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what if, here me out here, we just Stopped reinforcing the concrete???

sure, all our concrete structures would fall, but that's a small sacrifice to make for me to not have to study reinforced concrete anymore

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I feel hollow. And I have so many fucking people in my life who keep telling me to reach out if I need anything. But I don’t want to reach out. I feel a little bit like a ghost. I’m not sure I’m really here.

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funeral dress was acquired btw. and the funeral was good. i'll probably post something about it at some point this weekend, if anything just for my memory's sake, but rn i am very tired and i have two final exams tomorrow i should probably study for

just realized my funeral dress is at my parents house

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sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time

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biggest hugs through the universe to you

🫂🫂🫂

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I wish my family was half as good as my friends are.

It’s so hard to talk about with people who have Normal relationships with their parents bc like, my mom is sleeping on an air mattress on the floor of my apartment to make sure I don’t kill myself this week. She also acted annoyed and surprised that I’m not over my uncle dying since this morning. So.

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just realized my funeral dress is at my parents house

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"if I was Remus I would never have forgiven Sirius for the prank"

Okay but before you judge him Remus wants you to know that Sirius is really hot

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take life a little less seriously. learn a skill that isn’t resume-friendly. own your decisions without punishing yourself. both above average and average results are great; it’s good to do something at all. do many things, do many things badly. think about the big picture. the time is passing, regardless

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there's this fem fest fic about aboriginal australian euphemia potter. it's called nangiri'o ora. I read it back in march when i was reading all the fem fest fics, and it's stuck with me a lot since then.

i have an uncle who's part lakota sioux, and it reminded me of him. in fact, that fic made me go visit him later that month. he gave me an old medicine wheel he made and told me i should come back because he wanted to teach me to speak some lakota. i said i'd like that.

he passed away this morning.

i never did get the chance to speak lakota with him, but i probably wouldn't have gone to see him at all before the semester ended without that fic. I mean, he'd been sick, but he was supposed to have more time. he was supposed to be at my graduation this week. the turn was so sudden no one even told me about it until he'd passed

I don't know what my point is here. reach out to your loved ones? thank you to everyone @hpfemininomenonfest for hosting the fic? to @curioushabitforarivergod for writing it? Probably. Yeah. I mean, that much feels given. i feel so grateful to them for sure

I think my point is this. fandom matters. fanfiction matters. write your silly little stories because they're not so silly and they're not so little and you might never see it, but people carry little pieces of your writing with you wherever they go. forever.

maybe it's a harry potter fanfiction to you. to me, it's the reason i saw my uncle one last time

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Are you okay? <3

ah,, yeah, sorry it's rough days over here. been trying to keep the crash outs to a minimum. clearly had limited success tonight

i got people looking out after me (here and irl), but i really genuinely appreciate you asking <33

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fuck this. fuck everything. i'm so

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im fucking done. i can't fucking do this.

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fuck

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t shirt that says i've misunderstood many social interactions

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Marauders muggle au where they met in college except they’re all 23 year old freshmen because Remus was in the military for five years to be able to afford coming to college at all, James is a teen father and only started being able to go to class was Harry was 5 and able to go to kindergarten, Sirius was late to run away from his family and tried to take up the family business before he had enough, and Peter took a ‘gap year’ that just turned into minimum wage for five years until he decided to finally go to college