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When Madeleine told Armand that vampirism would only make her what she was, she wasn’t lying.

Even if vampirism separated her from mortality and society, she was still subject to persecution by the same crowd who persecuted her as a human.

Society didn’t change. People didn’t change.

But Madeleine kept her word.

She didn’t become a vampire because she wanted the Dark Gift and all it had to offer. She wanted it because it would be the only way to remain with Claudia whether that be an eternity or just mere fleeting moments.

Freedom meant nothing to her if it wasn’t with Claudia.

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mojo!! 🐾

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Changing the relationship status to "Stalemate"

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fuck it, Nova Mafia AU be upon ye

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'no one can tell what I'm looking at if I have my sunglasses on'

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delainey on set 😁🥰❓‼️

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a lesbian best friend wouldn't fix armand but it would be a start

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ouhuyhuhhh pyrrha...... :(

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Lyctoral Grief

Does anyone else feel like the Lyctors' endless, evergreen mourning for their cavaliers is... almost unnatural, a little bit? Not that it's unnatural to feel grief and guilt about having murdered someone you loved. But it's been thousands of years. The Lyctors must have loved and lost more people than they can count anymore. And yet every Lyctor we meet -- and, it's implied, all the ones we didn't -- is still steeped in the horror of what they did, even the ones like Cytherea, whose cavalier went willingly.

I don't think it's just because they loved their cavaliers, miss them, feel guilty for their deaths. I think there's more to it, even if they don't realize that themselves. I think it's an effect of the cavalier not being entirely gone. One can mourn the dead, adjust to life without them, let time dull the pain -- but the cavs aren't quite dead. They aren't gone. They're still trapped inside their necromancers, suspended in the moment of death so that that moment can continue generating infinite thanergy forever. They never finish dying. After a while, they're supposed to be "fully digested," but thanks to The Unwanted Guest, we know that's not exactly true -- or at least that that supposed "digestion" doesn't mean the total breakdown of the cav's soul, but rather, at least partial incorporation into the soul of the necromancer. Cytherea Loveday. Ianthe Naberius.

The Lyctors' grief isn't because the cavaliers they loved are gone, but because they are never quite gone, and so the mourning process can never end. The cavalier is still dying inside them, and because some fraction of what is now the Lyctor used to be that cavalier, they are dying inside themselves. Never quite finished, never at peace. Forever.

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tower prince sandwich

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"I remember how you like souvenirs" and Claudia immediately tossing the finger into the fire though.

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we cannot sit and stare at our wounds forever

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I am the vampire Madeleine Eparvier. And my immortal companion is Claudia. My coven is Claudia.

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"We saw you from across the bar and we like your vibe. What's your blood type btw?"

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No you don’t understand. They never made it out. Their lives are frozen (sorry Jackie) out there. Those scenes when the older versions become the younger versions are the moments when they can no longer pretend they escaped. It’s not them “reverting back to their younger selves” it’s more them finally realizing that they never stopped being their younger selves, even if it’s only for a moment. The first time we see them in their “normal” adult lives? They’re pretending, playing roles. (with the exception of maybe Natalie) When they have a moment where they’re replaced by the younger version, they’ve stopped pretending. The layers of “maturity” and “adulthood” are stripped away and all they’re left with is the terrified high schooler stranded in the woods enduring unimaginable trauma. Maybe the adults act childish and/or unreasonable, but that’s because they never grew up.

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Has my constant yapping made y'all fall in love w me yet? ;)

Yj + textpost collection: 🩸

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Struck by the fact that when John saves the life of the necromancer warding his shuttle, her response to realising that she isn't going to die is resignation. You don't want to serve a regime, so you try to martyr yourself for it instead because it's the only socially acceptable way to escape.