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WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK

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New tik tok of Ryan and Oliver from the Spilling the ETea segment! via Jessie Rae Price ✨✨

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9-1-1 Outfit Appreciation: Eddie's dirtied white henley & turnouts 9-1-1, S08E18, Seismic Shifts

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So you're telling me

That this...

Wasn't intended to be THIS GAY

And this...

WAS RYAN'S GENUINE REACTION!?!??

And Oliver just admitted it!??!?!?

Oh buddie is so buddie canon 🚨🚨🚨

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there’s been a lot of talk about the kitchen scene—a lot of people calling eddie abusive, cruel, and emotionally volatile. but i think what that completely misses—what it refuses to see—is the truth about grief:

grief is not gentle or pretty. it is often an angry, twisting, acridic beast that refuses to leave you. it comes out in sharpness, in silence; in saying exactly the wrong thing to the person you love most because you don't know how else to make them hear you.

that is what we see in 8x17.

eddie wasn't being abusive; YOU are completely misunderstanding that scene—and eddie himself; buck, too.

buck is psychologically self-referential. not selfish, exactly—more self-centered, but not in the egotistical sense—in the trauma-informed sense. it's an adaptive behavior that helped him survive a childhood where love had terms and affection and prerequisites. he learned to monitor every mood shift, every silence, every closed door—because if something went wrong, it had to be his fault. and this was reinforced by his parents' behavior towards him!!!

so now? everything still feels like it's about him. because it had to be. because that was the only way to feel safe. buck internalizes everything. when something goes wrong, his first thoughts are: what did i do? what did i miss? that's not ego, that's fear.

but eddie deals with emotion like a live wire. he bottles it up, he locks it down. he was taught growing up that's what it takes to be a man—don't cry. don't ask for help, grit your teeth and keep moving. he waits. he stews. and when it finally breaks through? it comes out like it did last night—sharp, reactive, a ribbon of hurt tying everything together.

and this is not new! eddie does this when he feels powerless. when something big is shifting inside of him and he feels helpless—when he doesn't know how admit the true feelings inside of him. so instead we get things like the grocery store fight during the lawsuit, accusing buck of sabotaging the showings earlier this season, and the kitchen scene.

same structure. same rupture. same desperate attempt to push back because he doesn't know how to pull in.

when eddie says these things to buck—you're exhausting, you're making it all about you—he's poking where it hurts, on purpose. all of it—every jab, every flare of anger—comes from a place of not knowing how to properly articulate the truth underneath.

eddie expresses his needs rarely, if ever. he doesn't ask for closeness—he tests for it. more than anything, in that kitchen, i think he was trying to provoke buck into something—a reaction, a fight, anything.

because buck has been so shut down, largely unreachable, and imagine being eddie—watching the one person you always turn to drift out of orbit. being physically closer than you've been to him in months, and still, he feels further away than when you were in texas.

how do you ask for someone back when you don't know how to ask for anything at all?

this is all that people keep missing when they reduce eddie to 'abusive' or buck to 'selfish'. they see the surface of their words, but not the wounds they're coming from.

on a fundamental level, buck and eddie are incompatible in how they handle emotion, communicate, and cope, but they are unshakably bound in how they love. because underneath all the misfires and misunderstandings, they are two people shaped by trauma and silence—by never being taught how to ask for what they need.

and still—somehow—they keep trying. with each other.

so when buck apologizes for being sad bobby’s dead and eddie snaps—he isn't rejecting buck's grief. he's rejecting the idea that buck's pain is somehow exceptional; he's saying: why aren't you here you haven't talked to me you haven't asked me how its been for me you're right in front of me and i can't reach you i want to do this together—

the scene wasn't abuse—it was human; a very raw representation of the way grief twists its way into every corner of your love, your relationships, your voice. it was love—sharp-edged and realistic in its imperfection and messiness, ever fighting to be seen.

eddie's feeling invisible and alone inside his grief; he's seeking connection. he wants buck to react, to be present, to talk to him.

the beauty of all of this is that after everything, eddie brings christopher for buck. its not just an apology. it's a gesture of reclamation. because eddie knows buck has been feeling isolated—not just from him, but from the entire team. buck himself expresses that everyone's been walking on eggshells, treating him like something fragile, like grief made him untouchable.

so eddie does the one thing he knows how to do: he acts. he brings buck his (their) son. he brings pepa. he brings family.

regardless of how eddie responded in the kitchen, he walks it back in the way he always does: through action. and wordlessly, he's saying: you belong you're ours you are wanted.

and no one gets to make buck feel otherwise. no one gets to be mean to buck.

not the team, and certainly not eddie himself.

buck and eddie are able to hurt each other as acutely as they do because they know one another. that is the risk of love: you open yourself to the possibility of pain; to be loved is to be known, changed, and vulnerable in ways you can’t take back.

eddie is able to be mad and feel these emotions and express them in these ways because he knows he—in his entirety—is safe with buck. even the ugly stuff. take note of this fight vs. how gentle eddie was with taking chris back from his parents. he can feel and act without filtering it first with buck. he can just be.

both buck and eddie keep choosing one another in a variety of ways—keep showing up, keep staying. even when they’re being harsh, even when they’re being unfair—even when they’re at their worst. they keep going, keep trying. love is persistence, dedication, devotion; buddie is all that and more.

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RYLIVER BUZZFEED INTERVIEW MY DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE HOLY SHIT

DID I HIT MY HEAD!?!?!? DID I DIE?!?!!

BUDDIE CANON HERE WE FUCKING GO

PLEASE LET IT BE A PUPPY INTERVIEW

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Oh Hello Eddie! Nice to see you 🤣

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WE ARE SO BACK BITCHES LET'S GO

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The people's princess ❤️

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9-1-1 | 5x16 ↳May Day

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Ok so bananas theory time

For some reason last night when I watched the final scene of the episode, I was sure Moira was going to the airport, but they only showed her on the street.

So... My theory is that she wants to fly the state before they put an arrest warrant against her so she takes the first flight available

Where does she end up?

In El Paso

She then decides to take an uber at the airport to get to a Hotel

And who's her Uber driver? Eddie fucking Diaz

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

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I am NOT ready for what's coming

I will not survive next episode

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"118, sound off"

Well... I'm officially scared

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It's been 6 years since this moment and it still amazes me that Eddie said THIS to Buck after the tsunami when they had only known eachother for a year at that point

How hasn't Eddie realized he loves him yet!?!?! This is insane

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The insane amount of tattoos Oliver has on his arms...

It makes complete sense that Buck keeps wearing hoodies in every scene that he's not wearing turnouts 🤣

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Someone on tiktok said that now that it is canonically confirmed that Eddie was a ballroom dancer his obsession with hair gel makes so much more sense

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🎶✨ when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool) 🎶✨

I totally missed this ask!!! Ok so...

- Close to you (Gracie Abrams)

- My tears ricochet (Taylor Swift)

- How bad do you want me (Lady Gaga)

- Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)

- Keep Holding on (Avril Lavigne)