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@cheateddeath

carter is such a silly guy who ive given so mamy silly thoughts to!!

the fact that he could/does have so much chemistry with like, everyone, is wild to me. like, i lover carter but, with the way he is i didnt think he'd have so much chemistry with other characters.

terry is obvious, n i actually love them moat outta all carter/terry ships. they have clear (clear lol) chemistry out of everyone, and it doesnt feel pushed. its not even a typical football guy × cheerleader, like they actually seem to love each other, if not just like.

i need more people to talk about like, carter × clear (someone called them hotwheels? peak.) like, every talks about carter n alex, n clear n alex. but carter n clear is actually so cute, n i think clear would bring so much repressed shit outta carter lol.

both tod n alex × carter hold soft places in my heart (possibly bc im tod biased but.. wtv) they would both bring out so much repressed emotions of carters lol.

why. why do we not talk about carters little meltdown more? like, dude was so ready to just, accept fate in his own way. as long as he was 'taking himself out', then he was ready. even if he chickened out in the end, he was still ready for it all to be over. and i never see much about the after effects of it all. theres no way he doesnt keep repressing and repressing his emotions, and there had to be a time where he broke down (in a not like, ready to die way). i need people to talk more about the effects of everything.

i see focus on alex after tod died. i DO see stuff about carter after terry dies, but its always the immediate reaction. not months later, when hes still chest deep in a depression he squishes down and down out of fear of disappointment. (maybe he doesnt wanna disappointment himself, maybe he doesnt want to disappointment alex n clear, who finally thought he was getting better. maybe he doesnt wanna disappointment what lasting feelings he has for terry, scared that the terry he knew would be upset with him for being such a pussy ((as if terry would EVER be disappointed in him for trying to better himself, even if it meant accepting that he needed help from other hands))

carters actually very important to me, and is a GREAT rep of longlasting grief, even if its not explored as much as id like, i enjoy imagining what little was left to be read inbetween the lines! :3

(if you have smth specific you wanna hear my opinion on, id be happy to hear it!!)

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Terry would’ve forced Carter to watch Jennifer’s Body and would tell him that him and Billy are just like Jennifer and needy and that would’ve killed him on the spot

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the thing about transfem Alex is that I can just see it. like he feels awkward in his body. all his life he just feel like there is this script he needs to follow to belong in his boy and his social circle. He feels lucky that his dad and Tod is very eager to show him the way to make him fit in. Even though he doesn’t feel like he fits in or that he believes it will never happen. He just feels stuck and so unhappy because he tries to be someone he isn’t but then he meets clear who is just like him but a girl. they get along and they are near identical and for the first time in his clear gives him hope that he can be something he can be someone and happy. so they share everything clear let’s him experiment with make up. clear supports him fully and when Alex completely breaks down one day from happiness she just holds him and tells him that he will be okay and that it is never too late

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IT WILD HOW PARALLEL ALMOST EVERYTHING IS TO TODALEX/BRICKBATH!! EVERYTHING REVOLVES AROUND TOD!!

(they make me sick.)

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no bc like, my aunt keeps trying to show me new movies n i havent enjoyed any of them 😭 i told her 'if its not final destination or castle, my ass is NOT gonna like it.'

im trying so hard to get through at least like 5 movies on my watchlist this month, but as soon as i start them, i'm like damn. i wish this was final destination

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his overthinker ass was trying to decipher if Tod is suggesting they should hook up at the airport toilet

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Just in time before pride month ends: Sam is trans. Everyone asks him how he’s so tall and jokes on them he was 5’9 at 14

IM SUCH A TRANS SAM TRUTHER!!!! HES SO TBOY SWAG I LOVE HIM!!!

i love the idea that he knew from a YOUNG age. whether he had accepting parents or not is up to interpretation honestly.

mostly bc i dont know if he has a canon age, but i see him as 23-24, so he's been on T for a WHILE, and most people wouldnt bat an eye at him.

i love the idea that he comes out to peter, scared bc its like, 2000. maybe hes had bad experiences with other before, but no matter what, he doesnt want to loose a close friend over something silly like his gender.

but peter, while confused, tells sam that no matter what, peter doesnt care whats in his pants. sam is peter friend, no matter who sam is.

peters like 'as long as you arent a murderer, we're chill'

trans sam, after coming out, slowly being more open to letting the girls hang around close friends, like peter. at first hes hesitant, but eventually he's just, lettin the girls breathe (n peter has to stop himself from looking, not bc hes weirded out, but bc sam is hot as shit ;3)

the babies <3 right before pride month ends!

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tryin to cook up a todalexcarterclear fic..

ive got the plot, the timeline, the characterization, EVERYTHING.

yet.. I'M STRUGGLING TO ACTUALLY PUT IT INTO AN ACTUAL FANFICTION 😭😭

sighs.. one day ill write it.. one day..

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This was the moment I decided that I headcanoned alex as gay and tod as bi

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🫡 i shall deliver!

finally did those tod drawings!! ignore that neither of them actually look like him please. okay thanks bye

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YEAHHHHHHHHHHH LOOOK AT THE BABY BOYYY 🥰🥰🥰🥰 such a cutie patootie

(is this my sign to draw tod aswell..? im tempted..)

finally did those tod drawings!! ignore that neither of them actually look like him please. okay thanks bye

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YEAHHHHHHHHH 🎉🎉🎉🎉

might try draw tod tomorrow? i'm not massively sure if i should, as the clear art flopped 😿

like i know i should follow my heart and shit and do it just for myself.., but DAMN is validation from others just lovely

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please draw tod i need more tod lovers 🥺 my baby boy needs more love..

might try draw tod tomorrow? i'm not massively sure if i should, as the clear art flopped 😿

like i know i should follow my heart and shit and do it just for myself.., but DAMN is validation from others just lovely

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me every night before bed n i remember he was definitely on the verge of ending it defore his canon death bc he lost the 2 most important people to him..

guys hes my son trust.

i want to pinch his cheeks n buddle him up in blankets to protect him from the horrors..

i will NOT cry about tod wagner tonight.

i will NOT cry about tod wagner tonight.

i will NOT cry about tod wagner tonight.

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alright yall. if you like sampeter and you like piss, here you go..

enjoy fellow freaks (blame my friend ash, he encouraged this..)

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guys im so crazy over codependent brickbath/todalex.. like, if it wasnt for mrs. n mr. waggner, alex n tod wouldve never left each others side.. and any sort of au could fit them being codependent..

au where death ISNT after them, but the plane still explodes n such? CODEPENDENT.

au where it all happens but alex saves tod in time? CODEPENDENT.

the purgatory/afterlife au, when they finally meet again after it all? CODEPENDENT.

idgaf if its healthy, unhealthy (i however cant see them as toxic.. thats carter n alex lets be honest), anysort of codependency is just, peak.

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AU where Sam is a ghost and Peter is living in the apartment he died in. He’s very happy for a dead dude.

😭😭 wait this is so peak lemme do some thoughts i love this idea

peter moves into a new apartment, having been transfered to a different state for work (or smth similar, but either way he doesnt really know the area/the history of his new place of staying). hes grumpy, tired, and really wants to take a nap.

he puts his small amount of boxes onto the floor of his new apartment, and immediately faceplants onto the couch that came with the apartment. he wakes up, and some of his boxes.. are open?

he immediately checks the locks on everything, sees if anything is missing, or stolen. but.. everythings locked, and all of his stuff still seems to be there. peter has never been more confused in his life.. and he went to college. (idk if peter did go to college but hes like, 26 okay i feel he would)

peter trys to live his life as normally as he can, but theres always smth happening that seems a lil.. off. he'll leave for work with the apartment a mess, dishes dirty, clothes everywhere, etc etc. but when he comes back, everything put away...

his clothes are in the hamper, his dishes are washed, everythings cleaned up. and at first he thinks maybes hes forgetting that he did the chores, but everytime it happens, he cant recall doing them at ALL.

he remembers everything being a distaster, but not cleaning it up. and it just gets weirder from there..

basically, at some point, peter comes home early one day, having finished his work n deciding he deserved the rest of the day off. he opens his door, sets his bag down, and looks up to see a.. figure.. floating and carrying his dirty clothes to the hamper.

peter n the figure stare at each other for a minute, before peter screams and the figure screams as well. but it isnt long until the figure disappears, and peter ends up feeling bad.

peter leaves out a lil note, apologizing for screaming at them, and asking if they could talk.

he wakes up in the morning, to a smiley face drawn on the note that he KNEW he didnt draw, and called off of work.

he sat on the couch, and it wasnt long until the figure reappeared infront of him. they stared at each other for a second, until the figure waved at peter.. and peter felt his face heating up as he truly looked at the figure.

the figure was tall, or well, taller than peter.. and they had the cutest lil smile on their face. but the thing about the figure, was how their face seemed to be forever melting..

everytime the figure tried to speak, no sound came out, so peter spoke while the figure wrote in a notepad. peter asked simple questions, and the figure answered. peter found out a lot about the figure.

his name was sam, he was 23 (or well, was..), and he died in a plane explosion about a year ago.

and now peters agreed to try n find sam's family n friends, to try n help sam make it to the afterlife..

but peter isnt so sure if he'd like sam to leave, bc despite sam's injuries.. sam's very pretty, and peter can feel himself fall more n more everytime they 'talk'..

i love them so much i hope you like what i came up with anon :3