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Do you have any good Age Gap Joel Miller Fics Recommendations?

Sure. I'm not sure if you're looking for all time favorites or newer ones that maybe you haven't come across yet, so I'll give a mix of both:

Your Summer Dream by @tonysopranosrobe

Daddy Next Door by @cavillscurls

Fourth of July by jrrmint

That's The Way Road Dogs Do It by @joelsdagger

Whiskey Sour by @kiwisbell

The Older One by @frannyzooey

Sex on Fire by @macfrog

Is It That Sweet by @joelscruff

A Stranger's Heart Without A Home by @morning-star-joy

Like Real People Do by @mrsmando

There's, like, one thousand more I could add but I would be here all night - if anyone else has some good recs, please drop them in the comments ❤️

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Not to be one of those bitches that complain about how lonely they are but… a bitch is lonely :/

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I really don’t even know the bitch that wrote this anymore lmfaoooo STAY THE FUCK ALONE AND SINGLE

I’m just venting, but it’s a long one

So I thought I liked this guy that is younger than me… I still don’t know if I do or did

He’s literally the male version of me but I don’t feel the same butterflies, or dress up for him, I’m not embarrassed to laugh too loud or eat in front of him so I just really don’t know

But I get slightly irritated when he talks to me about other girls, or he hangs out with other girls…

Anyways, he’s acting all stand offish and weird to me so I’m literally giving up on guys younger or the same age as me… I’m used to the older guy heart break because I always subconsciously know it’s never gonna happen anyways lol…

Something just doesn’t feel right about having a younger guy breaking my heart… like… I feel embarrassed by it you know???

Idk… I’m just venting to whoever is reading this because I’ve been super lonely lately…

20 years on this planet and not one guy that’s cared about me, wanted to get to know me as a person, to kiss me, hug me, or anything…

Like idk what’s wrong with me. I have no guys even trying to text, snap, talk to me for the last 2 & ½ years … but I’ve had feelings for so many and not one ever reciprocated to my knowledge….

I don’t think I’m that ugly… I’m not the prettiest girl there is but not ugly.

Ive maintained 95% of my friendships I’ve ever made where we were actually close with one another so, I don’t think it’s my personality…

I mean obviously my chances have been slim because 9/10 the guy I like is way older and unavailable… but there’s been at least 3-4 guys my own age I’ve liked and not one ever saw the light of day…

Idk… I’m just scared cuz like … 20 years went by this fast and I’ll be 30 in 10 years… who’s to say I won’t be alone for the next 10 and I just literally live my life alone. Not kissed, not hugged, not married, not loved.

I’m already so behind on everything that I’m just scared it’ll never happen because of either me or the universe…

Like what if I die at the same romantic level of a 12 year old?

And it’s not even like I make up for it in other areas of my life… literally all I do is go to school, work, home, and the gym. I don’t travel or have exotic passions or hobbies.

I’m essentially just a robot repeating the same 4 things over and over again.

I’m wasting my life away and I don’t even know when, where, or how to start fixing it.

Ever since I was a child, things were always rough for me mentally with my anxiety and depression and I always had this feeling that God put someone on this earth just for me to help me become a happy healthy person, but I’ve just been nothing but alone my entire life. And I know I’m still young, but time is going by so quickly and idk.

Maybe I’m meant to be alone. Like there’s some bigger meaning for me and it’s my journey to conquer alone. Cuz even tho I said earlier thAt I felt like god put somebody on this earth for me, the feeling was still vague… I never pictured myself married to anyone … like even if I imagined myself with a child (which was rare) I was always a single mother in that vision… and my parents have been together my whole life so single parenthood isn’t something I’m familiar with.

Because as much as I feel lonely, the thought of depending on someone and someone depending on me emotionally is so fucking terrifying…. so maybe that’s why I only fall for emotionally and physically unavailable men such as older married guys.

So im probably subconsciously self sabotaging…

If you read all of this, bless ur heart ❤️ thanks for listening… I know it wasn’t all that TCC related but… I just needed to write my feelings out.

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The honest truth

Honestly at this point, after going through my last break up, there’s nothing I want more than to get under my TC to distract me lmfao

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I’m telling you now, just stay lonely... because like ... you don’t realize how lonely you are until one day you’re not and you’re with someone ... but then it doesn’t workout and they’re gone ... that’s when you’re the loneliest of all

Not to be one of those bitches that complain about how lonely they are but… a bitch is lonely :/

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Not anymore hahahahahalifesuckshahajajahaha

Just when you thought you moved on, then your friend tells you that your latest crush looks like your TC 🙃

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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Literally dating the “latest crush” right now... crazy how life works lmfao

Just when you thought you moved on, then your friend tells you that your latest crush looks like your TC 🙃

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Just when you thought you moved on, then your friend tells you that your latest crush looks like your TC 🙃

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Also, I really don’t know how to subtly flirt with him because it was so much easier with a teacher. Because if you did it right, 9/10 they wouldn’t care enough to say anything or get you in trouble.

But at work it’s a different story because not only am I more than of age, but there’s HR. So not only could he go to HR, but he’s like... my bosses, bosses, bosses, bosses, boss.... so he’s like kinda up there lol so he could try to fire me (I highly doubt he ever would but still it’s scary)... and the managers rotate stores like every few years and I feel like I have to say or do things now before he leaves and it’s too late :(

Boss Crush

I had this bag of chips in the back room and apparently he took some so when he saw me walking with the bag, he said “are those yours?” And almost put his hand on my arm (I’m pissed he didn’t, but he did this thing where he leans in and gets close to you and looks in ur eyes which Mr. #3 did lmao)

So I said “yeah”

And he’s like “oh I took some earlier haha”

So I was like “it’s okay!”

And he said “I’ll buy you a new bag”

He’s so fucking cute lol

I also heard him swear under his breath today bc someone dropped something so he turned the corner as I was and mumbled “fucking dropping shit already”

Like bitch I’m living please continue lmaoooo

He’s rumored to have a thing for younger girls and all my co workers who know thinks he has a thing for me because he’ll always say hi to me but not them even tho they’re like right next or behind me…

But they are also my friends so they could just be hyping me up lol

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“Perhaps one of the most underrated feelings is that of an almost relationship. People despair over divorce, over falling out of love, over losing a partner- and they should, those are moments in a life that can define us. But so does the act of losing someone you could have loved. Who you maybe even did love. Someone who may or may not have loved you back once, but now no longer can. Knowing with your entire being that you could have had something great, if only- Well. If only.”

— K.S.

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Boss Crush

I had this bag of chips in the back room and apparently he took some so when he saw me walking with the bag, he said “are those yours?” And almost put his hand on my arm (I’m pissed he didn’t, but he did this thing where he leans in and gets close to you and looks in ur eyes which Mr. #3 did lmao)

So I said “yeah”

And he’s like “oh I took some earlier haha”

So I was like “it’s okay!”

And he said “I’ll buy you a new bag”

He’s so fucking cute lol

I also heard him swear under his breath today bc someone dropped something so he turned the corner as I was and mumbled “fucking dropping shit already”

Like bitch I’m living please continue lmaoooo

He’s rumored to have a thing for younger girls and all my co workers who know thinks he has a thing for me because he’ll always say hi to me but not them even tho they’re like right next or behind me...

But they are also my friends so they could just be hyping me up lol

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Same honestly before I ended up just telling everyone tbh

Let’s play a game of ‘how many times can I mention my teacher before my friend gets suspicious’

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so i recently developed a tc and i‘ve had this teacher last year too but i didn‘t really notice him i actually hated him bc he graded me so badly but this year i kinda have a crush on him and started to really make an effort and participate in class so do you think he noticed me crushing on him?

No, I mean if he’s a harsh grader he probably just thinks you know his grading style by now so you just want him to think you’re trying you know?

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Just wanting to vent about my TC(D). I've had D as a teacher both 9 & 10 grade. In 10, I was offered a spot in his new AP Computer class. I felt so special because we had bonded about so many things before. We had so much fun in there and he always cares about me and asks how I am. Well, now that I'm a Junior and I don't have him for a class, anytime I talk to him, he says stuff like "I miss you" or "I really want you in my class again". This always makes me melt even if I can't have him. 🙃💕

That’s the stuff that really gets you... cuz you think why else would they be saying these things if they didn’t really care about you....

I miss it :/

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I hate how alone I’ve felt since him

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I’m just venting, but it’s a long one

So I thought I liked this guy that is younger than me... I still don’t know if I do or did

He’s literally the male version of me but I don’t feel the same butterflies, or dress up for him, I’m not embarrassed to laugh too loud or eat in front of him so I just really don’t know

But I get slightly irritated when he talks to me about other girls, or he hangs out with other girls...

Anyways, he’s acting all stand offish and weird to me so I’m literally giving up on guys younger or the same age as me... I’m used to the older guy heart break because I always subconsciously know it’s never gonna happen anyways lol...

Something just doesn’t feel right about having a younger guy breaking my heart... like... I feel embarrassed by it you know???

Idk... I’m just venting to whoever is reading this because I’ve been super lonely lately...

20 years on this planet and not one guy that’s cared about me, wanted to get to know me as a person, to kiss me, hug me, or anything...

Like idk what’s wrong with me. I have no guys even trying to text, snap, talk to me for the last 2 & 1/2 years ... but I’ve had feelings for so many and not one ever reciprocated to my knowledge....

I don’t think I’m that ugly... I’m not the prettiest girl there is but not ugly.

Ive maintained 95% of my friendships I’ve ever made where we were actually close with one another so, I don’t think it’s my personality...

I mean obviously my chances have been slim because 9/10 the guy I like is way older and unavailable... but there’s been at least 3-4 guys my own age I’ve liked and not one ever saw the light of day...

Idk... I’m just scared cuz like ... 20 years went by this fast and I’ll be 30 in 10 years... who’s to say I won’t be alone for the next 10 and I just literally live my life alone. Not kissed, not hugged, not married, not loved.

I’m already so behind on everything that I’m just scared it’ll never happen because of either me or the universe...

Like what if I die at the same romantic level of a 12 year old?

And it’s not even like I make up for it in other areas of my life... literally all I do is go to school, work, home, and the gym. I don’t travel or have exotic passions or hobbies.

I’m essentially just a robot repeating the same 4 things over and over again.

I’m wasting my life away and I don’t even know when, where, or how to start fixing it.

Ever since I was a child, things were always rough for me mentally with my anxiety and depression and I always had this feeling that God put someone on this earth just for me to help me become a happy healthy person, but I’ve just been nothing but alone my entire life. And I know I’m still young, but time is going by so quickly and idk.

Maybe I’m meant to be alone. Like there’s some bigger meaning for me and it’s my journey to conquer alone. Cuz even tho I said earlier thAt I felt like god put somebody on this earth for me, the feeling was still vague... I never pictured myself married to anyone ... like even if I imagined myself with a child (which was rare) I was always a single mother in that vision... and my parents have been together my whole life so single parenthood isn’t something I’m familiar with.

Because as much as I feel lonely, the thought of depending on someone and someone depending on me emotionally is so fucking terrifying.... so maybe that’s why I only fall for emotionally and physically unavailable men such as older married guys.

So im probably subconsciously self sabotaging...

If you read all of this, bless ur heart ❤️ thanks for listening... I know it wasn’t all that TCC related but... I just needed to write my feelings out.