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met james marriott at his album signing today i think i almost passed out ive never been so nervous for anything in my life i was SHAKING

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happy 22nd birthday to me !! on a friday the 13th just like when i was born too !!!!

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I’m always surprised there’s people who just do not do activities entirely if they’re alone bc they think other people are judging them for it like going to the movies or just going out to eat like really nobody cares but if they did care theyr an absolute freak. Also next time u go out look around a ton of people are alone it’s normal. I love doing stuff on my own like eating out or going to the movies or whatever myself is a different activity I do it a lot however if you want to be scared of something new you’d be surprised that it is not super uncommon for people to randomly sit down next to me and/or try and talk alá the urinal meme I assume because they’re also alone which is fair however I just get up and move if I don’t feel like it it’s a perfect parry. All this is a good exposure therapy tactic for ppl with social anxiety honestly like getting used to random mildly uncomfortable encounters can make it a lot easier to move around in the world

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It’s definitely not “do whatever you want bc nobody cares” it’s somewhere between “people don’t care as much as you think they do” and “if you want to truly do what you want you have to not care about how much other people care”

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so exhausted recently :,) but enjoying my job and have so much planned for june and summer in general eeek !!!! and feel so loved the people i have and how patient they've been while i've been getting used to a lot of changes and it's just so good :( even if things are scary at first they pass and they're only moments, i get to choose what moments i actually carry with me now :) work ones stay at work! just learning to care less about things that literally don't matter and care more about what DOES mean something to me!!!!!!

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starting my new job tomorrow aah so excited and nervy! but im trying to internalise that things are only scary because theyre new, not because im incapable of doing them! i dont have to know what comes next in order to be okay, i know myself and know i can keep being a person who belongs in the world, even when i dont have a script to follow or a guideline telling me how to get to where i want. life will happen anyway, and the novelty of newness will erode and become normality, the fear will pass and i'll be left with a life i can say i made an effort for

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I AM NOT INTERESTED IN LIVING A LIFE WHERE I COWER AWAY FROM BEAUTY OR GOODNESS BECAUSE OF THE POTENTIAL TO BE HURT. I AM BARRELING TOWARD IT. LIFE IS GOING TO CRACK ME OPEN LIKE A PIÑATA AND I AM GOING TO LET IT.

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embarrassment has good bones

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art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

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guys it turns out if you wanna have fun and be a fun and interesting person you like have to fill your day with fun things and not just rotting in your room …… need a moment to process

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artist: holly warburton

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ok we just laughed until our ribs got tired. Now what

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your aversion to anything earnest or sincere has affected us in the following ways 1. youre annoyinggggggg

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​found this comment on a video of some swans crossing the street. wow.