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the problem imo with nonfiction memoir-ish books about fighting against depression is that even the well written ones start off well and relatable and insightful enough but there's really only so much you can say about the subject before it starts to get repetitive. Yeah man depression defends itself. Yeah having outside help is important but in the end it comes down to you making the effort to take back your life. It's hard hard work but it's worth it. Yeah your past mistakes and shame do not cancel out your future joy. Relapse is not the end. Oh god theres 200 pages of book left

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the fact that I'm probably never going to manage to read all of this is making me go nsane

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I had a horrific dream and woke up literally screaming and on the verge of having a panic attack and I don't remember jack shit about it but for some reason in the split second between sleep and realising I was awake (and hyperventilating) the dream turned into a scene of two warhammer characters very coldly & professionally discussing the terms and conditions of their sex life

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people call me on the phone and ask me hey what are you doing and I tell them I'm making the dragon age banana bread and they say what. can you send me the recipe for whatever that is. and then they become addicted to the dragon age banana bread

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aghh

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It's still funny to remember when he used to be SoSmooth and now I'm just Wrinkling Him Up

Cyprian and Cyprian after eating a lemon

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I keep showing the bf recipes I want us to make and he keeps having to remind me that I have food aversions so bad that I can't eat almost all of the ingredients in the recipe and would sooner kms than touch the plate if someone else made it for me

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Could I get the name of that book you posted about uhh 5hrs ago? Guy having his gay awakening in a theater or something?

It's Fortress in the Eye of Time by C.J. Cherryh (and unfortunately it's not overtly gay but cherryh does that ''these two have this vaguely gay twin flames destined to be situation'' thing on purpose, I think)

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Cyprian and Cyprian after eating a lemon

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I'm voting to name barbie girl Alex or Juniper because he looks like a guy I know named Alex Juniper (idk his last name)

I can't name him alex 'cause that's too close to my name and idk if I see him as a juniper (wouldn't quite fit the setting he's in) but shout out to Alex Juniper (last name unknown) for looking like my OC

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I need to figure out what to name him because I can't keep calling him barbie girl

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there is some serious poltergeist activity going on in this apartment but this poltergeist only cares about unscrewing things. first the handle on my mop, so the entire mop fell apart when I picked it up, then the little thing that you use to switch between the faucet and the shower head in the shower came off when I grabbed it to switch, and today the entire kitchen sink faucet came off in my hand when I tried to swivel it and water started gushing out of the hole at the base and drenched everything. annoying bitch!!!!

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i saw you have his black tongue on your list on storygraph, if you can i'd recommend the audiobook for it! the main stories audio is quite well produced imo

I'm not a big audiobook guy but I'll check it out! Might be a fun immersion reading experience

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Been revisiting their older albums since I hadn't listened to them in a while and I forgot I was also obsessed with this song. fully belting it like a maniac while doing chores around the house

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remembered again that eragon chatroom I talked about frequenting in like 2009 and earlier, and how it's basically lost... media? now and I couldn't find ANYTHING abt it online. I felt the sudden feverish need to see it again but after digging through the wayback machine for a while this is the closest thing I could find.. the border that the actual chatroom was enclosed in. I think. Memory's very spotty. It was like a map of the book's setting. Anyway it feels weird that I'll never get to see it again :--/

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