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THERES ONLY ONE STATE IN THE USA THAT HAS BANNED CHILD MARRIAGE!

LIKE SERIOUSLY THE LAWS ON THIS SHIT ARE RIDICULOUS! THERE ARE MULTIPLE STATES WERE ITS LEGAL FOR A THREE YEAR OLD TO GET MARRIED TO A 80 IF THEIR PARENTS AND A JUDGE AGREES! ALSO IN SOME STATES BECAUSE OF THEIR LAWS ON CONSENT IN MARRIAGE... OK, LIKE I DON’T EVEN WANNA START ON THAT PART... BUT SERIOUSLY ITS SO FUCKED UP. AND NO ONE TALKS ABOUT THIS! WE SHOULD BE RAGING ABOUT THIS! LIKE SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD LOOK UP THE LAWS IN YOUR STATE!

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So many arrested because people are OPENING THE DOORS and trying to play Sensible Citizens with these MAGA Gestapo Agents.

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Parents, you don’t get constant access to your child’s body and affection just because you made them.

Consent is just as important if parent-child realtionships as it is in any other.

If they don’t want you to kiss them goodnight, than don’t do it.

If they don’t want to be hugged, then don’t hug them.

If they don’t want you touch them THEN DONT FUCKING TOUCH THEM.

You may think that because you are their parents you children must feel safe around you, but if they don’t, they you have no right to force things on them. You’ll only make it worse.

And if they don’t want to give you a hug cause it makes them feel uncomfortable, than it’s not your place to give them a lecture about how they use to be part of you.

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YOU KNOW WHATS SO WEIRD!

sense I've started boxing I've had to eat more protein so i can build up muscle. But all those years of “don't eat and if you do eat vegetable because thats how women are suppose to eat” that have been ingrained in my head screws that up. Like its such an alien concept to me that eating isn't a bad thing, that now i actually should eat more if i want my body to be correct for this. it really makes me realize how much society and shit has fucked with my head and they way i look at food. Also muscles, having muscles is weird, cause now theres this layer of stuff covering my bones thats not fat, and my brains like “get rid of it” and i have to remind myself that thats muscle and i like the muscle and the muscle is good. 

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This is our future and I have to say they are doing amazing! This is revolutionary I also love how all colors are banding together! They are brave & doing what needs to be done  ✊🏿                                                             

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MANSPLAINING!!!!

OK! So i started doing boxing, because I'm trying to turn myself into a boss ass bitch! and i got these bad ass boxing gloves with a nice skeleton design on them! I got super excited when they came, so i posted a photo of me wearing them. 30 minutes later i got a text from one of my guys friends saying “NOPE!!!!!”. so i replied “what?!” and then he started being all like “so you do boxing now? you know you could get hurt”. and then he started giving a bunch of basic advice! eventually I called him out as asked “are you giving me all this advice cause I'm a girl? or because I'm me?”. than he replied “Hey! I've fought girls before”. which makes this the only situation where someone thinks they can use the fact that they’ve punched a girl to prove they have nothing against women.... now he just keeps randomly texting me to ask about how my boxing is going and to give me more stupid advice.... EVER SENSE I STARTED BOXING EVER MAN I KNOW FEELS THE NEED TO GIVE ME THE MOST BASIC ADVICE ON BOXING! like what is it that makes every guy think that he is a boxing expert, and what is it about me that makes them think i have no idea what I'm doing????????????? LET ME A BADASS INDEPENDENT WOMAN! 

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Say it with me now!

Witch is a gender neutral term and can be used by males, females, non binary peeps, and all others.

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Ok I’m in a very rant-y mood tonight! But I have a lot of feelings!

(Mild trigger warning, soft violence, physical abuse and interventions mentioned)

So I have this friend, she’s very out their, one of those “IM honest, and I’m sorry if that hurts your little bitch heart types”. She often calls me a dumbass and tells me that imma end up dying before I turn 25. Which I mean, she knows a lot about my life, and she kinda has a point. Also she’s very physically agressive and has literally choked me in front of other people, but in a joking way. She often jokes about having a relationship with me and can be very touchy. Personally I am very understanding of this behavior, she was raised differnt, she didn’t talk up until recently, and she didn’t get to interact with people much growing up so she doesn’t know that what she’s doing isn’t okay. I found out recently people have been talking about us behind my back, apparently they’ve been saying that she’s adusive towards me. She also held an intervention for me (over something pretty small) earlier this year, and a lot of people feel like that wasn’t okay of her to do. But I’m kinda glad she did, I probably wouldn’t have done some stuff I needed to do if she hadn’t. My ex often pressured me to leave her, (and like all my other friend) and he did make me think that maybe it’s not okay for her to treat me that way...

Also last year I went through something like this, but more extreme, with another friend of mine. He would constantly call me names, he wouldn’t let me hang out with other people, he would slut shame me, he would physically restrain me during fights, he hit me once, etc... I realized that his behavior wasn’t good, so I left.

So it’s not like I don’t know about this stuff, and I can’t leave. Because I can. But I don’t really see the issue with her behavior. In fact I’m kinda pissed that people are babying me so much they won’t let me choose my own friends.

But she did just kinda do something that made me question her...

I recently came out as gay, with is a BIG deal for me. I’ve been hiding this for years and realizing I’m gay brought out so many emotions I haven’t felt in years.

And she just texted me this whole big thing about how she thinks I’m to “extra about the whole gay thing” and that “it feels like I’m shoving my gayness down peoples throats”. Which I get, I have been very extra lately. But I’m happy! I have a right to be happy about this!! It’s a big deal for me!!!

Anyhow... I’m kinda just have been really questioning my relationships lately. It feels like all my friends have their own opinions on how people should treat me. One friend thinks everyone baby’s me, another thinks everyone’s to violent, my ex thought that everyone was both too violent and babying towards me...

And people have been saying things to me, about me that make me feel like shit!

Like my ex once told me that he thinks I’m so weird he almost didn’t date me, and later told me that all I am to him is weird... so pretty much he told me that he doesn’t like my personality. Which is okay. That’s what I was expecting out of our relationship when I went into it. But he said that in front of my friends.

Also my friends call me names a lot... jokingly... but still they go to far...

Also just people in general. Like I get harassed on the street every time I go out... low key... I’m kinda just beginning to hate people in general. It’s feels like everyone’s kinda being rude, or violent. And if they aren’t violent then I feel like I can’t trust them not to become violent.. that or they treat me like a child whose incapable of free will.... I feel disconnected... alone...

AURGH!!!!!!

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I JUST WANT TO FIND MY DAMN PEOPLE!!!!

OKAY! HERE WE DAKN WELL GO!!!! So!!!

I recently came out as possible, most likely, probably, a L E S B A I N! and truthfully I have no ducking idea what my gender is! LIKE I AM SO DAMN CONFUSE! All I know is I’m pretty sure I’m either female or agender! But still! I’m confused and I need help! So I got an app called Amino for LGBTQIA. I made some posts about my time coming out and my current issues. I hoped that this would be a great way to find my community and get help and give help! BUT NO!

So day one, I got like 5 messages. two were group chats, WHERE NO ONE TALKED!! The others were people who chated with me a bit. Which was nice.

DAY FUCKING TWO! I got 6 more chats!!!! And I was like “wow!!! I found my people!!! And they are here for me! We’ll talk about our issues! We’ll heal! We’ll get some human connection!” BUT NOOOOOOO... I had two types of conversation.

With girls:

Girl: hey cutie!

Me: hello....

Girl: send me photos.

Me: I just got out of a relationship, and I have a history with ex’s pressuring into stuff like this I’m not comfortable with. So I would rather not. But here’s a photo of my cat.

Girl: aw hun. I’m sorry.

Me: thanks

Girl: Can I see your boobs?

With guys:

Guy: hey cutie! You got a boyfriend.

Me: i’m gay.

Guy: okay. You got a boyfriend.

Me: no I’m a lesbian.

Guy: so you don’t have a boyfriend?

Me: no, because I only date girls.

Guy: is your boyfriend okay with that?

Me (in real life): *screams and cries into pillow*

SOOOOOOO! Here I am. Because after getting constant texts like that from that app I just gave up! And I felt really upset! I wanted to find my people. I wanted to connect and reach out to others.... BUT NOOOOOOOOOO! NO! THAT DIDNT HAPPEN!

So I went to twitter and started checking out the #lgbtqoftwitter and so on. Because I still wanna reach out, and find my people. But still. Before I kinda just felt like I was surrounded by people I could talk to, now, not so much....

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