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Lately, people from my past —friends and lovers, and some memories I had with them randomly pop in my head. I'm not complaining. I think that's normal. But the thing is, I still find myself teary-eyed. It has been years since I last talked to them. I thought I completely moved on already. I should by now, right? But what's with all these emotions inside me? It is tiring.

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Family, in our case, is just a label. Don't give me that shit.

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on a sincere note though, you guys do know that 22 is not old and 30 is not ancient, right? like yeah by 30 you will hopefully have matured but hearing some of you talk like life ends at 30 is a little worrying. one day, not as far away as it may seem, you will be 30 and you will still be a person with value, you will probably still have a lot of the same interests, you will still use the internet, and you will still be you. you have your whole life ahead of you

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Kagabi napanaginipan ko may boyfriend na raw ako. Nag hold hands pa kami. Tapos alam ko that time na panaginip lang yun so literal pinilit ko na matulog pa. Hahahaahahahahah

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I just finished reading Vanishing Girls and I am in shock.

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Poems & Words

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I've been buying books sa FB Marketplace and I am feeling guilty. Hahaahha Hindi dahil sa book, but because they are from different sellers. Sayang Shipping Fee. :( hahahahahahah

Lagot na naman ako kay Mama. Need ko na magtapon ng kahit ano ahahahahaha I need spaaace. Huhu

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I need chocolate.

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The past days, I have random moments wherein l suddenly feel the weight of life pushing me down on the ground. Then I would suddenly feel like crying but would then stop the tears from completely falling. Then I would miss people who drifted away a long time ago. Then I'd feel the need to hug someone tight. Then I'd feel the thirst for solitude. Then I'd want to sleep and forget but I won't because I need to finish tasks. Then I would feel worse because I would once again feel how exhausting life can be at times.

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It's tiring to be alive yet we fear death.

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Is it possible to be over someone yet still get affected when you see them around the web unexpectedly? lol

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sarili o responsibilidad

yung mas madali

mas madali talikuran ang sarili kaysa dun sa isa

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Hurt people hurt people.

But it should never be an excuse for us to intentionally make other people's live miserable again and again and again.

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Recently, two people suddenly messaged me out of the blue to tell me how much they want talking to me. One said that I always make her feel better and assured, while the other shared that talking to me makes her feel that she is never judged.

Those little things made my heart flutter. I've always seen myself as someone who talks more than listens. I am even guilty of sharing my own stories in connection to the "sharer's" stories. Someone used to tell me too that I don't know how to listen. So those times when I was told that they miss talking to me because I help them feel better are priceless.

Have I changed? Or is it just now that I learned to appreciate myself?

Whatever it may be, thanks, G!

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I like it when you share stuff I don't ask about.

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I want to talk to you everyday and share stories about our day. But we don't, so I end up just thinking about you a lot.