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i only feel this when i get high! it’s like my senses become more distinct and contrasted. HD remaster. x-ray goggles but for interoception

before my lymphatic massage i felt it up to my shin. now i only feel it up to my ankle,

if i were to measure the volume in sock heights, i was tall crew when i made the post above. now i’m between mid-crew and ankle, and it feels much lighter too. it’s really cool

oh ohhh i dont like that

im high on an edible right now which is actually relieving my pain more than tylenol.

i am also experiencing the most unpleasant sensation of water in my legs. for the procedure, the surgeon pumped a tumescent lidocaine solution into my legs and sucked the lipedema fat out with the cannula. so my legs are filled with a solution that has a water-like consistency and it’s been draining.

i can now feel the liquid from way under my skin and oh man its …. ewww. i can feel it because it’s colder, and the location of the cool liquid moves like water when i shift my leg positions. it makes me feel like i’m going to pop my foot or something when i walk because of the association of a water balloon feeling except it’s under my skin. it’s very unpleasant.

when i put my foot down i feel the pressure roll to the bottom. and when i lift my leg up i feel a cascade of cold rush down my leg and pressure into my thigh.

WAIT HOLD ON THINK THIS IS BECAUSE MY PERIPHERAL SENSORY NEURONS ARE HEALING THEIR DAMAGE :D as i was writing this i started feeking light static pins and needling.

i can’t wait to get my first lymphatic massages friday. i need this out of me asap. it makes me want to claw out of my skin and dump it all at once. i was worried about my legs being super painful during the massage, but that’s because i was numb and my broken peripheral neuron signal pulses were almost like….bitcrushed to binary 2-bit signals. (thats a good metaphor actually). but now that i’m able to feel the temperature and motion of the solution?? my healing sensory neurons have upgraded signal to idk, 24 bits. now i’m no longer afraid of it hurting ik it would feel good as fuckkkk to squeeze it out.

on the upside, since i can locate the pressure, i now know how to position my feet/legs for it to drain faster. but ughh i can’t turn this off. i hate it i’d rather put the numb back on. i’ll probably get used to it but right now jeezzz

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that first lymphatic massage was sooo so good. i thought it would be painful, but it wasn’t.

my masseuse first stimulated the inguinal lymph nodes, and popliteal lymph nodes, and then used an electrostatic-vibration device (called deep oscillation) that sends a buzzy current through her hands to massage the fluid back into the lymph nodes. i was draining a lot from my left ankle. good! i’m sick of feeling like i’m walking on water balloons

you know when your phone’s speaker gets waterlogged and you go on youtube to play a sound that dislodges it? its a similar mechanism to move subcutaneous fluid, using vibration. it’s very minimal pressure so it’s not damaging. it didn’t hurt at all, it felt fantastic.

my recovery is going really well. my wounds are healing extremely healthy, my bruising isn’t terrible, and my compression garment is fitting looser faster than i expected.

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got a call about a pokemon holding up traffic. found this

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Love when some stupid bullshit app i was forced to install for a singular purpose even though i knew i'd never use it again in my life has the audacity to send me a notification and remind me of its pathetic existence like You fool. had you kept silent, i might have allowed you to languish, forgotten, on the third page of my homescreen for another few months. but no, you simply couldn't resist. "☀️ Mornings are brighter with Zippadee! 😊✨" i'll shoot you like a dog

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‘capitalism works’ factoid actually untrue. the 62 people who own half the world’s wealth are outliers and should be eaten.

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The Spirit that Lives On

This took around 11 hours and I have so many progress photos 🥲

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fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you.

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The “Mr Mime is Ash’s dad” theory mildly irks me NOT because I don’t like it or whatever but bc the canon reason Mimey is there is just SO MUCH FUNNER. For plot related reasons Ash dresses up as a Mr Mime in a circus just outside Pallet town but gets kidnapped by Team Rocket. Brock and Misty are like “oh they’ll let him go once they realise he’s not a Pokemon, we should tell Delia that he’s gonna show up at her house in a Mr Mime costume so she isn’t freaked out” but then an ACTUAL Mr Mime shows up at her house before he does and because Delia is as faceblind as her son she mistakes it for him. And this Mr Mime is like “oh I like it here” and starts helping out around the house doing chores in exchange for food. And then when Ash DOES get home he’s like “mom why is there a Mr Mime here” and she goes “oops! Well he helps more around the house than you so I’m keeping him” and does. Mimey is not Ash’s dad. Mimey is his step-brother and canonically the favourite child

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hello mr ant tenna

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It's honestly such a shame that we've made such a huge thing out of swimming and swimsuits and looking good in swimsuits and fat people not looking good in swimsuits. Swimming is actually the perfect exercise for fat people because it puts zero pressure on the joints, which is a much bigger concern for us than it is for skinny people, and lets you exercise basically every muscle group without straining too much and risking injury. Yet somehow this is one of the least accessible exercises to fat people due to nothing more than a culture of body shaming. The work to unlearn all the shame to be comfortable in a bathing suit in front of strangers is huge even for conventionally attractive people, but I could probably count on one hand the number of fat people I've met who were confident enough to get in a bathing suit and go swimming in public.

And what is the exercise that somehow everyone thinks they should do instead? Jogging. It's more accessible, sure, it's easy and costs nothing to go outside and run. But I need you to understand telling a fat person to go running is basically telling them to go destroy their knees. Not to mention it's probably one of the most physically uncomfortable exercises to do when you have a body that jiggles even with compression garments.

Imagine a world where everyone had the ability and equal access to whatever exercise fit them best and helped them be happy and healthiest. Imagine a world where fat people go swimming.

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