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2/3/18

So I know I haven’t posted in a long while but I’ve been having a rough time.

During the purée soft food stage was rough couldn’t nor would I eat anything. I just didn’t want anything.

Now I’m back to work and I had to get IV fluids because I was dehydrated. Then my allergies have been acting up so I have post nasal drip which I’m throwing up.

I feel like I wasn’t fully prepared for wat I was going to feel at this stage at all. I kind of regret having surgery at this point but I’m also looking down the road to 6 mon or even a year and not regretting it at all.

Don’t get me wrong I have lost a lot of weight and have a good support system in my friends, co workers and even my mom but this lack of energy and nausea all the time is not what I expected at this stage not anymore. I figured I would be ready for foods and my greatful to eat again but it’s like the complete opposite.

But my coworkers and friends are making me eat. Granted a little bit of food but at least I’m eating and trying to get some solids and protein in. The dr office gave me these liquid protein packets that I like but can’t find it anywhere at least that cheap.

Oh well I knew this was a possibility when I agreed to do surgery. Hopefully at some point and soon hopefully I’ll be much better.

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12/25/17

So thankfully I don’t celebrate Christmas because the temptation of food would be overwhelming.

At least I get to catch up on my shows in between naps

But since surgery I’ve been at home taking my norco, walking around to pass the gas.

My incisions aren’t hurting nearly as bad. I can hold out longer in between medication. I walk and press lightly to help the gas move. The more I move or press the better I feel.

I still have a sore throat but when I cough or drink broth it feels better.

Finally had a BM 💩. TMI I know but I was worried. Man I didn’t think there was anything to come out but some certainly did.

My incisions are staring to itch even though I know I shouldn’t scratch them, I’m trying not.

So my water intake isn’t as much as it should but.... when I chew on ice I do. Chewing on ice is bad for your teeth but good for my water intake. ⚖️. That’s what they have dentist for right?

I’m finally able to sleep on my side for a few hours at a time. Yay for me.

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Avocado-Egg Toast  #Breakfast Snack

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12/22/17- day 2

So I’m home, thankfully. Doing pretty good with pain. Being managed with the liquid norco which is nasty but I’m mixing it with cranberry and water. Takes me a good 1-1 1/2 to drink it but that’s alright. At least my pain is controlled somewhat.

I’m still a bit bloated from the gas but I’m walking often around the house to get the gas to pass. Which I feel is working but I keep burping very little air bubbles but at least it’s coming out.

I’m a side sleeper and I’ve tried sleeping on my side all night but very painful. So I have to keep to my back.

I moved to the couch so it’s much easier to sit/ sleep verses on the bed. I might move to the bed for a little while.

Can anyone tell me how long it took for them to be able to sleep on their side? Just curious.

I keep forgetting to do the pulmonary function test but I’ve also been asleep most of the day so idk. Is it truly that important?

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12/20/17

So it’s the day of surgery..

I was a little nervous before but I don’t think that it truly hit me until I was in the OR and it wa happening.

So I had huge hiatal hernia and the gastric sleeve done.

Honestly at the beginning my stomach didn’t hurt too much with all the drugs. But the gas pains in my shoulders and neck that really hurt the worst.

Now that it has been 12 hrs since surgery I’m starting to feel the stomach pains but I have plenty of drugs.

Also didn’t realize I wouldn’t be drinking anything the first day so I’m so parched it’s unbelievable. But they reassure me that I will start drinking or sipping in the AM when the Dr Does his rounds. Not even ice chips. Pure desert 🌵 in my mouth. We shall see how I get through the night and how they will send me home.

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12/5/17

So I know it’s been a while but I have finals this week so I’ve been busy but anyway....

So I got approval for surgery and my FMLA approved with work!! 👍🏽👍🏽

Almost didn’t get medical clearance because of course it’s me and I got sick 2 days before my clearance. My dr gave me 10 days of strong antibiotics that tore my stomach up but that’s ok. I went back for clearance 2 wks later and I’m fine and got approval. Yay me.

I’ve been doing 2 shakes for the past few weeks and I start my full liquid diet tomorrow. 🤢

I’ve already apologized to everyone ahead of time. I will be getting hangry I already know.

Now I’m thinking of what I need to pack to take. It’s only one night but it’s all getting so close.

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11/19/17

So one of my best friends is getting married in April and we are going dress shopping today....

She knows about the surgery but no one else knows.

I went earlier this week to look at dresses without the pressure of other people. I narrowed down the list to 3 dresses but with surgery I don’t know how to order it because my body is going to change. Most of the dresses require 16 weeks to come in, because of the color.... 😒

So that’s going to be impossible... I was hoping to order the dress in February.

Only one of the dresses that I liked I can order in February but of course my mom doesn’t like it, or any of the dresses ....

I depend on my mom for most of everything. She is my rock and my fashionista/ stylist, despite her not truly being completely comfortable with the surgery.

Maybe I need to change dresses completely.....

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11/18/17

So it’s official!!!! I’ve got a surgery date!! December 20, 2017. My life will change forever on 12/20/17.

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I want to try out for cheerleading in middle school and my father said I was too fat to be a real cheerleader. And my mom said that every morning she would look at me at see a blowfish because I just kept blowing up.

Reblog if you started worrying about your weight before you were fourteen.

3rd grade I was told I need to lose weight.

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So... I’m bad at this

11/3/17

Clearly I’m bad at this whole blog thing since it’s been a while. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Sorry!! I’ll try to be better.

I had my final MSWL visit which went well. I’ve lost 4 lbs and have to lose 10 for surgery. My mom actually came to this visit and seemed more supportive than before. She seemed to have gotten clarity about the surgery so 👍🏽.

I had my psych evaluation and I think that went pretty well too.

Had my exercise evaluation and got my pre surgery measurements done so that going to be exciting to see the post surgery measurements.

And finally got an email saying that they have sent everything off to insurance and now just waiting for the approval to schedule surgery.

Thanks to my pre-op class I’ve found an awesome bariatric weight loss/ log app. It’s called Baritastic. This is not an ad or endorsement but I thought others could benefit. It has a checklist for surgery and post surgery appointment like the follow ups, psych evaluation, surgery date, EGD and so much more. It’s truly for those who are or have done bariatric surgery. Tracks water intake, food, weight, measurements, count down to surgery and it even has reminders to drink water or log food and weight, which I need because I’m terrible at logging everything.

So I had been doing great with my meal prepping until the last 2 wks just because I truly felt I wasn’t getting any results and was tired of making meals for the week but after my last MSWL visit it has reignited my motivation to meal prep.

I can notice the difference in how I feel when I was meal prepping good healthy meals compared to eating just what I could find. And I don’t like the feeling of being bloated and sick to my stomach because of eating not healthy choices. Not only is my guilt in the back of my mind eating away at me knowing I shouldn’t be eating this but somehow trying to justify to myself that this is what I need. I have learnt to listen to my body instead, if eating something makes me feel gross, disgusted and disappointed in myself then that isn’t the choice for me. Yes eating healthy can sometimes be a pain in the ass but I feel so much better physically and mentally that it should never be a choice not to eat healthy.

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Beginning

This is my first time having a blog and telling people about my life, so please forgive me if I ramble. I’ll get better I promise. I hope.

So I have been dieting and counting calories my entire life. But I’ve come to the realization that despite how much I diet, count those calories or exercise, I need help.

With a lot of consideration I’ve come to the decision that I want the gastric sleeve. Now I didn’t come to this decision lightly.

My mom and some friends may think that this “the easy way out” but it’s not, and it’s my goal to change their minds.

Despite my mom not liking that I’m going to have surgery, she knows it’s good for me and will benefit me more than not having it.

I haven’t had the surgery yet but I will in the next few months. I’ve begun my journey to get there. I’ve had my first 2 of 3 visits, seen a Dietician and have my psych evaluation scheduled for the end of the month.

This is my story.