candydandyorsomething

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Today’s my two year anniversary of starting testosterone and I have no idea what I wanna do to celebrate. I went to the bar with some friends last year and that was fun, but I’m not sure if I wanna do that again. Maybe I’ll just get some pie and see if one of them wants to just hangout, that sounds good

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Noooo white boy don't rush through your entire dark and twisted Messiah arc in two episodes your boyfriend needs time to be even more hot and tortures over the prospect of killing you to save humanity

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now this is an art style i could eat

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YO

It was in reference to the shirt I was wearing but I’m still takin it WOO!

I just had someone tell me i sound like cam i’m gonna fuckin cry dude i’m so happy TToTT

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Besties

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Did you?

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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dang i just loved superman. so wonderful to see this swell of art and stories where kindness and hope and joy are shown to be as cool as they are in real life. i understand this has traditionally been part of the character but its nice to come back to that. feels like irony poisoning melting away

there are some buckaroos this upsets for whatever reason but honestly is it very cool to be earnest and love with your whole heart and dont know what to tell ya

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I just had someone tell me i sound like cam i’m gonna fuckin cry dude i’m so happy TToTT

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I LOVE IT WHEN PEOPLE TYPE HOW THEY PRONOUNCE A WORD. I LOVE Y’ALL IN TEXT. I LOVE YOU INTENTIONALLY MISSPELLED WORDS TO CONVEY A SECOND MEANING AND CONTEXT.

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*crunch crunch*

-pause-

*crunchcrunchcrunchcrunchcrunch*

Girl that’s a chunk of pure uranium, don’t touch it. Girl are you even listening to me. Girl it will give you cancer. Girl stop eating it.

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RE6 Happy end ;3

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I keep looking at my trash can while sewing and thinking “I bet Cam would appreciate more craft materials” and wondering if he draws too. I feel bad about not using my dice and hoping Chance doesn’t feel too neglected.

I was already bad enough about personifying my stuff, getting this game might not have been the best call on my part

Y'all this fucking game man

I look in the mirror? I think of Amir

Take a shower? Singing a duet with Johnny Splash

Look through the fridge? Hi Freddy

Come inside after being out in the fuckass summer heat? Thank you, Hector, for cooling the house

I'm so FUCKING NORMAL-

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‘invert’ is often Internet shorthand for invertebrate but it was used as a term for a gay person within formal and scientific context in the late 19th and early 20th century so for a split second I go “this bug is gay???? Sigmund Freud diagnosed old school gay?????” when I see it in it’s more modern context

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sketch of the mozzarella incident with friar errol. what was i supposed to do, not eat the cheese stick he suggestively put to my lips? i might color this later, but i wanna draw out the other shenanigans i got up to in the game.

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idk how to explain it but jean-loo looks like the missing fourth ed from ed edd & eddy. he looks like he should be scamming kids out of their quarters for massive jawbreakers. am i alone on this? anyone else think so?

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Was, was she supposed to represent something else?

Oh btw I'm slowly catching kpop demon hunters brain rot and it's literally impossible for me to see Rumi as literally anything but an allegory for a stealth trans woman