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THANK YOU FOR 100+ NOTES ON THIS. SOMEHOW????

hi it’s me again. yes i’m still talking about nagisa why do you ask.

what’s got me thinking now is that he’s lived in tokyo for his entire life. someone already made a post about this (EDIT: FOUND IT!) but the fact he’s lived in tokyo all his life and is only now exploring the city in it’s full capacity, and meeting the people who live there, is so fascinating to me. he’s a stranger in his hometown! he barely knows the people who’ve lived there! he’s just met a girl who’s dad runs an izakaya that’s literally two minutes from his house, and that girl is around the same age as him! he barely remembers his neighbor!

i think it’s pretty easy to headcanon that he had depression for a pretty significant portion of his life, potentially even before his desires were stolen. it’s easy to mistake depression for always feeling “sad”, but it’s closer to always feeling apathetic. and while it’s easy to say it’s just normal teenage apathy, i really think he’s self-isolated more than he wants to admit. i think awakening his persona and stealing back his desires kickstarted something in him, and he’s able to start connecting with his city and the people in it!

… but it hasn’t magically cured everything. in one of merope’s social events, i believe her second one (that i forgot to record because i have the memory of a fish), all of nagisa’s answers to her “where do you see yourself in the future” question are extremely wishy-washy. i had chosen “a reasonable amount of happiness”, and when meope pressed him, he says that even his explanation was vague. even with his desires back, he doesn’t know what to do with them. i think he still has depression, and while regaining his desires and having a very clear immediate goal (Steal The Treasure) is a massive boon, he’s kinda re-learning what he wants… or maybe even learning it for the first time. and he obviously doesn’t need to know everything right now, he’s still a student, but he finally has a push to start living and learning hanging on the edge of tomorrow

somewhat related, i think him having a good relationship with his parents and a comfortable life is genuinely fascinating, especially from a modern persona protagonist perspective. yes, his parents aren’t physically there, but they clearly take care of him, and they trust him enough to take care of himself. he isn’t starting from dead zero, he’s not a new kid, his life is established. i don’t have much else to say on that matter, i just think it’s an interesting facet.

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okay i think i’m saving for violet and… idk who else yet, maybe lion dancer rin, but if a p4 collab gacha comes out i HAVE to save for that. i need yu narukami on my team come hell or high water.

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Go Beyond

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JokaWan propaganda posting day 1 (not gonna be daily but occasionally, esp since I pulled Joker, hopefully some content to come)

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me and my new friend

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OKAY so i AM going to write now i just had to

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gonna try to practice writing nagisa when i get home from work, may end up posting the results here ✌️

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this is about procrastinating. or executive dysfunction. i think

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i’m so glad “taking a horrible picture for an id” is a universal thing

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i DID get level 30 today but i’m tired. i’ll send the calling card tomorrow or at least build up a good team. i wanna bring in lufel but i have to level him up

claps hands together. if i don’t get level 30 tomorrow i’m gonna start chewing on the wires.

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ALSO WHEN DID THAT POST GET 71 NOTES?????

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claps hands together. if i don’t get level 30 tomorrow i’m gonna start chewing on the wires.

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Persona 5: The Phantom X

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also his fuckin. Copyright Friendly Harvest Moon MMO avatar made me laugh. it’s so uncanny valley to me in a way i cannot explain.

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btw if you wanna see how little i care abt the meta, here’s my current team:

i call it The Girlies (And Wonder Is There)

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i’m god’s slowest p5x player i’m not even done with the first palace yet. like i’m CLOSE but i need to level wonder up to 30 and i’m at lvl 26. it’s not like a DEMANDING task either i’m just slow with it.