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Kalo akhirnya semua orang akan menyakiti kamu juga

Paling engga, cari orang yang se worth it itu.

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Can I be a princess just once?

Can someone rich, kind, and loyal marry and spoil me, so I can do cancer research without fear of lacking grant or money? 🤣🤣

MAU DIMANJA DONG TOLONG PLEASE

TOLONG LAH

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Klo cerita hidup gue gila nya seklise ini.

Pasti ada sesuatu yang Tuhan pengen ubah di gue tapi gue nya belum berubah2.

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Anxiety.

Gimana bedain anxiety sama insting sama negative thinking?

Gile.

I really hate new environment.

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“You are deserving of love just by existing.”

The greatest thing I read today.

Never heard of it directed to me though :)

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Menurut kamu, kapan kira-kira saya bisa berhenti menangis karena kecacatan ini?

Menurut saya, tidak akan bakal pernah.

Kamu setuju ga?

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It hurts so much that I was never chosen.

When will it be my turn?

When will I be the priority?

When will I have things in the easy way?

When?

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Ou, so I am important now?

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I don’t care what people say.

Drama atau over-reacting.

I am very proud of myself today.

I walked into the room by myself.

I represented that little girl.

She’s far better now.

She made a choice.

I wish I could say this earlier to the 10-year-old me.

There’s nothing to be ashamed of. It is not your fault. It’s not even anyone’s.

You. Are. Enough.

One step at a time, Vania.

One more step to go.

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Kenapa berantakan semuanya?

I need help.

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Kemaren ditanya lagi.

Kok punggungnya miring.

Waw. Saya jawabnya uda santai banget.

Ya saya skoliosis.

Oke.

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My whole life, I feel like I beg. Everytime.

I hate that word.

I need a break.

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Satu-satu Vania.

Pasti bisa selesai.

Satu-satu Vania.

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My Bad Habit

Kadang saya selalu bilang ama Dia, “Kasi berkat buat mereka saja dulu, buat aku nanti aja”

Terus Dia bilang “Ou, you think I can’t handle y’all??”

Terus saya sadar saya sedang berbicara dengan Dia.

Sorry, my bad.

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Panic doesn’t help at all. Not that I need your help. I need you presence. Not your judgement. I need you being here, not physically, but your support, your words, just one or two or three are enough.

I panic too.

I start to think irrational things.

I am alone

And I prefer that.