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i’ve never been someone who thought traveling back in time was appealing. it was the butterfly effect and understanding that in the cliche movies it’s always best to let the past be the past and enjoy the present. but as i’ve gotten older i find myself not just yearning to be thrust from this time and to go back to the past but i’m actively hoping for it. wishing even. maybe i’ve watched everyone around me achieve adulthood with a nice stable job, steady income, not counting every penny they make to get through the month, and i’m envious. i’ve fought so hard and seen nothing of it so i’d rather return to a simpler time. when i think about it and logic kicks in i wouldn’t sacrifice certain things i have now in order to do that. but if i could have both. if i could choose. maybe i would go back. but that’s not how life works. and i don’t want to be bitter, and i don’t want to be that person who’s stuck. but i am.

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working closing at a retail job is already depressing. but working closing at a retail job that you have to commute 40 minutes to get to ???? now that’s an extra level of depressing.

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It's alright to stop

There's no need to run without even knowing the reason

It's alright to not have a dream

If you have moments where you feel happiness for a while

It's alright to stop

Now we don't run without knowing the destination

It's alright to not have a dream

All the breaths you breathe are already in paradise

멈춰서도 괜찮아

아무 이유도 모르는 채 달릴 필요 없어

꿈이 없어도 괜찮아

잠시 행복을 느낄 네 순간들이 있다면

멈춰서도 괜찮아

이젠 목적도 모르는 채 달리지 않아

꿈이 없어도 괜찮아

네가 내뱉는 모든 호흡은 이미 낙원에

BTS - 낙원 (Paradise)

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The same day (The same day)

It flows again (It flows again)

How long do I have to endure it?

Can I go back to where I am from?

This cold and lonely night

Without thinking

I walk in my dark room alone

I said it was okay

I feel like I'm losing myself slowly

똑같은 하루가 (똑같은 하루가)

또다시 흘러가 (또다시 흘러가)

얼마나 버텨야

나 돌아갈 수 있을까?

차갑고 쓸쓸한 밤

아무 생각 없이

불 꺼진 방안을 걸어 나 홀로

괜찮다 했었지만

점점 날 잃어가는 것만 같아

Jimin - Alone

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what is wrong with me?

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Sometimes I would burst into tears for no reason

The life I'd hoped for, the life I'd wanted, just that kind of life

I don't care now how it turns out anymore

Without worries for just a day

Without concerns for just a day

Living, living, living

가끔씩 덜컥 이유 없이 눈물이 쏟아져

내가 바란 삶 내가 원한 삶 그저 그런 삶

뭐가 됐든 이젠 상관없지

하루라도 막 걱정 없이

하루라도 막 고민 없이

사는 게 사는 게 사는 게

Agust D - 점점 어른이 되나봐 (28)

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For the people who left TikTok after the “TikTok ban” and wonder if it’s going down hill. Yes!

Since it came back I’ve seen on my fyp

Swastika jewelry, shirts, hats, etc recommend in the TikTok shop

More Maggots (trump supporters)on my fyp

A guy doing a Nazi salute to an anti Nazi song

People are having to refollow leftist creators because TikTok made them unfollow

Hashtags are being removed/no longer exist that are critical of Trump and republicans

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A day to the moon

Like borrowed stars

Everyone's looking at you

But, baby, you're still blue, blue

달에게 하루

빌려온 별들

널 보네 모두

But baby you're still blue, blue

V - Blue

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"Baby baby 그대는 Caramel Macchiato

여전히 내 입가엔 그대 향기 달콤해

Baby baby tonight, yeah yeah yeah"

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now that trump has tiktok, twitter, facebook and insta in his pocket, get ready for a massive wave of internet censorship. one of trump's greatest weapons has always been misinformation; it's going to become harder and harder to spread facts and criticism going forward. posts that aren't made invisible will be magically ignored by the algorithm. dissidents will have their accounts deleted and voices erased.

this is a suppression tactic. this is another stage of fascism.

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and when i see daydream live i’m gonna cry

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Anti-Tesla graffiti seen in Berlin

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No thanks.

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"You can't shoot a fire, so why does LAPD get over 25% of our budget"

Poster spotted in Los Angeles

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On the first visit to a psychiatric ward

My parents came up with me

We listened to the consultation together

My parents said they don't truly understand me

I don't understand myself well either

Then who would understand?

Friends? Or you? Nobody knows me well

정신과를 처음 간 날 부모님이 올라와

같이 상담을 받았지 부모님 왈 날 잘 몰라

나 자신도 날 잘 몰라 그렇다면 누가 알까

친구? 아님 너? 그 누구도 날 잘 몰라

Agust D - 마지막 (The Last)

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soon <3

j-hope making history at lollapalooza 2022

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horses have been made into the ideal worker over thousands of years of breeding and domestication and yet now are made to race to the point of exhaustion and injury and sometimes death to entertain the rich if they fail they are killed and if they succeed they are spared until they stop succeeding and then they are killed

even the most successful racehorses often end up beaten and starving in kill pens despite spending their lives earning millions of dollars for their stables their owners and thousands of sports betters

humans and horses are alike in our struggle under the boot of uncaring aristocracy

do not forget the love that fuels you in your anger do not let them break you and make you into their idea of animals they do not know that animals too have love and courage and reason and camaraderie they do not know that we have always been animals and animals feel so much more than their beloved hate and fear