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dawnxtoxdusk​:

They looked pretty real. He’d have them double checked by someone he trusted but for now, he reached out to his side and gently pulled Zane into his side, holding him close with one arm as he continued to read through the report. So he and Shirase were half brothers? They shared the same mother…but she’d apparently cut off contact at some point, right before a fire had hit the home - both Shirase and Zane had been thought to have perished, “…I can have this checked…but they look pretty real…and I can’t really see why anyone would want to fake this shit…but I’ll look into it, alright?”. He sighed and placed the file to the side, pulling Zane into a better hug, “Hey, your still shakin’”

"I...I..." he was trying to retort back but he couldn't even do that much. He was scared, he could only imagine what would happen if this was actually real. It couldn't be though, right? He was afraid to even mention it to Shirase , knowing how his little brother could be. It was bad enough he was keeping the secret that he was dating Chuuya from him. Though this would break everything. He curled into the other's side when he was gently pulled into it. The shaking wasn't stopping, even with Chuuya being close like this with him. The fact he wasn't alone. He was quiet, Chuuya was reading everything.

He clung to Chuuya as the other held him and more or less confirmed that they seemed real. His heart was beating so rapidly, if he didn't calm himself down he might end up going into some sort of panic attack. Though who would really blame him. "I... don't want this, Chuu. Just tell me it is just all fake or someting." Sea green eyes were glossy , Zane didn't cry. Not in front of anyone , he couldn't stop shaking. "I 'ate those government bastards..." proving to Chuuya that he got the files directly from the government.

Slight sobs left him and he didn't even realize he had let tears fall. He buried himself into Chuuya's chest "Shi al'eady 'ates me. Still can't tell em bout ya ... but tis .... tis might just seal 'way everyting. Al'eady blames me for da fire.... tis tis makes it look like it might 'ave beem caused 'cause of me..." he was gasping through sobs. Someone so stubborn and proud was breaking down. Chuuya hadn't proven anything... but Zane was already deadest on this news being real. "Chuu..." hiccup "what do I do?" 

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Festive Prompt List

“Is that mistletoe?”

“Are you- are you pulling down mistletoe?”

“I don’t care about tradition, you try and get me to kiss you under the mistletoe and I will punch you”

“If I hear one more Mariah Carey song I will riot”

“Remind me why I can’t kill the carolers?”

“Hum one more note of that carol and I will stab you”

“My house, my rules. The Christmas music stays on” 

“If you throw that snowball you’re declaring war”

“You’re kidding, right? I’m not going out in that snow storm!”

“I don’t care what you say, The Nightmare Before Christmas works for Christmas and Halloween”

“I can’t believe you did all this, for me”

“You don’t have to go to all this trouble, you know”

“You didn’t really think I’d let you spend Christmas alone, did you?”

“You’d make a really terrible Santa”

“It’s a time of good will, not whatever the hell you’re doing”

“Aren’t you just Santa’s Little Helper?”

“You call this decorated?”

“How on earth did you get tinsel there?”

“Wow, you really go overboard with decorations, don’t you?”

“It looks like Santa threw up here”

“What are you doing to that poor wrapping paper?”

“Exactly how much more hinting do I have to do?” 

 “Have I told you how much I hate Christmas shopping?”

“Secret Santa is bullshit”

“Tell me what you want for Christmas”

“Why are you so impossible to shop for?”

“Can’t I just give you $20 and you can buy something for yourself?”

“Please tell me you aren’t searching my room for where I’ve hidden the presents”

“I thought we weren’t doing gifts!”

“I got you a Christmas sweater!”

“How many Christmas sweaters do you own?”

“You’re wearing the Santa hat, whether you like it or not”

“One normal Christmas, that’s all I wanted”

“I’m sure what ever threat is out there can wait until after Christmas dinner”

“You invited how many people over for Christmas dinner??”

“You really can’t cook, can you?”

“Who the hell turned off the oven?!” 

“This calls for eggnog” 

“I can’t believe no one has spiked the eggnog yet”

“Just how much eggnog have you had?”

“I’m starting to regret having taught you about gluhwein”

“Oi! That’s my hot chocolate”

“Spam is not a suitable replacement for turkey”

“No offence meant, but I do not trust you to carve the turkey”

“I don’t care about anything else, the pudding is all that matters”

“Hey, binge eating at Christmas is totally justified!”

“You made gingerbread zombies?”

“Step away from the cookies.”

“Who ate all the advent calendar chocolates?!”

“Normally I’d say no, but I’m on my 14th candy cane, so why not?” 

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Winter OTP Asks ⛄️❄️

Send a ship + a number

Who makes the other hot chocolate?

Who listens to Christmas music way too early?

Who is excited for trimming the Christmas Tree?

Who puts up the Christmas lights?

Who wants to go see the neighborhood Christmas lights?

Who bakes cookies?

Who wraps the presents?

Who hits up Black Friday sales?

Who wants to build a snowman?

Who starts a snowball fight?

Who wants to cosy up to the fire?

Who looks best in a jacket?

Who wants to see the Christmas parade?

Who still believes in Santa?

Who throws the Christmas party?

Who picks out matching ugly sweaters?

Who makes homemade gifts?

Who is the best gift giver?

Who wants a kiss under the mistletoe?

Who wants to go caroling?

Who is bad at ice skating and keeps falling on their butt?

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dawnxtoxdusk​:

“…don’t you get the impression that this might be….how did you even get that thing in here!?”. 

This was their first Christmas as a family again. He felt guilty over so much, but like hell would he ever utter such thoughts out loud. He did everything for his little brother, including rebuilding Sheep. So this was a must. After the fire , after losing Sheep once--- he was determined to use this apartment of his and decorate it. Plus, he still needed to break the ice to Shirase about dating Chuuya. That was not going to probably be a good conversation. Both brothers had explosive personalities, and if he brought his boyfriend into the mix--- something would get destroyed.

"Nothing is enough for this, Shi" he couldn't help but half chuckle at how his brother was exclaiming about his handy work. It had been a task trying to get everything into his apartment, but he was quite handy when it came to it. "Come on, stop worrying how I got all of this in here and let's decorate the tree and the apartment. We haven't done something family related in so long. So come on." He always had a soft side for Shirase, and he did always mean well. He just happened to have an explosive personality that got in the way a lot of the time.

When he didn't know most of the truth behind a lot of things still, he was determined to fix everything between him and Shirase.  He went to pull out a star. "I'll even let ya put the star on the tree." Though that task was going to be something. The tree was bending at the top and looked sad yet angry at the same time. He had to get the biggest tree, and he overestimated the size of his apartment--- but he had forced the thing in there all the same, the same with the boxes. He had yelled at the things as if they would go into place if he yelled. His temper really could get the better of him. 

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dawnxtoxdusk​:

“So what the heck was so urgent that you couldn’t wait a few darn hours?”, he snapped out as he came in from the open window, closing it behind him before walking towards Zane, “Kinda a busy schedule this time of year”.

It couldn't be. He kept going over the information over and over in his head. That had been before he insisted on his boyfriend meeting him. Yes, he knew it was risky to keep meeting at the apartment. Though the old meeting place was even worse. He didn't know how to process this new information that he had been handed. He had been called into the government, damn fuckers, but he had to control his temper there. He was trying to not make the same mistake with Sheep as last time. He was trying to keep them safe, trying to keep his little brother safe. Yet with this... what did it even mean?

He had to talk to someone and that someone that he thought about was Chuuya. The other might know something about this mess. Yes, he hated the Port Mafia more than anything, but his boyfriend was a member of it-- rather he liked it or not. Maybe, maybe he would know something about this. His heart was going to explode from his chest if he didn't get here soon. Then the other's voice cut through his thoughts. "I don't fuckin care bout  da schedule" he snapped back. How the two were still dating, it was a mystery. Though they did love each other and it showed.

Zane half threw himself into his boyfriend, arm's wrapping around him. He didn't realize it, but he was shaking. Not from the cold , no it was from fear. "Chuuya, it couldn't wait." He pulled the other into a kiss , before he took his hand. He had to say it, Chuuya had come to see him. He bit his lip, he had to tell him. "Somethin 'appened kay. I... needed my boyfriend..." he let go and thrust the file into his boyfriend's hands. "It isn't like I'm afraid or anythin." Lies. The file clearly showed detailed evidence that his father wasn't his father.  It was instead the Port Mafia boss that was his father. "Since it deals with ya boss... figured ya might know somethin." He was trying not to let it show just how much it bothered him. How much he needed Chuuya right at that moment. This was life changing. It was one thing for him to be dating Chuuya, but another to find out that his father was this Mori bastard. 

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I finally got my own blog!~ The mun isn’t that bad. It means I’ll be moving from here and over to deathavoided. No more interaction after this from for me~ Ya don’t know how much I’ve been wanting my own blog. I do hate sharing with those other frankly annoying muses that my mun seems to take on.

I got my own blog~ 

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Excuse my Rambling that is about to occur. For those who’d rather ignore my thoughts etc I’ll place it all under a read more - I’ll make a later announcement about threads going forwards etc.

Keep reading

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Send ‘Me’ if you want/wanted to interact but were too shy or had no idea how to approach me

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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it -- me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

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Angst Starter Masterlist

" Aren't you going to say something?"

" And I thought I loved you."

" And I thought you loved me."

" Angry. I'm.. I'm angry."

" Aren't you even going to cry?"

" Are you going to cry?"

" Are you crying?"

" Are you okay?"

" Ask if I'm okay. Just ask."

" And this is why I don't want to stay anymore."

" Addiction isn't the way to go, ___ "

" Are you angry with me?"

" Are you afraid?"

" And now is the part where we say goodbye."

" And now you're going to leave me!"

" Are you just going to leave me?"

" Be friends with someone else."

" Boy/Girlfriend? Is that what you thought I meant?"

" Because you're such an ass and I- I just hate you!"

" But I've changed."

" But you've changed."

" Buy yourself something nice. Because I don't want this ring."

" But.. you're still alive?"

" Can't you just let me be happy for one?!"

" Can't you be happy for once?

" Can't you just be happy for me?"

" Come on, leave already!"

" Coward. That's all you are. A coward."

" Do you even know what you've done to me?"

" Do you have any remorse? "

" Don't you dare close your eyes on me!"

" Don't you dare die."

" Don't you care about me/her/him/them anymore?"

" Don't give me that look"

" Don't you want me to be happy?"

" Dammit! Everything was just starting to get better and then you do this!"

" Damn you."

" Don't lie to me."

" Don't like to him/her/them."

" Dammit.. Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! You fucking ass!"

" Everything is fucked up now- everything is fucked because of you!"

" Everything's gone to hell."

" Everyone hates me."

" Everyone hates you."

" Everything hurts."

" Everything's going to be okay."

" Everyone loves you, not me."

" Everything is falling apart."

" Everything fell apart and I can't pick up the pieces anymore."

" For someone whose dying, you seem kind of happy."

" Friends forever, right? Isn't that what you said?"

" Fuck off!"

" Fuck you!"

" Find a new place to live."

" Find a new girlfriend/boyfriend."

" Find a new best-friend."

" Fine. I'll leave."

" Forever and ever. That's how long I said I loved you. But you never said it back."

" Fucking hell, I hate you!"

" Get lost!"

" Get a job, you ass!"

" Get out of here!"

" Go get a life."

" Go. Just go."

" How are you still alive?"

" How long are you going to keep this up?"

" How long until you finally get lost?"

" How about I just leave."

" Hold up. You're breaking up with me?"

" Heaven doesn't exist."

" Hell is the only place we're going to be going."

" How about you leave now?"

" Is this how you're going to treat me?"

" I can't believe you."

" I'm a monster."

" I killed someone."

" I want to kill myself."

" I want to kill something."

" I'm running away."

" I'm leaving you."

" I can't look at you right now."

" I hope you die!"

" I don't understand."

" I'm so angry/sad. But you don't care."

" I can't hear anything."

" I'm dying."

" I have cancer."

" I can feel the darkness coming."

" I can't breathe."

" Just joking, I don't love you."

" Just go."

" Just leave me alone!"

" Just fuck off."

" Kill yourself. "

" Kindly get the hell away from me."

" Kids? I don't want kids."

" Kind. That's the one thing you can never manage to be."

" Lie. Just lie."

" Lie to me."

" Life is not worth living."

" Living isn't possible."

" Like I give a shit about you."

" Lies are all you're capable of."

" Lay down. It'll all be over soon."

" My heart is broken. "

" My.. everything hurts."

" My girlfriend/boyfriend left."

" My ____ is dead."

" Man, you're an asshole."

" My lies aren't working anymore."

" Mutt."

" Many times I lay awake and wonder why I'm alive anymore."

" Never again."

" Never speak to me again."

" No. I won't do it."

" No, I don't like you like that."

" No way in hell!"

" Now, now, is there really any reason to cry?"

" Now and again I really start to hate you."

" No. Stop crying, just stop it."

" Not how I wanted to spend my life."

" Never look at me again."

" People hate me."

" People hate you."

" Person? No, no. You're not a person. You're a robot."

" People like you sicken me."

" People like you deserve to die."

" Perhaps you should just leave, then."

" Piss off."

" Question: why are you still here?"

" Quiet. I'm getting sick of hearing your voice."

" Run away. That's what I'm doing."

" See? I hate you."

" See? You hate me."

" Sometimes I wonder why you stay with me."

" So.. you hate me, then?"

" So this is how it ends."

" Shoot me."

" Shit..."

" So why are you still here?"

" Sometimes people lie to me."

" Stories are just that. Stories."

" Took off with everything I had!"

" Time to go."

" This is the end. It's done."

" The story is ending now."

" This is the end."

" This is why I hate you."

" Then why do you say you love me?!"

" Unlike you I have friends."

" Unlike me, you have friends"

" Under the bed is were I have to hide from you."

" Underwater is where i want me coffin to be."

" Utter it again and I swear I'll kill you!"

" Very mature. Cunt."

" Why can't you row up?"

" Why cant you care about me?"

" Why do you hate me?"

" Why do I hate you?"

" What do you mean?"

" What?You're dying?"

" Why can't you just be you."

" When am I supposed to get my time to be happy?'

" Well. This isn't how it was supposed to end between us."

" Whatever, you asshole."

" Whenever you decide you can stand to talk to me ago, please do."

" Well. I hate you now."

" Well, you hate me now."

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A multi muse, semi selective, primarily BSD blog that features eight unique and chaotic muses. Fushimi from K Project is also included. Crossovers are more than welcomed~ Friendly 21+ mun 

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SP. 103 - Paranoia 1.0 AKA One Point O (2004)

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No , just no. Go back to your hole. This blog.. let me keep it eight muses somehow. I will not add you.

Yet he pokes his head out because he sees Elise- chan. 

Mira summoned him first with Sabriel. He loves his wife, even if they don’t always see eye to eye because of certain issues with the past coming to bite him on the ass. 

BUT MY SWEET ELISE-CHAN!!

*grumbles* Does this mean I’m adding this asshole back? This is the most active he has been.... I don’t like it. 

I thought I would get away with having him, Kouyou and Shiga over on the secret menu and NOT giving them proper muses slots. Though this asshole even snagged himself a tag already. Seriously Mori is gonna drive me insane. Welp guess I’ll end up adding this asshole back as a muse. Or maybe give him Ara’s slot

@nycttophilic​ @diverse-hearts-ocs​ <--- I blame both of ya

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diverse-hearts-ocs said

"You know it's worse when you fight against it like this" - Kyran to Zane

Pale face, blood red eyes and intense sweating. The silver hair growled slightly as he yanked at the restraints upon both his wrists. Yes, he was probably stupid for fighting because Kyran was right. As much as he didn’t like admitting this, even in his head, the blond was right. Fighting against the drug pumping through his system was like pulling the smallest and sharpest of nails from his skin. Though he refused to become some puppet. Refused to become Kyran’s pet to play with when he wished. 

“Don’t pretend like ya even fuckin care for me. Cause I know ya could care less” he spat at the blond’s face despite the pain and strain in his voice. He tried to yank his wrist away again. “I might ‘ate it more ten anythin but I am his son. Ya won’t get away wit keepin bringin me down ‘ere.” He was snarling his words, those flames in his sea green eyes. He would fight all of this. Kyran could pump in through with plenty of drugs, he could stab his voodoo doll over and over again--- but he wouldn’t surrender who he was. “I will win fuckin asshole.” He couldn’t even remember what it was that Kyran was doing to him this time. Was it a drug? It had to be a drug. 

Was it that drug though? Though maybe it was that bastard allowing Kyran to do whatever he wished to him. Seemed like Kyran had free reign of Garth too. Garth didn’t fight , it was like his half brother had given up on life. Wouldn’t he too if his ability was forced to be used like that. He couldn’t even imagine the affect of the bells. He had just been forced to come here, all of this forced on him. Was he changing? “He tried to kick at Kyran, probably not the smartest-- though he was like a wild animal sometimes when his temper flared up.