he's just so effortlessly pretty that at the same time i love him with all my heart, i wanna DIE haha
Being a fat she/they and having a stick skinny bf is the hardest thing in the world especially with having an ed. He says he loves my body and my belly and it just makes me feel worse about myself. I don't want him to see me naked. I don't want to stand next to him people just know he's prettier and doesn't belong with me. And people would think it modivates me but it does the opposite. I feel terrible every day because i think one of the main reasons he likes me is bc i'm chubby. He's also constantly complaining about not being able to gain weight and it drives me insane. I wish i was you. My gender envy is him.
nothing makes me happy anymore and i'm slowly losing all the people i love, but the feeling i just got updating my cw to a lower weight just.... keeps me going. it feels so good, i just can't stop, every pound is addicting. this is hell.