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Please don’t play me for a fool.

**** has recently gone on a school trip and his ex is part of that trip. I’m holding on to the promises that he told me yet, how could I trust him when he himself broke on of the things he told me in less than 24 hours, constantly pointing out to me that there is nothing wrong with what he’s doing and that I should just trust him.

TRUST doesn’t come that easy. I need a reason to trust you. I need to know why should I trust you. You can’t just say “it’s either you trust me or you don’t”. It’s like strop treating me like a fool. I need a foundation as to why I should believe you. Take note that you basically have broken on of the things you told me PERSONALLY AND IN MY HOUSE AT THAT, LOOKING STRAIGHT INTO MY EYES AND FACE. How am I supposed to trust you and believe you ?

Not to mention you’re acting very aggressive and making me out to be the villain here. I need you to be understanding. I need you to be caring. I need you to be loving. I need you to be compassionate. I need you to be careful with me. I’M SCARED. Trust doesn’t come easy for me, not at all and this is really such a big deal for me. I need you to help me validate my feelings.

Don’t turn things against me. I don’t want to teach you how to be a good relationship partner but by the looks of it, you aren’t being a good one. You’re always turning the table on me and making me feel like I am the villain when in fact, it’s the problem that should be the enemy and not me. We should both be working towards solving the problem, however, instead you’re making it seem like I am the problem and not the SITUATION.

You always have a choice. I want you to make the right one for this relationship. For us. Please do consider and think of my feelings as well. It’s very hard for me to process this alone especially when you’re making me feel like I’m such a bad person for feeling this way. I’m anxious, uneasy and scared. I need you to take those feelings away from me and instead make me feel better.

Give me a firm foundation of trust and belief, through both your words and your actions. I don’t need empty promises. I need ones with depth and meaning, one that you actually mean, will do your best to stay true and committed to those words without excuses. YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE. Which is why I need you to do the right one for us. Just because something isn’t wrong doesn’t make it right. You should always do the right thing. Always remember that. And please dili ko tanga, don’t play me for a fool because I’m not one. 

I need you to give your all for this relationship and for me.

Yours truly,

Louis

3/25/19

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First Week Out of College.

It’s been a while and yet here I am. 

The past few weeks have been exhausting, academics, mental and physical exhaustion and many more. It was tough yet I managed to endure it. However, having this first week out of College is very tiring.

  EVERYTHING. It’s been rough. It may not be that obvious when you look at me but it has and yet, I’m very proud of how I handled it. Despite what occurred, the things I had to deal with, I handled it well. I looked for the brighter side of things, did my best to find the lesson out of every situation and now here I am.

It all just sunk in to my mind that I’ve put up with so much and it feels like all the tiredness I was suppose to feel came upon my body in one huge wave, making me realize how proud I should be of myself for being that strong. It wasn’t easy, there were school responsibilities, romantic dramas and also social struggle. It’s like I need time to adjust for it all.

Everything has been like a blur. I don’t know how I managed to deal with it and even get here. Yet, now all I feel is tired. I’m in dire need of rest. However, I don’t know what the rest I’m craving is. I could sleep yet still be tired, lounge around and still be tired. I don’t know what type of rest I’m looking for.

Yours truly,

Louis

3/25/19

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Best One Yet

Two days ago, the 6th of August was the best one yet. It was so extremely passionate and right when you both want it so much it was very fulfilling and satisfying. To do it in different styles, to ride and to do the missionary and have it done purely out of love was really the best feeling yet. 

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Birthday Week

8th of August, 2018. It’s been a heck of a week, I feel so extremely stressed and exhausted. Midterms week are up, the number of things to do are increasing and this is all quite new to me especially being a first year college student in a new university. Not to mention, I’m turning 19 this Saturday on the 11th of August when we have ROTC in the mornings and would probably have to march around all day.

Now, just last night, I felt extremely tired and very stressed in regards with the midterms we have for GE-4 because I find it very difficult because well I just don’t understand the lesson, not to mention I still have to finish the GE-3 Midterm paper and thankfully I was able to progress on it last night with a little push and for next week I have to make it through a GE-1 Midterm test which is both subjective and objective but what makes it all harder is the fact that our midterms for GE-2 Readings in Philippine History is Oral and it would be 10 questions per person. Now, when you hear it, it doesn’t sound that hard. But it is, because of our teacher. This isn’t even a major subject, it’s a general education subject however, I just so happen to be under a teacher who is so extremely difficult to handle. I’ve got a lot of books to read and it’s quite pressuring knowing that it isn’t the only thing that you have to do. 10 Questions per person and if he doesn’t like your answer he will automatically give you a 0, and right from the start of the class he already said that he gives low grades. Now this is extremely scary and difficult for me.

I’ve really started to push myself and I have to adapt to this type of change and system that the university has and apply it to myself. I have to be focused and really motivate myself.

Right when I had just been feeling down yesterday, I woke up to a dream of me and mommy going to a clinic inside a mall. This wasn’t just an ordinary dream because it started of with me riding in a motorcycle with my friend Jepoy who is now in a different university. We rode together on the motorcycle going to the mall where idk how it happened but I was with mommy and we went inside the clinic with the goal of letting my sister be transferred to a different hospital in which she had to have a high temperature because of fever and there was this type of high tech thermometer in which you would just press it into your armpit, kind of like the one for your ears and it would automatically get your temperature. Now, right when me and mommy had just been in front of the line now, mommy took the thermometer and got her temperature however, it was normal and it said “denied” so basically kailangan mi mangita ug way as to how ang temperature mu indicate nga naay fever so nangita jud mi niya nagkatawa ko cause like funny kayo mi ni mommy ba unya it was very normal and realistic, didn’t even feel like she isn’t here with me anymore pero anyway naa mi nakit an nga bayi nga gi hilantan unya amo gikuha iyang temperature unya mao tu na okay na ang temperature then niadto mi sa counter and amo gihatag sa bayi then mao tu na approve ang request then as nanaog mi ni mommy sa stairs ni ana ko nga “mi kailangan ko muadto ganiha raman diay c jepoy naghulat nako.” Then mao tu nisugot cya unya ni hug ko ni mommy niya ni lagan ko niya nag smile cya nako then pag abot nako ni Jepoy ana cya dugaya nimo Babot oi then mao tu nilakaw nami.

I feel very moved because birthdays have always been so special to me especially when mommy was alive, she always made my birthdays the best. Even if my request was difficult or the present I wanted to have was expensive, she always found a way and I guess with the differences I have now, it’s quite hard to adapt to such change that it really puts me down and I have to say that I’m not looking forward to my birthdays anymore because like ambot it’s not really that important knowing like ay wa raman puy unsa ba na, wa rapud koy madawat, wa ray celebration, so like mao na. I just miss it when mommy was here because it would really always be better with her because she makes me so happy.

I rarely get dreams of mommy, however, every year when it’s nearing my birthday she always makes her presence known to me. It would be in the form of dreams mostly, I  can’t quite remember the previous dreams I have which is why I chose to write this one down in order for me to remember it but there was one year in which it was my birthday week and I placed a towel on the hanger and when I came back it wasn’t there anymore and it ended up at the back and both my grandparents, mama and c papa wala nila gibutang tu sa likod. Like maka shock ngano naabot didto, and ana cla nga si mommy nato nagparamdam nako cause it’s almost my birthday na. I just feel so happy and loved by my mommy knowing nga whether be it that she is alive or not. She always reminds me of reasons to live, to be happy and to look forward for each day. This really has picked me up and motivated me to be a better person and to make paningkamot with my education like it picked me up and ako buhaton ako best nga di nako mag tinapulan. She always reminds me of her presence and more reasons to look forward to on my birthday, whether or not she is alive or not, she always makes her presence to me. And for that I really love you mommy.

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#saveshadowhunters

As we are sure everyone has heard @freeform has decided to not renew @shadowhuntersseries for season 4. This is, according to some sources, largely due to @netflix pulling out of their international side of the deal. So, where do we go from here?

Be LOUD. Make a LOT of noise on social media and keep it trending. BUT make sure if you are using Twitter that you are only using TWO HASHTAGS per tweet. Any more than that, and Twitter counts it as spam. The two hashtags most people seem to be using are #Shadowhunters + #SaveShadowhunters

In everything you post, be sure to tag both @freeform and @netflix. For good measure throw in a tag to @constantinfilm while you are at it. We need to be seen.

Reach out to Netflix Customer Support. https://help.netflix.com You will want to do two things here. 1) Fill out a title request and add Shadowhunters. 2) Scroll all the way down, and either CHAT or CALL them and talk to a person about Shadowhunters. 

Reach out to the following numbers: FreeformTV - (818) 569-7500 Constantin Film - (310) 247-0300 Netflix - (480) 540-3700.  Be polite, and be clear about what you want.

It wouldn’t hurt to send some (polite) emails to these people at FreeformTV here. Be clear, polite, and brief. Tell them where you are from, how old you are, and how much Shadowhunters means to you. https://www.disneyabcpress.com/freeform/contacts/

And most importantly, be kind to each other. Emotions are running high, and we are a passionate fandom on a GOOD day. It is ok to be sad, to cry about it, and to be angry. But as Maryse Lightwood said, “Passion makes you dangerous.” So let’s raise a little hell.

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The One With Joey and Rachel

A little louder for the people at the back who do think Rachel and Joey should have ended up together.

I’m watching Friends, currently on Season 9 Episode 23. Fully aware of how the series is going to end. Anyway, the show has portrayed Joey as the type of character who is a comical playboy who sleeps with girls and never calls them back. Although, we do still love him because of his character and the joy he brings to the group. Rachel, on the other hand was a damsel in distress who joined the group right after she ran away from her wedding. Now, ever since then the writers have always put Rachel and Ross together, mainly because of this crush Ross had on Rachel when they were in high school and even until later parts of the season in which they dated, broke up, had a one night stand resulting to the birth of Emma and now this awkward phase in which they are raising a child but aren’t together as a couple.

 It is quite clear that the writers really do want Ross and Rachel to end up together. But is that really the right course to go? I believe the best thing that happened in Friends was when Joey had feelings for Rachel and when Rachel had feelings for Joey. You might say I’m a bit biased because I’m rooting for them and well I sort of am. Why wouldn’t I? Through the series it was shown the struggles that Joey had gone through in order to prevent himself from seeing Rachel as more than a friend, how he tried to stop himself and even doing a lot of things to have different thoughts in his head about Rachel but none of them worked, when he talks about it with his friends, it would always be the usual concept about Ross and Rachel. That has always been the obstacle in terms of the romance of Joey and Rachel. Well, Rachel was pregnant at that time with Emma but it Joey had shown willingness to raise Emma alongside Rachel and Ross. He has even expressed his love for Emma after she was born. 

Now, let’s go to Rachel’s case. Her feelings for Joey started when she was able to witness the whole Dr.Drake Ramoray having a romantic conversation with one of the characters on Days of Our Lives which Joey personally asked her to accompany him for support. Being able to witness it, it sparked something within Rachel that attracted her to Joey. Which then resulted to her having a dream about wanting to kiss Joey or was it really just an attraction to Dr. Drake Ramoray? It was stated that she was just attracted to the character that Joey brought to Dr.Drake Ramoray but that was later ruled out as she learned that her feelings weren’t for the character but really were towards Joey. What sparked their romance was the rooftop party that Joey had thrown for the Days of Our Lives cast in which Rachel was going to come up to Joey and kiss him however she stopped on her feet as she witnessed Joey making out with Charlie. Ross and Rachel both witnessed the kiss and stopped after seeing both persons that they liked making out with each other. 

Joey and Charlie well, I guess we could all say it was very hard to picture the both of them together. They absolutely had nothing in common which resulted into both of them having a mutual agreement to break up. This right here would’ve been the perfect avenue for Joey to get with Rachel and Ross and Charlie as well. This was the most ideal pairing that could occur between the four of them. It was just perfect. It was clear during a speech that Ross was making in which he said the word “homo erectus” which made Joey laugh and resulting for Charlie to look at him and be like ?? and then Rachel laughed and Joey asked her “erectus?” and she said “no, homo.” And both of them laughed together. Joey and Rachel get along better and have much more in common. It absolutely pisses me off how the writers will always push Ross and Rachel towards each other. 

Even then when Phoebe found out about her feelings for Rachel she stopped her from doing anything, the same with Monica who asked Rachel not to do anything about her feelings for Joey and isn’t that quite unfair? How Rachel had to stop and not make an attempt on Joey for the sake of Ross again? And Joey who so clearly always has a spot for Rachel in his heart is unable to express her love for Rachel too all because of the thought of Ross? 

Ross has always been the common factor that prevented both Joey and Rachel to make a move towards each other because they always had to consider of the feelings of Ross. Couldn’t Ross consider their feelings more? I mean both of his friends liked each other. I get that he had a long crush on Rachel, fell in love with her, dated, broke up, got married on a drunken night and then divorced, had a one night stand with Rachel, had a baby, and now not a couple. It’s quite annoying how Joey if she has feelings for Rachel will always have to run it by Ross and Rachel who has feelings for Joey will always have to think what will Ross think? In the same way this has always been what other members of the group will run by them. Always revolves around Ross.

I truly believe the romance between Joey and Rachel if only the writers had made it happen would have been really great and romantic, we would’ve been able to see a lot more about the characters and how it would bring a lot of other aspects out of them. The face Joey made when she kissed Rachel was absolutely adorable. They are adorable.  We would’ve been able to see a lot more development with their characters and it sure would’ve brought out a side of Joey and a side of Rachel that wasn’t seen before.

Yours truly,

Louis. 

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Welcome to unspokenmundane.

You’re probably wondering what’s this blog all about? 

I created this platform as a means of self-expression. My own personal outlet. Therefore, I would like to let you know that I am entitled to my own thoughts, words and opinions in the same way that you are too. However, we live in a world in which almost even the littlest of things become something that can be categorized as controversial.

Unspokenmundane is my avenue to voice out and express things that I am unable to do personally and well it’s a bit like my own version of unpopular opinions. Mainly I do this for my satisfaction.

Hope you enjoy your time with my blog, the same way that I will.

Yours truly,

Louis. 

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