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It was a mistake to open this app, but now that I'm here, I'll make the only post on Tumbler I'll ever make. For the record... I've never regretted anything more.

This message is not directed at the OP.

I will never forget that I made you repost this. I have regretted this every day of my life. I remember when you told me that I was the first person to make you consider having kids. And what did I do to the woman who loved me enough to maybe want to have a family? I betrayed your trust. It is easy to see as evil, because in that moment, I was panicked and selfish enough of my own life to the point where I'd go against everything I've claimed to believe in, and kill the baby I would share with the one I love. The one who loved me. How dare I call myself a Knight? A man of Virtue? I blew it all for nothing. Nothing.

It's just scary to tell myself "I'm not that person anymore," because I was saying "I'm not this kind of person" when I was being that kind of person. I'm just sorry I deeply hurt you. I know you've had a lot of bad experiences with men in your life; your brother, your dad… I'm sorry I've become one of them. I'm sorry that I've made it harder for you to trust someone with your heart, because your heart is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, and I think that's why it hurts so much to lose you. I am surrounded by memories of your love, and so the pain never truly leaves.

Wherever you are in life, I hope you have someone who loves you the way I always should have. Loyally.

And what the fuck is the point of life if I can't share it with the woman I love?

To others who read this, be careful what you wish for, or you will end up a fool like me. Also, don't ever even think about cheating on someone who loves you. You'll never forgive yourself.

“abortion is nobody’s first choice” actually i know multiple people whose first thought upon finding out they were pregnant was getting an abortion. and when they did, it was a healthy normal medical procedure that they hold no guilt over as far as i’m aware. people hate to see it but that’s what the process can and should look like