vonabelle

[vonabelle]

[through tears] yeah i remain whimsical

[vonabelle]

You never recover from being weird in middle school

[vonabelle]

disliking your father for personality traits you have yourself but keep firmly repressed

[vonabelle]

oh my godddd im probably so cool too FUCK with a deeper voice and maybe some scruff that im too lazy to shave. the hormones would make my voice crack and my laugh would sound so silly because of it i just know it

and in another world i am probably a different person. literally. im probably taking hormones and i probably have a new name. my voice sounds different and my body changes in ways that make me feel good about it.

but in this one i am just a girl.

[vonabelle]

and in another world i am probably a different person. literally. im probably taking hormones and i probably have a new name. my voice sounds different and my body changes in ways that make me feel good about it.

but in this one i am just a girl.

[vonabelle]

and then i delete all my socials and accounts and disappear off the internet hmmmm

[vonabelle]

there is still time. there is still time. until your bones are in the fucking ground there is still time.

[vonabelle]

there is still time. there is still time. until your bones are in the fucking ground there is still time.

[vonabelle]

crayfish galore!

[vonabelle]

imagine how good it must feel to press a gun to your temple after a bad day and just hold it there with your eyes closed for a few minutes before sighing and putting it away

[vonabelle]

be careful with what series you watch/read during emotional points in your life because they will forever contain a ghost of your past self within it now

[vonabelle]

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

[vonabelle]

the thing about being nonbinary is that you really do start to forget that other people have such strict walls around what is and isn’t allowed for genders. i thought we all agreed that we made that up. could you climb out of the cave real quick and feel the sunshine for a minute.

[vonabelle]

Cat

[vonabelle]

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[vonabelle]

Water Lilies painted by Claude Monet (1840 - 1926)

[vonabelle]

idgaf if my parents are disappointed in me I'm not impressed by them either