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Come Join the F1 Family Server 💕

It's Race Week!

We are a group of about 145 people who are very loving, open, and easy to make friends with. If you're looking for a crew to run with, consider ours! Lovers of all drivers, teams, ect are welcome here! Between us, we do not all like each other's drivers, but we know how to behave. (Healthy debates always welcome, but no fighting please!)

We have:

All qualifying and races are guaranteed to be streamed. Practices are usually streamed as well. I typically feed the chat with the radio transcript messages from multiviewer. We have a specific spot for post race chatter so people who missed the race won't be spoiled.

There's a dynamic schedule in there for all events that translates to your timezone without you having to lift a finger!

F1 Fantasy is played in there, and there are channels for streaming games as well (F1 games, or others. Our resident artists sometimes stream art as well!)

There are spots for news, rumors, pets, memes, fanfic/rpf, general F1 discussion and off topics. We even have a sprint writing bot!

There's threads for other sports and other motorsports as well. We often times will stream other sports as well.

No mics or voice chatting is enabled for now. This can be unpredictable and make some people uncomfortable, so all chatting is done via typing/texting.

We have movie/show/youtube nights often as well, where we just get together as a little community and hang out and watch stuff.

An interactive game section where you can play a fishing mini-game, help us grow Nyck de Trees, and more!

Everyone is welcome. As long as you promise not to viciously bash drivers and treat everyone with respect, we got you.

Safety is a huge priority for us. We have 5 mods and between us, someone is always active to keep spaces safe. The server is locked until rules are agreed to, and we have measures in place to limit who can join the server based on age of account, account safety, ect. If your discord account is new and it won't let you in, message me directly and I'll see what I can do.

If you've been looking for someone to share races with, to make friends with, to discuss live events in a live chat with, come hang out with us 💕 you can even mute us until race days if that's your preference!

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I hope you have all been well <3

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happy booping

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Tbh all my brain can process right now is "F1" and since that is not something I can write on this blog I legit just sit here and cry.

feel free to follow my personal blog either from your personals or from your rp blogs I don't really care either way. I just know most people don't follow personals from RP blogs so if you've got a personal go for it. I scream about all my fandoms and I just want friends.

@starlightiing

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My Zack muse is tingling

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( And with all that said, I've def been thinking about some Roche/Cloud/Zack/Reno professional (or unprofessional illegal street racing) racing AUs. And I love them all so much -rubs my filthy hands- )

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I'mma go on a mini rant here about nothing that anyone here cares about but it also does sort of relate to every fandom ever in a way.

The formula 1 crowds are, as a whole and not as individuals, massive dicks. The amount of gatekeeping is insane. Like, you are gatekeeping CARS GOING VROOM ON A TRACK. You are??? So cool??? Lmao, I dunno, it just drives me insane. It's like people aren't allowed to be "new" fans of things, ever. Someone has an opinion someone else doesn't agree with and they're like "lol, new to F1?" and it's like, nah mate the person you're accusing of being new has been watching for decades, you just don't know how to handle someone not agreeing with you. And even if they were new, SO WHAT??? Like lord is it harder to be a dick than it is to just maybe explain something to them they might not fully understand as of yet? You were there too once, Oh Ruler Of The Universe and F1 Knowledge.

Not only that, but the amount of animosity towards drivers and the lack of caring about their well-being in crashes -- or what I call "couch driving" like making fun of George Russell's crash and the way he was screaming for a red flag because, I dunno, he was scared to death of being hit and getting killed (or someone else getting killed) because he crashed and his car was sideways in the middle of the damned track?

Like, are you assing me out? Are you saying you would be stone faced and not at all concerned in the same position? You sure do say a whole lot of words for someone sitting on the couch with a bag of potato chips watching fast cars go nyoom for your entertainment.

Drives me bonkers, it really does. I know gatekeeping is a thing in every fandom so ya'll will probably at least be able to generally relate lmao.

Thanks for listening to the rant. As always, I send hugs and love to you all <3

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Sighs not my FFVII muses coming back because of Rebirth. I've sort of shelved Roche for now since I am enjoying getting to write with one vs writing him for now but he does still exist if wanted.

I'm gaining a lot of muse for Zack and Tifa on top of already having Reno, Leslie, Biggs, and Wedge.

But also my brain is still in a very bad place and everything changes in me at the drop of a hat so take it with a grain of salt.

It was really nice to be able to write some FF16 again too! Though for some reason, it was much easier to slip into Barnabas than it was Dion who I mained for HOW LONG sheesh.

Grief and anger mentions beneath the snip snip.

I'm stuck in the 'anger' portion of my grief. I have 3 free therapy sessions through my insurance specifically to address grief that I will be going to starting next week. But the anger is really starting to be coming intrusive and concerning. I'm misplacing it too. I can notice all of this AFTER the fact, but I can't seem to stop myself in the heat of the moment. Like, my dogs pissed me off so much last night that I legitimately threw a (very small) vacuum at my door. I also slammed a lot of doors and screamed incredibly loudly into a pillow before storming out of the house and angrily marching around dollar general until I felt okay enough to come home. My anger does not ever get taken out on people or animals, even when they're the reasoning behind it, so I'm really really glad for that. But I am not the 'throwing a vacuum, running out of the house, slamming doors" kind of person and I didn't like any of that at all. But I felt so out of control in the moment.

I do think the anger and lack of patience is from the grief. I think I flutter in and out of the anger stage of grief and sometimes it just gets to be too much and I'm overstimulated and I just sort of...lose it. So I'm glad I'll have the therapy to address that. As soon as I calmed down I was booking appointments so damn fast because it is NOT acceptable behavior.

Aside from that, things have been okay at best. I just want my grandma and she's not here and she will never be here again and it's not fair to her. I struggle with it every day. I know it's only been a month (on sunday) and that it's still fairly fresh, but I didn't expect it to still be eating at me THIS intensely at this point.

I miss my fiance. I want him to come back desperately.

I want to write more, I think it's helping a bit to get some anger and frustration out but my motivation is so lacking, I feel like I cannot start anything without my hand being held.

On a happier note....I started playing pocket frogs again and those lil froggies are so damn cute. If nothing else, I have my froggo babies. And my best friend has been shiny hunting pokemon at night for me to fall asleep to so I don't feel so alone. I super appreciate that so much. AAAAND Stuart has been playing Rebirth a little bit every afternoon too so I can see the game/story since I don't have a ps5 so that's been nice too <3

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"it's just a flesh wound. nothing major." // for any of your ffviir muses !

Memes! || Always Accepting @speedchasing

"Thaaaat looks like a little more than a flesh wound, pal." Though Reno is wholly unsurprised to hear a SOLDIER minimize their own damages.

It's part of what they're made to do.

"But I guess you weirdos regenerate pretty quickly, don'tcha? So, there's no need to sound the alarm."

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How's everyone today? Drank some water? Had some food? Taken your meds? Sending lots of love to anyone under the weather mentally and/or physically. <3 Life is hard and its okay if you're not feeling okay. Feel free to share with me a woe or two, and/or something that has made you smile today. Things will get better.

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The first 5 Asks to send 💋 get a kiss

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He needs you more than he needs me. -> Dion {from here. He's referencing Joshua, based on his Revised FFXVI Verse.}

Memes! || Always Accepting @strawberry-barista

Something about that statement - however it was intended to be interpreted - settled heavy and thick in the pit of Dion's stomach. To be needed by anyone on a personal level - anyone outside of Terence, that is - felt almost...wrong.

There was little Dion could offer anyone beyond Bahamut. His time was even quite a rarity to obtain, bound and shackled by duty that ran so deep inside of him, it mixed with his very blood.

How, pray tell, could he have been of any use to Joshua if not in the form of Bahamut and Bahamut alone?

"I dare to negate your sentiment." Dion said softly, letting a weary sigh pass through scarcely parted lips. "I have naught to offer the Phoenix that would be of any use. Unless, of course, you know something more than I?"

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"if you don't go now, i promise i'll make your life a living hell. " (To Barnabas)

Memes! || Always Accepting @ofcrimson

A silence settles comfortably in the air between them as the last of her threat finds itself rattling almost humorously in Barnabas' skull. Make his life a living hell?

Oh, if she could only know how that is already true.

An eyebrow quirks in interest, and a low chuckle claws up from the back of his throat.

"I dare you, my dear, to make good on that promise. Nay, I beg of you. Let us see what hell you believe you can bestow upon me."

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❛ You're not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜ [For Reno, totally *not* baiting him ;) ]

Memes! || Always Accepting @therapardalis

"Well, now. Finally, someone with - wait a minute."

Reno narrows his eyes, finger pointed at her in blatant accusation.

"Who says that? You makin' shit up?"

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"Partners? Tch, I've already got one'a those." Reno waves a dismissive hand, remaining as nonchalant as possible while simultaneously observing as much of the SOLDIER as he can.

Yep, he's got the eyes. And the weird fuckin' personality, too. Probably harmless - at least to someone like Reno.

"But I am the fastest Turk in the 'biz', you got that right. Ain't no slowin' me down."

❛ SOLDIER 3RD CLASS roche , at your service , ❜ roche says almost nonchalantly , greeting reno with a casual two - finger salute , though that smug grin on his lips follows all too quickly as he eyes the turk up and down with a quiet curiosity . ❛ word is that you're the fastest turk in the biz ! excellent ⸻ i am in dire need of an individual who is not afraid of a little speed . i'm certain we will be steadfast partners , you and i ! ❜

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{ surprise me tbh. no muses off limits. }

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🐝  *  ―  𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑹𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑶𝑴 𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  please don't leave me alone. i cannot do this without you.  ❜ ❛  just fucking leave me alone!  ❜ ❛  i'm done crying about this. i'm done crying about you.  ❜ ❛  why do you even pretend to care?  ❜ ❛  will i ever be good enough?  ❜ ❛  i hate you!  ❜ ❛  i don't ever want to see you again.  ❜ ❛  if you don't go now, i promise i'll make your life a living hell.  ❜ ❛  did you ever really love me? or was it all just a game to you?  ❜ ❛  you're not my friend ... not anymore.  ❜ ❛  i don't love you anymore.  ❜ ❛  how could you do this to me? i trusted you!  ❜ ❛  i gave you my heart, and you just walked away like it meant nothing.  ❜ ❛  it's all my fault, isn't it? i ruin everything i touch.  ❜ ❛  this is goodbye. i hope you find the happiness i couldn't give you.  ❜ ❛  can't you see i'm hurting? or do you just not care enough to notice?  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who i am anymore. it's like i've lost myself along the way.  ❜ ❛  i never thought i'd see you again. why did you come back into my life now?  ❜ ❛  i'm finally happy ... why do you have to try and ruin this?  ❜ ❛  i never meant to hurt you.  ❜ ❛  what happened to us? we used to be so good together.  ❜ ❛  promises are just words, meaningless and easily broken.  ❜ ❛  i pushed you away when all i wanted was for you to stay.  ❜ ❛  why couldn't you love me back? am i not enough?  ❜ ❛  i never meant for you to find out like this. i'm so sorry.  ❜ ❛  i wish we could go back and fix the moment everything went wrong.  ❜ ❛  i feel like we're drifting apart, and no matter how hard i try, i can't stop it.  ❜ ❛  i can't believe you'd say that to me.  ❜ ❛  i thought you knew me, but your words make me question everything.  ❜ ❛  i'm trapped between two impossible choices, and neither one feels right.  ❜ ❛  no matter what i choose, someone i care about is going to get hurt.  ❜ ❛  once trust is broken, can it ever be truly repaired?  ❜ ❛  you don't get it! no one does ...  ❜ ❛  no matter what i do, it's never enough.  ❜ ❛  you said you'd always be there for me. where were you when i needed you the most?  ❜ ❛  why should i have hope when everything around me is falling apart?  ❜ ❛  i can't move forward. i keep reliving this moment over and over again, and i'm stuck.  ❜ ❛  i thought i was doing the right thing ... but i realize now that i was wrong.  ❜ ❛  was it all just a lie?  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who i am anymore. i've lost myself in trying to please everyone else.  ❜