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can i have a cigarette?

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I wish lesbians were as easy to find in real life as they are on tumblr

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After the rain by Vitality Art

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colors of the sky.

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" Wandering through dreamscapes "

// © Adhee's wonder world

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They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time

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angel feather ruffle

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my day to day life, while having mental illness and being medicated for it, is summarized very well by Noah Kahan's No Complaints

the medication I've been on helps significantly. My depressive episodes are farther between and I can still do bare minimum things like eating, getting dressed, and going to work (that's my personal bare minimum), but there's down sides.

I still have depression, I still have psychosis, I still have anxiety. They don't go away, meds just patch up my brain a little. But while they do that, they also patch over things like excitement. It's so incredibly hard for things to excite me, and it's hard for me to latch onto things like I did before I was on this medication. It's better than wanting to throw myself into traffic or drink myself to death every day, but it's still hard.

In his song, he says, "filled the whole in my head with prescription medication, and forgot how to cry, who am I to complain" followed by

"and now the pain's different, still exists but escapes different, and evades vision, makes the rain different and news boring and my rage distant"

because maybe it's patched you up, but everything changes. It's hard to know when I'm depressed now because I don't feel sad, I just feel less motivated. It's so hard for me to feel such peeked emotions in any direction until it builds up over time. "but I can finally eat and I can fall asleep" so can I really complain?

"filled the hole in my head with prescription medication and forgot how to cry, who am i to complain"

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grey wagtail

character from The Wildercourt, the graphic novel I'm very slowly but very persistently working on

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Ploop ploop ploop

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