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crimson & clover, from sohee, to @plumparfum

almost midnight, june 19th.

"perfect..." sohee murmurs to herself as she slowly backs away from the perfectly plated cupcake on the table. a light blue ribbon, tied into a pristine bow sits on top of the cream-colored buttercream swirl, and a sheet of paper folded in half, neatly placed to hold it's position, accompanies the small saucer, reading 'happy birthday raein' in the most careful calligraphy sohee could manage. her radio show starts at midnight, unfortunately there's no way she could physically be there to greet her best friend in person, so her favorite cupcake from sweet corn café and a program dedicated entirely to her will have to do.

"good evening dragons! stay strong, you've almost made it to the end of the week! welcome to yet another episode of 'you up?' with me, your lovely host, go sohee." she starts, no one can see her but you can practically hear the smile on her voice as she speaks. "i'd like to start tonight's broadcast by saying happy birthday to my bestest friend, miss heo raein. maybe you've heard of her, she's one of those classy lyra girls. andd, to celebrate such a special day, i've decided to dedicate the entire show to her. if you like moody type 60s english rock, you're in luck! if not, then i'm sorry and i'll see you. same time tomorrow?" a small string of giggles escape her before finishing up her monologue. "without further a do, this is... crimson and clover? by tommy james and the shondells... what a funny name."

the show goes as normal, the four people listening to her not seeming to mind the sudden shift in vibe for the day. if anything, someone said they're down for more 'themed' nights, a note that sohee wrote down for future reference. one perk of having a radio show is having almost unlimited access to a wide array of music type contraptions that, truthfully, sohee has no idea how they work or what they do, but when their club advisor told them they had to cut down on storage and they were free to take what they wanted, she speed-walked to the crates full of vinyl records and carefully picked out the ones she remembered raein mentioning before. grabbing the records she hid days before, and struggling not only to fit them in her tote bag but carrying the weight in general, she makes her way back to their shared dorm.

respecting the immaculate silence of their building, sohee opens their front door slowly, trying hard to not make any noise as she stumbles through their living room from the weight of her bag until she finds herself perched against the frame of her roommate's door. "raein..." sohee whispers, "are you awake?"

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(paper) jammed from sohee, to @versionloop

it's rare for sohee to step out of her comfort zone and actually do something around campus instead of holing up in her dorm. sure, she's always busy, but it's always something she can do without leaving her own living room. it only took a few doomscrolls and some painfully targeted (thank you algorithm) tiktoks about the loneliness epidemic for her to try out one of their tips: do something that you'd usually do at home, outside. sounds simple enough, no? plus, the professor insists on all papers being printed and filed properly, and she hasn't been able to use her printer since she tried to replace the ink cartridges and accidentally created a never seen before pollock on her thrifted tablecloth.

four time winner of the "this is the fastest campus leaver i know" yearly awards, sohee can't say she's familiar with sejeong library. after spending one semester living on campus as a first year, she begged her parents to let her stay home during the school year and left campus the second she no longer had to stay there. there's something about a building so big that makes sohee feel even smaller, air getting thicker as she starts to grow aware more aware of her surroundings than the task at hand. it takes some getting used to, but eventually she's able to get comfortable enough to turn her rough outline and scribbled notes into a paper she can submit without feeling shame. now the only thing left for her to do is print it. easy, simple, non-threatening.

it's a truth universally acknowledged that printers can smell fear, and then act accordingly. although usually sohee would not turn down the spotlight, the last thing she wants is everyone's eyes on her as she curses that evil machine out. keeping her head high, she walks towards the printing area with extreme serenity, carefully placing her laptop on an available space and barely clicking the buttons as if it could feel the strength. the first roar of the machine catches her off guard, but she collects herself as she remembers that's usually how these things start. then, the almost soothing uniform beat begins, luring her into a sense of security that is halted half as quickly. the beat is syncopated, some random light starts flickering, the cancel button doesn't seem to do anything. she's fucked.

"please..." she pleads to the ruthless machine, her tone desperate as it takes everything in her not to smack and shake it.

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hellooo ฅ^. ˬ .^ฅⳊ happy opening everyone!! i'm apple [ s/h 25 gmt-5 ] and i write for jeongmin and sohee. i have info and plot ideas up for them already, but still allow me to introduce them briefly.. i haven't been in a group in a hot min so i'm kind of buzzing hehe + like this post and i'll come bother you.

eun jeongmin, the bloodline

20 years old, 2nd year philosophy undergrad.. also 2nd year rep for student gov

leo boy from a family of real formal academic types. his dad is the dean of the school of humanities actually..

really strict formal upbringing, never had time to develop into his own person. is starting to figure out what he likes, what he wants to do.. rebelling in small ways

tries to be a gloomy nonchalant type but he's literally leo sun + moon.. like dude ur NOT him (sasuke)

does the half hand raise with the tree fingers you know the one

track team captain + chess club + ophiuchus

he's also minoring in classics + ancient civilizations which is lowk where his heart is.. he loves greece down, can't get enough of those gods.. tsk

in general i'd say he's mostly interested in ancient philosophy, greek history/mythology and religion

intellectual to a fault. a true victim of intellectualism. academic and real booksmart but that's it. very much empty anywhere else. he thinks he's hard, though

very small group of friends.. he's charming in a very fabricated way but he's nottt sociable. he's kinda mean when he's not pretending, actually... but that rarely happens around people anyway

going off of that he's kinddd of.. elitist? not like, fully understanding what it means and choosing to be but just innate privilege type like that's really all he knows

looks for little ways to rebel against his parents aka just have fun like a normal twenty year old but is constantly worried the curtain will fall on him

pint board!

go sohee, the mirrorball

art history grad student, instagram nail artist, lotus fm late night dj and dungeons & dragons girlie

she's kinda all over the place.. she wants to be everything ok you cannot tie her down

only in grad school bc she was being a very proficient neet and her parents gave her the go back to school or we're cutting you off ultimatum

they're paying for everything.. she lowk has no idea how money works so she doesn't think anything about it. she makes nails just for love of the game

former neet like real online niche micro celebrity isolated double monitor cinnamoroll chair has never paid for her own dc nitro type. she doesn't want to talk about it

ok so going back back.. both of her parents are real serious corporate lawyers that decided they wanted a kid in their late 30s.. ivf baby.. only child.. very lonely and desperate from attention since the start

desire is all she's ever known. she's never really had anything, all she's left with is want 😔

closeted (?? lesbian.. kind of? like she just hasn't realized she's gay yet bc she's desperately trying to make it work with literally any guy but it's like babe.. you're gay omg

not the smartest girl ever but not dumb.. she just doesn't really care for grades and is not worried about her future. very much just living in the moment, one day at a time

lovesss her rpgs.. one thing she won't let go from her neet era is her obsession w them games.. nier, er, bg3, ff, rdd2.. don't play w her. though rn she's a bit of a love and freakspace victim.. it's peak to her

very dedicated to her hobbies.. mostly bc if she doesn't busy herself with something she's scared she will relapse. rn it's nail art and d&d

she doesn't reek of desperation exactly but she has the eyes of a neglected pou if you know what i mean

also!! she's the lotus fm late night dj host. you up? with go sohee from midnight to 3am every weekday. don't miss it!!

it kinda came out of nowhere. mostly bc no one wanted to take up that time slot and she wasn't sleeping anyway so she decided to just give it a go. she really just plays whatever she wants and yaps about whatever is on her mind.

tends to get super intimate and vulnerable because not a lot of people are listening and if they are she has no idea who they are BUT she knows they kinda gaf about her so it feels like a safe place

pint board

like i said i have plots for both of them on their respective stat pages but i'm super down to write anything like please put them in situations okay thank youu (^.^)/~~~

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“I choked / on such longing I couldn’t spit out. Yes, desire is so different / when God bore you hungry.”

— Yves Olade, from Belovéd; Slaughterhouse, 2020

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‘god knows all of your ugliness,’ my mother says, ‘and loves you despite.’

‘is that supposed to make me feel loved?’ i reply. ‘i am still ugly. he is still god.’

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chess never looked more interesting before

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× ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ closed for dragonshq, written by apple.

 ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ 은⠀jeongmin.⠀the bloodline.͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ♟️͏ 𝄒  ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ 고⠀sohee.⠀the mirrorball.͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ 🪡 ͏ 𝄒

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