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im just a silly lil kitty :3 (remembers infantilizing myself is annoying to everyone around me) i am nothing

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also I ate a bunch of lead today and now I have a chemical burn :///

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Guess who once again forgot that Banana Fish is a separate entity from A Perfect Day for Bananafish???

hi is this a safe space? can i admit something?

when i saw my online friends getting into Banana Fish i really thought they were all talking about famous JD Salinger short story 'A Perfect Day for Bananafish"

and i'll be real, i never looked into anything they were saying that closely bc his war stories honestly just aren't my favorite as a rule, and i didn't want to yuck my friend's yums

i was, admittedly, quite surprised to see the rise of the Salinger fandom in the 2020s, but A Perfect Day for Bananafish is a classic for a reason, and who am i to discourage that??

it took me ~8 months to realize my mistake

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web tumblr updated again and the amount of times i've accidentally liked my own posts trying to view the likes and notifications is Embarassing atp

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lowkey surprised by the amount of you that chose the shooting event

Guys I need help. Pls there’s this work meeting/retreat I have to go to, and I have to pick an event to attend and they’re alll full nightmares

I’m Going to have a stress breakdown about this and I need someone else to pick for me bc I cannot

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Just had someone bring up prostitutes at work and everybody turned and looked at me, even though I was on the other side of room and Not a part of the conversation

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full offense to Neil, but if you’re flying w in the US with forged docs, whyyyy would you use a forged passport?? Not just like,, a forged license

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hey so nobody told me these books take place in the south??? Hello??

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god i want to shave my head again so fucking badly,, :(((

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Guys I need help. Pls there’s this work meeting/retreat I have to go to, and I have to pick an event to attend and they’re alll full nightmares

I’m Going to have a stress breakdown about this and I need someone else to pick for me bc I cannot

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changing your bedsheets is a full contact sport if you're bad enough at it

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'your life sounds... profoundly lonely'

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oh mY GOD, i forgot to give you guys the funniest update on this story,

okay maybe not like, Funny funny bc it is about, yk,, trying to kms, but it's funny to me

so i asked her about this visit like 2 months later when I finally got in to see someone bc she said something about not realizing i was having urges that badly again until the attempt

here is the conversation that ensued:

me: 'what about the week in may you Literally slept on the floor so i didn't kill myself?' her: '...you wanted to kill yourself!?' me: 'I called you to sleep on the Floor of my studio apartment during finals week. whyyy else would i have done that?' her: 'to hang out?' me: 'i held your hand every time we left the house so I couldn't run into traffic.' her: 'I thought you were just being loving!' me: 'I made you cook everything I ate because i'd locked up all my knives.' her: 'I thought you missed my cooking!!!' me: 'I would sneak out in the middle of the night and get drunk and wander around campus until you woke up and found me' her: 'it's a small apartment, and you've always liked your personal space!' me: 'I told you,, on the phone,, that i needed you that day bc i was afraid i was going to kill myself.' her: 'I thought you meant you just really needed a girl's night!'

and i'd want to accuse her of lying, but she looked so confused and earnest the whole time.

tbf she could recognize it as wildly out of character behavior once i pointed it out, but apparently she was so caught up in the elation of hanging out with me that she just,, ignored it in favor of girls night!!! :))

I wish my family was half as good as my friends are.

It’s so hard to talk about with people who have Normal relationships with their parents bc like, my mom is sleeping on an air mattress on the floor of my apartment to make sure I don’t kill myself this week. She also acted annoyed and surprised that I’m not over my uncle dying since this morning. So.

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rereading the fandolitics transcripts bc i finally have one Ounce of will to live and good Lord my first pass is a hot mess

my favorite mistranslation of the night so far:

sar: "I love like, those messier kind of gray nuancie areas of relationships..."

"nuancie" as in, having nuance, not what i put, which was "new onesie" like we have purchased new clothes for the baby

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Also I need a new pfp but idk how to chose one so we’re all stuck with the black void for the next 7-12 months until someone tells me what to put there

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spent exactly 48 hours outside of my parents house and actually mental illness is cancelled. I’m cured now