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ho sognato che mi scriveva su whatsapp non ti riesco ad amare non ne ho voglia

per favore resettatemi il brain che non è mica una cosa da lui

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anti-feminist women are so weird they’re like “we deserve less rights than men because ughh we have boobs and a pussy” soo the “female body” has this cool feature where it can carry life which for you means that’s like a woman’s duty to do so (which hell no) but why is it degrading. why does the fact that an individual can grow a body inside their uterus mean we should be submissive to those who can’t

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i did not fall in love with my best friend, i fell in love with you and that’s why i made you my best friend

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quando parla con mia sorella mi chiedo dove sia finito il pugno di ferro che mia madre usava con me

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i am thinking about my studies. my priority is myself. i love fun, i love my friends, i love my family, i love pets, i love art, i love fashion, i love music, i love being a model, i love sunsets, i love the sea and the forest. i love my home, i love incense and essential oils, i love praying, i love opportunities, i love being chill, i love the radical acceptance i have towards myself. i pray everything works out, it probably will. it will work out. no one will get hurt. we will be in peace. things with him will progress slowly, he won’t eat my life again. it may take some time.

they will understand and support me. our relationship won’t change except maybe we won’t want to kiss each other. the chemistry will stay we’ll stay partners in crime forever. maybe sometimes i’ll get jealous, maybe sometimes we’ll give each other compliments, but they will live freely and peacefully and be happy for me if i get back with him. they will know that i love them anyways. and we will be friends, in each other’s life for ever. me and him will talk with no pressure and expectations, and i’ll stay true to myself. i will flourish and keep evolving. if it’s real , it will blossom. i’ll get to hold him again, and this time he will be sure of his beautiful feelings for me.

i am safe. i am in my house and i am living the blissful moment in which both like me back. i won’t let this make me sad. i am going to take care of myself and make myself happy and take my mind off of this triangle. they are reasonable and know i am polyamorous. they also know he may not be reasonable and they know friendships last longer than relationships. i feel like it’s not much different than if he were their childhood friend. we can make everything work. it will work out everyone will stay in everyone’s life and we will have peaceful relationships and loving feeling towards all of each other.

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it’s a fleeting moment. i’m infatuated and reciprocated. by both. i allow myself to release myself from guilt. eventually a moment would come where i’ll have to chose and have the difficult conversations ? but i have the now. their eyes and his actions, a whispered word in the dark that means i care and small talk over text that means i miss you. in the middle there’s me, who wants to say i love you i love you i wished you would allow me to love you i wished i would allow myself to love you i wished you would allow me to love them and you both i wished you would allow me to love him and you both. i wished you loved me but it’s better if you don’t but i want you to. you should. he misses me. they like me back. it’s alright. it’s going to hurt regardless, but now i can be happy. this moment is going to last, life is slow. and we’ll get through it all, we will

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love before it broke me

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im wearing contacts for the first time and holy SHIT some people come out the pussy seeing like this????????

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dove è la mia psicologa

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avevo tanta paura di perderlo e adesso mi chiedo se veramente provassi qualcosa per lui

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“mi sentivo così nei confronti di qualcuno e non ho fatto niente a riguardo”

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the one person dan humphrey was right to judge was his mum

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and you failed. you failed! you told your parents you could do it on your own. you said you could protect me. you didn’t. it doesn’t matter. i forgive you. can you protect me now?

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usa le mie parole. ho avuto una brutta delusione. tutti abbiamo delusioni d’amore. la mia è stata… abbastanza intensa.

potrei anche averlo non detto, non ricordo granché di quella conversazione. ma sono parole mie, che riconoscerei ovunque come un genitore riconosce la voce di un figlio in un coro di mille bambini. ho avuto una brutta delusione. abbastanza intensa. sono parole mie. una delusione intensa… non penso nemmeno sia un aggettivo appropriato. ma è qualcosa che ho già detto. sapere che mi ha ricordato, che un’espressione improbabile ricorrente nel mio vocabolario ha ispirato un pezzo di prosa, nell’attimo in cui realizzo la bellezza di ciò è quasi abbastanza da averne fatto valere la pena, di aver incontrato lui nel momento più sbagliato di tutti. subito dopo una delusione d’amore. abbastanza intensa.

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avere quell’anno in più, quel chilo in più , tutte cose che secondo il patriarcato dovrebbero diminuire il mio status come donna mi donano le energie che mi servivano per essere una persona adulta produttiva, pulita, indipendente e felice senza penalizzarmi affatto dal punto di vista estetico

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My type of dark academia:

running in the rain, your long coat gets drenched but you can't get enough of the small drops on rain that fall on your face.

Coffee or tea while studying Latin and Greek (personal preference ofc) classical music playing in the background while you repeat each word under your breath.

Cold hands, are you a vampire?

Studying preferred subjects in class when you finish your work.

watching your classmates try to make sense of what you've written, Latin, Greek, and some other languages that you taught yourself.

Throwing a glace over your shoulder while walking, making sure no one is following you. (Not that you're gonna murder anyone... not that.)

Answering questions that weren't directed to you with frightening accuracy, not bothering to explain.

Having many thoughts, your mind is filled by the chaos of new ideas.

Writing. Writing. Writing.

Fingers perpetually stained with ink.

mysterious and intelligent, sending enigmatic smiles to someone whose secret and mystery you've solved.

"You know, 500 years ago-"

Finally understanding Shakespeare after reading more than half of his works.

Cloudy skies = perfect day.

hehe I love doing these so if you have any request about any type of academia send them to me and I'll do my best :p

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How to Feign Your Life is Together

Have a signature accessory, clothing article, make up look, or hair style.

Have a fragrance. Make your hair scents and lotions match your perfume.

It’s okay to dine alone. Bring a book or people watch.

Love your hair. Research the best brands for your hair type and use masks weekly.

Your nails don’t need to be fancy, but keep them maintained.

Stay worldly. Know works of art, artists, designers, films, books, politicians. Spend your lunch break reading the paper or a magazine.

Crying is not a weapon. It’s okay to feel your emotions, but never use them as an excuse to avoid your problems.

Jealousy is boring. Love and appreciate others. If you can’t love them, forget them.

Boost others. Flatter others, but don’t deprecate yourself in the process.

Don’t sulk. Don’t let the whole world know your problems. If you don’t want someone to give their opinion, don’t share your situation.

Your life is between you and the universe. Don’t post your personal matters for others to see.

Don’t emotionally blackmail others. They hurt you? Let them know and then move on. It’s between the two of you and not the world.

Cook dinner. Cook dinner and listen to music, the radio, or a podcast.

Treat yourself to candles and flowers. Be your own cheerleader.

Take naps. Take a cat nap on a Sunday afternoon with the blinds open and the fan on high.

Drink your water, eat your vegetables. Take care of your body.

Never have time to take off your jewelry before bed, but always have time to take off your makeup. Your nighttime skin regime is important.

Mystery is beautiful. You don’t need to reveal much of or about yourself.

Never appear other than as you are. Don’t lie about yourself. Embrace who you are at your core.