasn’t not going to brag to Holly J, about bragging about Holly J. “But yeah, everything’s good now. Like…really good, even? I think?” She made a small face, combing her hair back with the pointed press-ons she’d put on for the dance. “I don’t know. Slightly confusing, but I’ll get back to you.” Her hands burrowed into the front pocket of her hoodie as she watched her ruminate over the gift, and she had to laugh. “I guess it has to be. Call it intuition. Or maybe we’re just like long-lost best friends from another life or something.” Was that weird? At least Ellie knew she could get away being a bit much if she wanted to be. “…Um, but yeah. For real, I appreciated it. And it made me realize that we always seem to talk in passing, and never actually intend on it. And at this point, I have no idea why we never just like…hang out, you know?”

The idea of kicking someone’s ass for Ellie made Holly J laugh a bit, mainly because she couldn’t really explain why she felt so strongly about it, maybe it was because of Ellie’s teary eyes kept replaying in her head. She continued to admire the cup, a trophy almost. The corner of her lip tugged upwards at the mention of royalty. “I was in the right place at the right time,” and that was the truth, being in the bathroom only to spruce herself up, That’s a positive outcome then,” Her smirked widen at the fellow redhead’s wink, tossing her hair back with her free hand nonchalantly. “As they should, I would have hated leaving, being crowned, and you still having a terrible night, then I might have to unleash my monarch powers on them.” She joked, which to most might seem weird, but with Ellie, they seemed to become more and more casual with each other every meeting. Ellie brought out a side of Holly J not many could. Really the only people that could say they have seen this side were Fiona and Anya, her best friends. “Intuition,” she echoed, “redheaded intuition I suppose we can chalk it up as that.” At Ellie’s offer, she tried not to jump out of her own skin. One of Holly J’s biggest complexes was how hard it was to get closer to people, and them see her as well, anything besides this robotic version of herself, and it seemed Ellie, of all people who had a grip on the popularity HJ so desperately craved, admired that and maybe more about her. Her smirked widened to a smile, nodding once, “We do don’t we? I agree, we should just hang out, I know we’ve both got pretty busy schedules but I’d happily make time for you. We can even get you a matching cup, black of course, and we can parade around with them.”

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heathersinclairs​:

heather had just arrived home plopping herself down on the couch as she scrolled aimlessly through her phone. she saw in the corner of her eye holly j. walking nearby. there were no words exchanged between the two. it was strange how they were sisters living under the same room yet she felt so far away from her. most of it was her own doing as she was never the best older sister that she could be.“that tiara suits you,” finally, some words to fill the air between the two.  “proving to the school once again what sinclairs are made of.” 

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Holly J hadn’t been home for very long, she had gotten herself a glass of water and made her way to turn in for the night. Usually at this time the Sinclair household was still, but she noticed her older sister splayed on the couch. The weight of the tiara became more prominent, forgetting about it until Heather called attention to it. A compliment. That was rare. Their relationship had always been strained, and any effort Holly J could put in were given up years ago. She smiled regardless, revealing in Heather’s comment, “Thanks. I wasn’t expecting it at all.” She straightened her back, almost striking a pose, “If I had known I had a chance I would have put effort into an actual campaign.”

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b-tchcraft​:

“Holly J Sinclair, I have just gotten very good at finding you, haven’t I?” The tone of voice Ellie had on this morning was a proud one, almost gloating, and definitely a lot more chipper than when the two redheads last ran into one another (though just how messy her bun was sure seemed to indicate that her hair hadn’t been washed since then). “Lucky for both of us, it’s actually on purpose this time.” Rounding the corner of the near-empty hallway (being that who other than these two would dare be at school early the Monday after Homecoming weekend), the older girl let her backpack fall to the side to grab a tumbler from its side pouch. “I don’t know if you’re more of a Tim Hortons nationalist, but I figured your taste palette would appreciate a change from The Dot either way.” Clearly excited about the hand-off, she reached out with a glittery red Starbucks cold cup, streaked with condensation despite how slyly Ellie tried to dry it with the sleeve of her oversized sweatshirt. “I figured an iced latte is always a safe choice. But then I saw this and thought, red and sparkly? Befitting as an offer of mutual ginger respect as well as a thank-you present to the homecoming princess for having my back at the dance? I’m almost positive that it’s from last year’s holiday collection so I aggressively had to ignore it being at full fucking price for some reason, because really, how could I resist.”

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The sun had barely even stretched over the horizon and Holly J had already started her day at Degrassi. Post homecoming was always a bit of a lull but that didn’t stop her from doing her Vice Presidential duties, really whatever Drew didn’t feel like doing that day. Out of what seemed like thin air, Ellie’s voice called to her, something she’d grown to greatly appreciate in the past couple weeks. Holly J smiled genuinely, a rare sight, “Ellie Nash, finally in higher spirits I see, much to my relief, I thought I may have to actually hurt someone for you.” It’s true, seeing Ellie actually in a good mood compared to their previous interaction, dabbing the corners of her eye to spare the intricate makeup Ellie had. She shrugged, “I don’t have a particular taste, as long as it’s good, right?” and before she could get a proper word out she was bestowed the gift of a cup. She blinked, a small look of excitement and shock riddled her face. It took HJ a moment to really process that this was the first time anyone has gifted her... well really anything besides her family, and the warmth she felt was almost enough to melted her frozen solid heart. “...Yeah, wow, Ellie, you really didn’t have to get me this,” she smiled softly, letting out a breath of a laugh, squinting her eyes playfully at her, “how’d you know I love red, glitter, and tea lattes? Is this part of whatever ginger thing we have going on here?” She ran her fingers along the condensation, making little trails as she stared at it thoughtfully.

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↳INSTGRM: @sinderella uploaded a new picture!

Finally got around to posting my looks from this spirit week.

Day one was really only a single photo moment because I was not about to be caught dead with my hair covering my face, my foundation is too nice for that. Day two went for some 90′s baby doll realness, clearly zero effort, I can admit. Day three self explanatory, I tried, I came, I conquered. Day four I was riding the high of my day three success and actually covered myself with fake blood, don’t ask me what I had to do to get the mild stains out. And day five I decided to wear my spirit squad uniform, thank goodness for the white turtleneck or you’d see how red my skin was from rubbing the fake blood off.

Now I’m just excited to go to with my favorite person @fionsarabella #DegrassiMoonlightMasquerade2020

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folkin’ around

folkin’ around — what’s your favorite memory?

Ever? That’s a loaded question, but I guess I have some cute Christmas memories of my family all together in matching pjs when I was really little.

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i have friends in holy spaces

i have friends in holy spaces  — has a former lover ever fucked you over?

Do I look like I have time to even think about lending my time to some scrub that’ll most likely end up disappointing me? No thanks, if we’re going to date and I have to put effort in, you better be made of solid gold.

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mad as rabbits

mad as rabbits  — do you believe in true love?

I suppose? But I also think it’s a weakness that everyone seems to need someone to love. Really it’s wasted energy that could be used to hone in on personal skill sets. Or I could be bitter that I’m alone. Who knows.

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fionsarabella​:

So, the best thing that’s ever happened to you is not meeting me? I’m hurt.

You’re so right, though I have to mention the only thing that compares to meeting you is escaping the need for plastic surgery.

pas de cheval

pas de cheval — what’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you?

Ever? I wasn’t cursed with the dreaded Sinclair schnoze, so that’s pretty awesome.

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the piano knows something i don’t know

the piano knows something i don’t know  — does your curiosity ever get you into trouble?

Not really. Besides, nothing that would get me in trouble makes me curious.

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pas de cheval

pas de cheval — what’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you?

Ever? I wasn’t cursed with the dreaded Sinclair schnoze, so that’s pretty awesome.

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pretty. odd. asks 🌺

we’re so starving — have you ever left someone high and dry?

nine in the afternoon — have you ever done drugs?

she’s a handsome woman — do you live in the moment?

do you know what i’m seeing? — have you ever hallucinated?

that green gentleman — have things changed for the better in your life?

i have friends in holy spaces — has a former lover ever fucked you over?

northern downpour — do you ever feel lonely?

when the day met the night — have you ever been in love with someone who was the complete opposite of you?

pas de cheval — what’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you?

the piano knows something i don’t know — does your curiosity ever get you into trouble?

behind the sea — do you ever talk to god?

folkin’ around — what’s your favorite memory?

she had the world — do you ever feel like you could rule the world?

from a mountain in the middle of the cabins — what’s your favorite season of the year?

mad as rabbits — do you believe in true love?

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moodboards –– connections –– fiona coyne + holly j sinclair ( BFFS )

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fionsarabella​:

“You   know   that   flattery   will   get   you   everywhere”   she   tells   the   girl,   feeling   a   heat   flush   her   cheeks   red   if   only   for   a   moment.   Fiona   nods   her   head,   understanding   how   the   hustle   and   bustle   can   make   time   fly   by   faster.   “Little   ol’   me?”   she   feigns   surprise,   placing   a   delicate   hand   over   her   chest   as   she   does   so.   She   carefully   takes   the   full   cup   of   hot   coffee   from   Holly   J,   taking   a   slow   sip   not   wanting   to   burn   her   tongue.   “You   are   a   lifesaver.   How   long   does   it   typically   take   for   you   to   close   up?“

After handing off the drink, HJ immediately went in and cleaned off the machine for what felt like the millionth time. “Duh, of course, after serving cranky, caffeine deprived people all day, it’s a game changer to have a bit of class around,” She smiled, taking a loose rag and wiping little spots on the counter, mentally making a checklist for herself. “Don’t mention it, or do, you know I love the praise,” She shrugged at Fi’s question, glancing around, “Not long, I’ve already done the major duties, I’ve just got a couple things to trash and bring in the chairs from the outside in, maybe 10 minutes? I try to be out of here as soon as humanly possible.”