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love knowing that my favorite character of Nora's is her least favorite character of hers

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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Nina: We need to remember what’s important in life: friends, waffles, work. Or waffles, friends, work. It doesn’t matter, but work if third.

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Ford knows a dozen alien languages but can’t actually talk to save his life.

(Stan’s no better. Stan version here!)

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always famous roommates au bathroom

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the silliest

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Do you think Andrew felt the ghost of Neil’s ravaged skin on his hand while he was in Easthaven?

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aftg au where neil/nathaniel died in baltimore and andrew knows he's dead, he didnt stop fighting until he had autopsy reports and a closed casket in front of him. andrew knows he died that night but a week later, a week spent rotting and shoving everyone away, he sees neil. blue eyes clear as water, his hair still glows in the sun, when andrew reaches out he knows none of this is real. neil josten is dead, matt has an empty dorm and someone is already adding nathaniel wesninski to a true crime podcast. he knows none of this is real but it's easier to accept a hallucination than it is to accept that he failed, that another person has been snatched away from him. so andrew goes to practice and sometimes he misses balls because neil is on the court aiming left but aaron shot right. he goes to edens and can feel neil's weight behind him as he carries the drink tray back to their table. he watches nicky play games on the xbox and he hears all of neil's commentary. when he's alone, he talks to neil. andrew had always been great at being silent but never with neil. and he knows none of this is real but it's easier to confide in neil now that he's so intimately familiar with his absence. they trade truths and secrets and neil tells him about oklahoma and andrew knows they never talked about oklahoma and he's just remembering a conversation he heard on disney channel when he was eleven. he lights two cigarettes and sees neil smoke it but doesn't dwell on how quickly the flame dies out. he only mentions it once, to bee. when he says "i keep seeing neil" and bee says she understands, people leave traces of themselves all around us, he never brings it up again. it's not like she's wrong on that front either. neil's locker still has an unwashed jersey inside, the phone charger he never used is still shoved somewhere underneath the passenger seat of the maserati, all the clothes andrew bought him are still in a drawer. matt doesn't spend a lot of time in his room anymore. when andrew says "i hate you" and he truly means it, neil says "i know" and his cheeks dimple. andrew knows this isn't normal, nothing about this is okay, his mental stability is a far cry from being good but he thinks maybe having neil beside him, haunting him like this, is better than a reality where andrew is alone. so they follow each other around like ducklings and wymack looks at him like he's a ticking time bomb because in no world does neil josten die and andrew simply moves on. andrew's nightmares have shifted from being seven and begging to watching neil fight for life on a grimy basement floor but it's okay because when he wakes up he gets to hold neils hand and it's a little cold but the divots between his knuckles feel the same as before so he can blame it on the weather. andrew watches neil's banner go up next to seth's on the court and andrew almost wants to laugh because seth is dead but neil is right here, neil is talking about being court, but no that's not right either. neil is dead, andrew knows this. but then how could neil be dead when he's still buying andrew ice cream and pushing all his buttons? they sit a little too close to the edge of the roof nowadays and neil tells him that they could fall but they might not die because it's only four stories so really it's no guarantee. neil tells andrew he has to be careful because what about aaron, what about kevin, his deals and his promises. he keeps his promises, it's what he's good at. he's pretty sure kevin knows something is wrong but is trying to pretend like it's not. they're the same in that regard, really. andrew knows neil is dead, abby's files label him as deceased, but he thinks he likes being haunted. if it means neil is still there, still planning a future and running his mouth, andrew thinks he could convince himself baltimore never happened. maybe neil was never something tangible to begin with.

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also Kaz definitely also sees Wylan as brother as much as Jesper. but while he sees Jesper as Jordie, he sees himself in Wylan. he sees the person he once was and knows Wylan could turn out like him. its part of the reason he keeps him around despite finding out he couldn't use him was leverage against Van Eck.

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hey guys do you think kaz would feed crows in inejs absence since the crows would show up to the crow club looking to be fed by inej but she’s out sailing so kaz feeds them instead🖖🏼

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BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER (1997-2003) “Forever”

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some bits of the books are worded in such sad ways… until you remember this is Neil’s internal monologue and suddenly its a bit funny how fucking dramatic this kid is

Whether Neil left today or tomorrow or next week, he'd leave alone. Two, five, ten years from now, if Neil was even still alive, he'd still be alone. He could be anyone, anywhere in the world, but he'd be alone until the day he died. He'd never trust anyone enough to let them in.

like okay edge lord no need to be such a downer huh

he wasn’t even right, he’s just a pessimist who later gets proven wrong

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Lindsay Lohan reunites with her "The Parent Trap" co-stars, Lisa Ann Walter and Elaine Hendrix, at the premiere for Freakier Friday on the 22nd July, 2025!

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when you listen to a song for the first time and the lyrics deeply resonate with you

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Neil, Andrew, and Kevin are like the powderpuff girls of autism. none of them have a nuerotypical bone in their body. 2/3 of them have a special interest in the same sport, one of them is a history nerd for no apparent reason, another one rips his food into pieces and if you pay attention to how his mannerism are descibed, man is gesturer. im willing to bet I could find cases of them blantly stimming in canon if I looked hard enough. Neil's need to always be moving could both be a trauma response AND an example of eloping (as a childhood eloper myself I know one when I see them). just saying they not only are juggling PTSD, bipolar disorder, and whole fruit salad of other things, these bitches also got the 'tism.