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tuesday 17th november

woke up to the sound of birds chirp, chirp, chirping away outside my window “wake up justine, wake up” and so i do my eyes open i welcome the new day the new day that is yet to begin the idea floats to my head gently “why not?” i already know what to wear mindlessly throwing clothes while my mind thinks of what is yet to come i grab my camera and i am out, out into the new day that is yet to begin peach pit slowly makes his way to my ears as i make my way  did you know the traffic lights are shorter in the morning? i park on the yellow lines, it’s too early for them to catch me i tumble up, up, up my eyes capture it all, taking mental pictures to remember, just like my camera does nothing but the sound of wind, waves and the clicking of the shutter when i finally reach my destination i am happy to see, i made it before it the sun that is, it’s warmth cuts through the air just as it cuts through the hills basking in, just feeling “everything is going to be ok” the pristine water below me, does nothing be just be oh the sound of waves,  how it soothes me the destination was a lovely sight, but the journey was such a delight

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day in, day out

find me here you will for the last few weeks at least every morning i wake i lay here  i think my mind wonders with no direction no destination in sight but it’s not unpleasant no but bliss it brings me not no it’s not good, it’s not bad no i’m simply just being being with my thoughts a lot more than usual lately thinking and thinking and thinking hoping it will lead me somewhere and maybe it is, and maybe it has day in, day out maybe writing them out will help me figure it out

                                        jdm

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standing still

i am standing still which way to go, i don’t know frozen in place; feet unable to move but no one can guide me for i must guide myself it's me, it’s my time it’s time, it’s me i am standing still i've been here for so long i forgot how to walk my feet unable to move i know i can do this i have all the tools it's just a matter of using the tools i have had all along fix my way to become the true me, the authentic me

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summer air

it’s here it’s finally here

you wake up one day and step outside taking in that first breath and it’s here, it’s finally here

air hits your nostrils, the shift is instance the moment you’ve been waiting for all year is finally here

you can’t quite describe it but you ravel in it air that shifts, it’s so crisp it smells like new beginnings an end full of possibilities

summer is here, it’s finally here

                             jdm

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honey

like honey it drips, from our lips, when we kiss, tangled in pure bliss; where the rest of the world has been dismissed

why does it sometime slip, from our grip? is something amiss?

but when we click it feels as though we fit like puzzle pieces; hip over hip

oh how it’s a risk, that this exists sometimes leaving us in bits; to pick up, on our own; all alone yet we never quit this bad habit; this mystery yet untold...                                             j.d.m

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fingertips

slowly, lightly, the warmth, the cold

              regardless, it feels like home

familiar, so why do i sometimes feel unsafe?

my body betrays me, when it trickles before me;                                           before you

always wanting more                                                       j.d.m

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heart

you play your part on my heavy, twisted heart twists and twists so tight but yet sometimes still so light

control i try to find control i go without

then i come to realise  it’s not you i even despise but myself for thinking this way when i said i wouldn’t anyway

control i try to find control i go without

no matter how many times i try recall that i am not my thoughts; but here they are anyway playing a game i don’t want to play

which is when i realise that i play my part on my heavy, twisted heart

                                                     j.d.m