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been reading a life ruining fic recently and unfortunately it's been giving me The Headache and you know what. if i ignore it it has to go away ^__^

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whenever you feel so lonely you feel like screaming and crying it means it's time to go to bed. and hang out with someone other than your immediate family

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i think i got spoiled with seeing them and now i am. missing them horribly

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"it makes me mad you're good at a game im not good at" is literally the dumbest reason to be angry but k think this just means i need to sleep

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it's a lonely existence to refuse to let people in but also i think i have some sort of complex about video games. not because im "good" but because when i get enjoyment, i want to Be Good and when im not winning "best at [x] in the friend group" i'll drop it and refuse to talk to people about it and then get angry when its still talked about. as if the point isn't enjoyment

i think my issue is i feel a consistent need to compare myself to others to gauge how good i am at something and i deem myself "bad" in comparison i either stop talking to that person or i refuse to talk about my interests and when they get brought up i get mad im not "good"

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i think my issue is i feel a consistent need to compare myself to others to gauge how good i am at something and i deem myself "bad" in comparison i either stop talking to that person or i refuse to talk about my interests and when they get brought up i get mad im not "good"

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i wish they just hated me because then. i don't know. then i wouldn't be here. but i love them. that's the source of my pain

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every time i say im gonna change and be a better person and then i just revert back. i feel like im stuck

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like i can objectively wrap my head around it. it makes sense. i too don't ignore people on purpose and mean nothing by it. however. RAGHHHHHHHHHHH

"they are not ignoring you on purpose" and "you feel ignored, which makes you sad" are 2 facts that can in fact coexist. however this fucking sucks man

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"they are not ignoring you on purpose" and "you feel ignored, which makes you sad" are 2 facts that can in fact coexist. however this fucking sucks man

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what happened to that kid i displaced from its body

i don't think i was meant to live this long. i think i was supposed to die when i was 13 and now im just living in a body that doesn't work because i was supposed to be dead

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i don't think i was meant to live this long. i think i was supposed to die when i was 13 and now im just living in a body that doesn't work because i was supposed to be dead

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I hate when an artist gets exposed for being a bad person and people start the narrative “why would you even want to listen to their shitty music” when are we going to be freed from the idea that only good people create good art and bad people create bad art. It just makes it harder for these types of people to be exposed because now you got people thinking “how is this possible, his music is so good!”

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heart eye cat meme

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guy who is miserable but ids just making up his own issues. if he did not get anxious over nothing he'd be fine

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im trying so hard not to get my hopes up.... its so hard