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I REALLY HATE when I’m talking about my desire for romantic love and someone says, “well love yourself.” Like shut the fuck up. Self love and romantic love do not replace each other. They do not fill the same void. And just because I wish there was someone in my life that made me feel special, doesn’t mean I don’t think I’M special. Fuck your projections. Regardless of HOW MUCH you love yourself, it doesn’t replace the energy, strength, commitment, and love that can come from another. As a general note, my feelings aren’t up for debate. I just wanted to vent.

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quick question: how the fuck do I get through the rest of my life like this

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might fuck around and drink the daily recommended amount of water

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ok why does this look better than marvel movies with $100m budgets

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These people went from lifting chips to pulling off some action movie shit

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Bolt Thrower - Psychological Warfare

Captive life, held in past

Deranged memories, burning in your brain

Thoughts of pain, darkest dreams 

Self-inflicted torture, rotting your mind

Punishment, no pain release

Captive to the darkness of this psychotic insanity

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Me, 12 minutes after I go out: sweet jesus I wish I were home

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It’s so hot that we all survived 2018 and xxxtentacion didn’t

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no one gives a fuck about me. i’m gonna go slide down the stairs on my stomach

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2003 will be my year

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Friendly reminder, you are allowed to break. You are allowed to ask for help. We were not created to rely solely on ourselves. Don’t get me wrong, you can save yourself, and you can be your own hero, but it’s also perfectly ok to drop your guard, crumble, and have someone pick up the pieces and put them back together. You don’t have to fight alone. It’s ok to let someone fight for you, along side of you. You don’t have to be strong all the time. Let someone pick up your pieces. It doesn’t make you weak. Stronger together. 

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200 Cigarettes (1999) dir. Risa Bramon Garcia