viraeth

[viraeth]

i hate that i fully consumed you. i hate that i was so caught up in the thought of being with you. i hate that i made you perfect in my mind. i hate that i can’t not think of you, that i can’t stop wondering what you’re doing & if you’re okay.

i shouldn’t care.

you hurt me, i really shouldn’t care.

i feel so stupid. it’s like my capability to think properly all flies out the window when it comes to you.

i want you.

but it seems like you only ever cared for the idea of having me, & what my body had to offer.

[viraeth]

please baby. slap me, punch me, kick me, stab me.. as long as you’re touching me, i don’t care.

it all feels like a kiss when it falls from your hands.

[viraeth]

i wouldn’t have cared if you hurt me everyday of the week or every hour of the day. i would’ve let you if it meant i’d still be able to call you mine.

i want you.

no,

i need you.

in every stretch of anyone’s imagination. i need you. it’s killing me not having you around. i just wanna drown myself in your being.

[viraeth]

go easy on me please, i’m not easy to love.

even though loving you feels like nothing more than breathing.

[viraeth]

i want you like a dog wants to see their owner after only a couple hours of their absence.

i want you like the 52 hz whale wants to be heard.

i want you like a hand wants to be held.

i want you like a swan wants their mate.

i want you like a bruise wants to be kissed.

i want you like a scar wants to disappear.

i want you like the moon wants the sun.

i want you.

[viraeth]

“i’m sorry for everything i’ve done.”

“don’t be. i never looked at you any differently.”

[viraeth]

“i’m so cold when you’re not around.”

“then let me stay by your side..”

[viraeth]

“i didn’t ask you to bring me the moon. i didn’t ask you to touch the sun.. all i asked was for you to be a little nicer to me.”

“i’m sorry.”

“but what’s that good for, anymore?”

[viraeth]

“i wish you saw me the same way i see you..”

“i do see you, though. even on the days that are dark, you’re the only thing that’s shining. i see you. in everything i do, everywhere i go. you’re there.”

[viraeth]

<3

[viraeth]

[viraeth]

i’d listen to you forever.

[viraeth]

“i love you.”

“to the moon & back..?”

“i’ll still love you when the moon dies..”

[viraeth]

[viraeth]

yes?!?!?!

[viraeth]

not nice :((

[viraeth]