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jim

west coast smoker - I'm a nervous wreck, The drugs just make me reset

colors - You're only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope, I hope you make it to the day you're twenty-eight years old / Everything is blue ,His pills, his hands, his jeans / Everything is grey His hair, his smoke, his dreams And now he's so devoid of color He don't know what it means

don't threaten me with a good time - Five-thousand people with designer drugs Don't think I'll ever get enough / I've told you time and time again I'm not as think as you drunk I am

love/drugs - Cocaine bending on a daddy's dime, Nothing looks pretty in a heartless city, A new drug he’s ready to try

using - Needed a distraction from my head, Devil on my shoulder said try this instead

train - I wanna run away with you, Come on run away, run away with me

zombie - And I have seen it all, My own mother's afflictions taking over, Yeah I, I've seen it all before Where money alone can't buy forgiveness / And I can see that you don't seem like yourself anymore

drugs - Please don't make me go back to real life, It could be fatal

how does it feel - how does it feel, To be what you've become, What you said you would never be, 'Cause I don't feel anything anymore / And how does it feel, To be just like your friends

art school - Lay down, I lie again My pants on fire, Talking so confident My small empire

a detailed and poetic physical threat - It's messed up You always can become what you hate

happy pills - I take my pills and I'm happy all the time / we take strange things to feel normal 

we try but we dont fit in - Hold on, who am I again? / All my friends, we're just the same. We all pretend that we're okay

summer depression - Pretty face with pretty bad dreams, No one knows I cry in my sleep Waking up feeling like shit It’s a normal thing to feel like this / My worst habit Is my own sadness, So I stay up all night Wondering why I'm so tired all the time

x & y - I know something is broken, And I'm trying to fix it, Trying to repair it, Any way I can

shades of cool - My baby lives in shades of blue, Blue eyes and jazz and attitude, He lives in California too, He drives a Chevy Malibu / He lives for love, he loves his drugs, he loves his baby too / But I can't fix him, can't make him better And I can't do nothing about his strange weather

off - Chew and swallow pills straight from Satan’s cabinet Swear to god I spent a lifetime building habits

my love - My love, Do I even know you at all?

star treatment - Ask your mates but golden boy's in bad shape, I found out the hard way That here ain't no place for dolls like you and me

im not ok - I'm not okay, I'm bad for my health, I'm just like everyone else Fucked up like everyone else, im sick of myself, who needs to get well

4am - I'm thinking too much again. How my life will end?

california - feeling down so you try to get fucked up. You’re up but you’re still down on your luck. You blacked out when the sky was still blue. People say what happened to you? California, what a way to die.

how to never stop being sad - praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love. My life is shit because I deserve it, right? You must have done something really bad, and it's nearly impossible for you to cry now. Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love. Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you.

ocean eyes - You really know how to make me cry, when you gimme those ocean eyes. I'm scared

the beach - Fallin' again, I need a pick-me-up, I hope I don't murder me, I hope I don't burden you. Swim with me, I think I could see the beach

daddy issues - I'm not entirely here.Half of me has disappeared. Go ahead and cry little boy. You know that your daddy did too. You know what your mama went through. You gotta let it out soon, just let it out

greetings from califournia - I've got a dozen insecurities, But I don't think you should be worried for me. I know once you come to California You will never look back

fake love - I'm falling down your stairwell Eyes are closing, if you can't tell/ lose yourself until we come back down/ Hard drugs, fake love; it's a sensation

okay - Positive I'm blinking but I don’t know how Positive an oxy just went in my mouth Positive I'll die tonight, no fucking doubt. Okay, okay, dirty habits well you don't say. Tryna' stop me, I'm like no way, no way. Ask me how I'm doing, yeah, I'm coping. I swear ever since I hit it I ain't ever been the same.

drawing pins - Lights are on but no one's in. I don't feel like I belong here at all.