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one hyperfixated tumblr mutual has the power of six hundred thousand ad campaigns

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daydreaming about writing: 🥰😍🥹❤️😊🌺✨😘

the act of actually writing: 😭😰😵‍💫😭😰😭☹️😖

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#boop

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P S A L M S 9 6 : 3

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It answers so many questions...the politicians are making deals with Lord Megatron!

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Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.

- Proverbs 16:24

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Watching Transformers G1 Part 650

Like how the Autobots are just the go-to emergency number now. Not sure how Paul is doing a video call considering he doesn't have a camera for it, but maybe Teletraan I is pulling something idk

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Optimus Prime contemplating life by a babbling brook is now available on society 6 as a print and the original painting is available on etsy! A great repurposed print of a farmstead made infinitely better by 80’s robot warrior/statesmen.

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Roger Ebert just destroying some specific kind of nerd(s). 

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all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary all of this is temporary

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Hi hi!

So awhile ago I discovered my taglist was completely broken, and there was no way to actually fix it. And I figured since a lot of the people who were on it don't engage with me anymore, that it was maybe time to revamp it and throw the net again and see who swims by.

This blog is headed a new direction and I understand that this may not be for everyone. So, no hard feelings if you don't want back on my list! But if you do, please reach out in a DM, comment, reblog, or an ask!

taglist

who we have so far (no hard feelings if you wanna be removed!)

@itsgoghtime @horserad-ish @mongoosesthings @sarahsmi13s

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tg/tgm drama

Wow, so. Firstly, I'll say I have zero interaction with what's happening in the fandom right now, and I don't want any. This is just a very informal announcement of what I've been wanting to do for awhile.

Many have probably noticed I've taken a huge step back from this fandom, and if you've read some of my check-ins, you'll know this is largely due to my faith journey and who I am as a follower of Jesus. This particular fandom has done more personal damage to me than others I've been in. Not from anyone, but by my own hand.

For a long time I was free from sexual promiscuity and last year I found myself writing, reading, and encouraging smut work that I, now on the other side, am very ashamed of.

I've been convicted and no longer want any part of that in my space or my peace or my spirit, so I divorced myself. I've stopped writing TG/TGM, and I've stopped reading it (all my mutuals and my friends know this) even to the point where I've had to reevaluate my Val Kilmer content because it just wasn't serving my spirit.

We talk about things not serving us here on this little hellsite but in reality, we should be evaluating what is serving our spiritual selves. What's bringing in the glory of God to us and what is keeping us from the light. I think what's happening in the fandom right now is a big wake up call to all of us creators and engagers to take inventory about the hold fandom has on us, and how the content we engage with online does have real life impacts.

What happened to Mayhem was awful and while we had our differences, I am truly sad to see what happened to her. I hope she can get a handle on peace again and move forward. Peace and blessings to her.

But that said, this is my formal announcement that I am bowing out of the Top Gun/Maverick fandom. I love our silly little boys and the story they tell, but I don't like the direction this fandom has charted, is charting, and probably will continue to chart. Not just the toxicity, but just the overall tone of sexual innuendo, promiscuity, and adult content.

I truly feel, now, that if any of these men and women in real life knew what this space was writing about them while in-character, they'd be uncomfortable. And that's a harrowing thing.

While I regret the content I've produced in this fandom, I don't regret the friendships. I'm by no means a popular blog (I actually feel like I sit in my little corner of obscurity here and just love what I love) but I've come to respect a lot of people, here. I've made friends here. But I've come to terms with who I am, and in what fandoms I belong in.

Returning to Jurassic Park, Batman, Transformers and what remains of Terra Nova is truly where my inner child, who is the innocent and pure young thing I was before I fell into this pit of sexual obsession, belongs.

These are longstanding fandoms of 15+ years for me, that still have the childlike wonder I first felt watching them unfold the first time. They make me feel like me, not a voracious sexually-desperate hungry, hungry hippo.

That said, I'll be removing my TG/TGM content from here, and I'll probably start being more active over on Ao3 and ff.net again. Maybe I'll even try Wattpad out for a bit and see if I like that, too. I'll still post here, but I know interactions will be zero to null, and that's okay. My peace is mine, and I'll fight for it. Alone, if necessary.

This is just a reminder that what you do in the dark isn't inescapable. It eventually comes full circle, and you'll have to face the music. May we all find better versions of ourselves, and I pray that Jesus changes you for the better just as He as me, and that you encounter true, full, bone-deep peace like I have.

Don't be a stranger. Don't forget me. Or, do. It's okay. This too will pass.

💛, valmare

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Surprise! Bluey's pupper has my whole heart! I think the Father is still up to interpretation, but I'd like to think it's Mackenzie. Anyway, couldn't resist cute Adult!Bluey and future family sketches!

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hi love you guys do me a favor. big big big BIG breath in right now all the way all the way breathe in feel your belly expanding hold hold hold.. hold.. now everything out like ur a deflating balloon. whoosh. whooooooooosh. imagine water streaming from the top of your head down your shoulders off the ends of your fingertips and toes. u are a reed in a river a beam of pure light a steady anvil solid and heavy. ok that was all thank u

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he lived he was leader of the decepticons for 15 minutes he died

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