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CHANYEOL Cream Soda MV / Behind The Scenes

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Chanyeol 'Good Enough' MV

feat. Baekhyun

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ORV Constellation! Cale

As a myth-grade constellation, Cale Henituse, known as the Crimson Commander, is known to spend gold coins like water for his personally chosen humans when he sees them face the slightest hint of danger. God? There is no God when Cale Henituse's incarnations go to war. Blood will rain from the heavens if that's what they choose, and know this- those who bear his name will always find their glory.

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Chanyeol - 221118 Acqua di Parma Pop-Up Store Opening

Credit: Ilgan Sports.

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Chanyeol - 221118 Acqua di Parma Pop-Up Store Opening

Credit: MHN Sports.

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Chanyeol - 221118 Acqua di Parma Pop-Up Store Opening

Credit: MK Sports.

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We drank too much.

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musings on kisses

― Simone de Beauvoir (Letters to Sartre), Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec [Le Lit (The Bed), Au lit: le baiser (In Bed: The Kiss)], Indran Amirthanayagam (Kiss), Auguste Rodin, Gustav Klimt (The Kiss), Sara Teasdale (The Kiss)

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I'm letting you go...for the last time.

I regret trying. I regret giving in to the voice inside my head urging me to stop running away and just give us one more chance.

But, this is it.

For the first and hopefully, last time, I've blocked you - in every form of social media and in my life.

Don't get me wrong - I did miss you. A lot.

But it hurt that you told me to stop making a mess of your life after that long fight where no one won and no one wanted to back down.

In the middle of all that anger and annoyance, I finally realized that you knew me but you also didn't.

You knew my traumas, you knew my heartbreaks, you knew the me that loved you.

Yet, you no longer know me. The me who overcame that and became an adult. My new jokes, my adult sense of humor, my new responsibilities and dreams, my K-pop idols and what they mean to me.

Because if you did, you wouldn't have asked me to move in with you - to leave the city I'm in, quit my job, and choose you above anything and everything else - or to choose you over Chanyeol.

The blue eyed baby thing I may understand a bit, but my idol?

In the end, I was right. You never listened to me, did you? You just heard what you wanted and that's why we never worked out - not then and not now.

When I said that I was choosing myself now above everything else, I should have known when you conveniently ignored that in the middle of that fight.

You want someone to choose you always and over everything because you said you'd do the same but...that's not how life works.

I've learned it the hard way.

Sometimes, people will choose you with other things and you won't always be the number one but that's okay. Because life is not just about romantic love anyway.

So, I don't regret saying that he will always be my number one because it's true. He was there, EXO was there, my source of comfort on my darkest times, when no one, not even you, could stay.

My love as a fan saved me amongst other things, yet you wanted me to let that go.

So, I am letting you go for the last time.

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GFLJ,

You probably would never see this but before the high from the coffee float I had wears off, I just want you to know that...

I deliberately stopped replying to your messages.

Maybe a part of me will always love you and maybe you will always have a space in my heart.

But I don't think I can ever love you the way I did before and I don't I can ever give my whole heart to you again.

Because loving you meant consuming and destroying the good parts of me that I did like about myself.

It meant running after you and hating myself after, feeling my self-respect wither every time I make excuses for you, and regretting every stupid drunk call I made when I get sober.

Maybe we did love each other the way we knew best, but we both know how toxic we become when we are together.

You were an amazing bestfriend to me, but you were a horrible boyfriend.

We never knew how to tell each other things as they were and somehow, all the little things just piled up and the miscommunications became misunderstandings that eventually hurt us both.

But the thing is, we kept going back to each other even when we knew how the story would end...and now, I realize it is because we didn't let each other go despite everything.

We tried to pass it off as being "bestfriends" again but we never were truly just that.

You know that. I know that.

But now, I accepted it.

The trigger was random. You were drunk DM-ing and as I was scrolling through your messages, I realized that...we were never going to change.

No matter how hard we tried, the way we love each other - the best way we knew how is poison to one another.

I'm not what you need - no matter how hard you insist that I'll always be the one you want - and you're not the one for me.

I don't know if I'll ever learn how to be just a good friend to you.

So, on the slightest chance that it does happen, I have to choose myself first.

And it means staying away from you before I get pulled in the toxic game of push and pull with you again.

Goodbye.

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her cloud literally disappeared the second she had coffee what a fucking mood Pepa

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The future babies we will never have, would probably have your brilliance and our joint dirty sense of humor, but hopefully none of my anxiety and a tad more toned down version of your bluntness.

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Chanyeol - 161206 ‘Coming Over’ album contents photo

Credit: EXO-L_Japan.

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How do you stop being sad or...feeling at all?

My usual methods aren't working. Even my dreams are full of you and there was barely anything in the first place. It hasn't even started yet. We haven't even started yet.

Is this the universe telling me to learn a new way of distracting myself when I don't want to deal with my emotions?

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I love how unapologetic otome isekais are about having their female leads hyperfixations solve literally every plot point in the story no matter how absurd

The story can open with: Hi! I'm just a little duke's daughter who loves origami. :) I'm doing my best but my husband is a little cold :(

And 80 chapters later it's like: so after I solved world hunger and climate change my supreme ultimate origami powers allowed me to bend reality and overthrow the government. I am now the emperor of the world and also a goddess and everyday me and my husband have passionate sex in our flying origami bed. We are planning on bringing dodos back from extinction. maybe dinosaurs. The next 20 chapters are exclusively about our third honeymoon on the moon.

Like yesss girl good for you that's crazy

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Lucas: Omg i'm dating you Lucas: like your mine Lucas: holy fuck Lucas:wow Lucas: can you believe how lucky i am?