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The first actor did his worst best Brando impression and somehow it became integral to the character

Wtf is Alistair's voice?? Why is he the only demon who sounds like a looney toons villain??

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heaven as a bureaucracy is so fundamentally boring to me. angels are fundamentally inhuman, ethereal, incomprehensible being are you’re telling me that they work like a corporation?? corporations are a very human invention. it simply makes no sense for them to behave like one. also, if we’re talking about a God who has abandoned heaven, that makes the whole concept even more boring. they call God their Father, but act like he was their CEO?? no. God as an absent father is vastly more compelling. angels as a extremely fucked up celestial family is so very interesting. i want to know how daddy issues impacted a being of pure energy and light. i don’t care about how a CEO took an extended vacation. the CEO narrative is literally just ok the big boss is gone we just defer to the second in command until he comes back and we continue to function normally. the absent father narrative allows for nuanced and complex individuals. you get to examine how each angel deals with the void of a father and how this impacts their relationship with obedience, humanity, and faith.

in season 4 alone, we get zachariah, uriel, castiel, and anna who each have their own views and motivations. uriel sees God’s absence as proof that he never cared, never loved them (the angels or the humans) so he follows in lucifer’s footsteps. anna is doubtful and falls not because she has issues with The Absent Father, but because she doubts the chain of command without him. she wants love and emotion so she chooses to become human to find the things she was lacking as an angel. castiel has unwavering faith in The Absent Father throughout season 4. his doubt is in the chain of command and their purpose. but unlike anna, he doesn’t want to become human. he wants to watch over them and protect them as he believes his Father would’ve wanted. zachariah is so interesting in season 4 because he’s nothing like the other angels we’ve seen before. he doesn’t doubt. he doesn’t rebel. he arguably doesn’t even have faith. he doesn’t care that God is gone because that void leaves room for him. he puts michael into the Father/God position, but not out of faith or love. it’s out of an odd convergence of duty and lust of power.

in season 5, this becomes even more interesting because of the introduction of the archangels and cas’s continued rebellion. (i’m not going to get into how michael and lucifer are direct mirrors for sam and dean and how this correlates to the absent father parallels between God and john because that is an entirely separate deeply compelling topic.) michael is set forth as the good son, the good soldier who is entirely driven out of love and loyalty to a Father who abandoned him. he steps up to fill the void, but it’s not about power for him; it’s about duty. lucifer doesn’t experience The Absent Father, but his actions are all in direct response to his father. lucifer was the favorite. he had a real, close bond with God. according to him, he was cast out of heaven because he loved his father too much. it’s that rejection that drives him. he’s fundamentally a petulant child doing anything to get his daddy’s attention. his tantrums just involve a lot more bloodshed. gabriel, in my opinion, has the most interesting feelings about The Absent Father. gabriel loves his family very deeply and watches it be torn apart which just completely wrecks him. when lucifer falls, gabriel loses a brother who he still loves even if he hates his choices and actions. he loses a father presumably soon (for an angel) after that. (if jesus doesn’t exist in the supernatural universe at all, then it’s very possible that God leaves directly after lucifer falls. if jesus does exist, then God probably leaves very soon after jesus’s death and resurrection. but most likely, jesus exists in the supernatural universe, but he was never resurrected. this is another separate issue but it’s based on how salvation and sin is treated in the show. very compelling, but once again not what i’m supposed to be talking about.) all of this loss is so much for gabriel that he leaves. he does the exact same thing that was done to him. gabriel is an archangel. he’s powerful. he’s up there in all of this. and he leaves too. that is so interesting because it begs the question: did God do that too? gabriel runs away from responsibility and pretends that he just doesn’t like it, it’s not his style, but it’s really out of a very deep wound that never healed. he resents his Father for leaving and he resents that he’ll have to watch his brothers fight to the death and presumably pick a side. gabriel was the mediator who bailed. he runs always from his problems instead of dealing with them and ends up carrying all of his pain with him. he fills this up with sex and fun and booze and tricks and pretends to be happy. when he finally confronts his issues, he’s killed!! murdered by the brother he loves!! so maybe, abandoning your family is the only way to survive. we never get to see much of raphael’s views even though he’s a main antagonist in season 6. but we get a little of it in free to be you and me. out of all the archangels he’s the most removed from the idea of God. he truly believes that God is gone. he might be dead. he might not care. he might never come back. it doesn’t matter to raphael. God is gone so the archangels should be in charge and rule heaven and earth as they see fit. he wants the apocalypse, but not out of love or faith. for him, it’s just what should be done.

season 6 begins to move away from angels as a family and God is an absent father. it’s more political. heaven is engaged in a civil war while raphael and cas campaign for the ultimate political office. godstiel is very interesting in relation to God is an absent father. cas is put forth as a rebellious angel, yet he is also the most loyal to God’s intentions (love humans more than angels live Him). he originally wants nothing to do with power, but he eventually begrudgingly accepts it because he has faith in his beliefs and The Absent Father. then, absolute power corrupts absolutely. cas declares himself the New God. he demands the angels follow him and slaughters those who do not. he even takes it as far as to proclaim himself their Father. this character trajectory is influenced by cas’s views on fate vs free will, paranoia, and his relationship to God. this power hungry, possibly manic, walking blasphemy version of cas can’t exist without God as the absent father.

after season 6, we really lose the family dynamics feel of the angels. season 8 is espionage. season 9 is angel politics. the later seasons have heaven function as a bureaucracy with the occasional mention of the archangels as brothers. it’s also vastly more interesting for the angels as soldiers interpretation if they are also a very fucked up family. sibling order is taken literally and to the extreme. the older siblings command the younger siblings as superiors or commanders. the Father is sending his children off to fight wars in his name.

a lot of the nuance is lost in the bureaucratic heaven. it takes away from the complexity and otherworldliness that is supposedly inherent to angels.

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"Should parents read their daughter's texts or monitor her online activity for bad language and inappropriate content?"

Earlier today, I served as the “young woman’s voice” in a panel of local experts at a Girl Scouts speaking event. One question for the panel was something to the effect of, “Should parents read their daughter’s texts or monitor her online activity for bad language and inappropriate content?”

I was surprised when the first panelist answered the question as if it were about cyberbullying. The adult audience nodded sagely as she spoke about the importance of protecting children online.

I reached for the microphone next. I said, “As far as reading your child’s texts or logging into their social media profiles, I would say 99.9% of the time, do not do that.”

Looks of total shock answered me. I actually saw heads jerk back in surprise. Even some of my fellow panelists blinked.

Everyone stared as I explained that going behind a child’s back in such a way severs the bond of trust with the parent. When I said, “This is the most effective way to ensure that your child never tells you anything,” it was like I’d delivered a revelation.

It’s easy to talk about the disconnect between the old and the young, but I don’t think I’d ever been so slapped in the face by the reality of it. It was clear that for most of the parents I spoke to, the idea of such actions as a violation had never occurred to them at all.

It alarms me how quickly adults forget that children are people.

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Dean looked to the heavens. 

“You’re a sick sonovabitch, ya know that!” 

He chucked the shovel, heard it thunk against the statue keeping watch over the dead. Santa María. Mother of Christ and mother of all. Her children dead at her feet. Dean wanted to spit on her. 

He grabbed the iron to pry open the coffins. 

“They died for you. They fucking died for you and your bullshit and you wouldn’t even let em’ rest proper after.” 

He jumped down and cracked the first coffin open. Bones. Just bones. Something clutched in skeletal fingers. 

“No, you let their souls rot.”

He reached down to pick it up. A simple rosary. Wooden beads. He put it in his pocket. There was something about it. 

He climbed out of the grave to hop into the next one. It would be more efficient to burn ‘em one at a time, but it felt… wrong. They should go together he decided. 

“All they did was love each other. Ain’t that what your boy preached? Ain’t that what he was killed for? Strung up and bloodied for?” Dean couldn’t help muttering toward the sky. Something resentful was taking root in his soul. He could feel it. It gripped and grew and snagged. 

He cranked open the second and saw the same rosary in skeletal hands. He snatched that one too.

“They built all this for you. They died for you. And this is how you repay them.”

He jumped back out and picked up the salt, tearing open the bag with liquid rage flowing through him. 

“They gave everything for you and you can’t even look at em’.” Look at me, dad. 

He started vigorously shaking the salt over the two sets of bones. 

“Sent them away from the big pearly gates. Left them behind in this craphole.” I got a hunt for you.

Lighter fluid next. 

“Fuckin’ figures.” 

He lit two matches. One for each hand and held his arms straight out as he stood in the middle. He looked up at the close eyed face of Mary. They always looked away from suffering.

Dean could not believe in a god that didn’t believe in him. 

“You’re no goddamn father.” Yes, sir.

He dropped the matches. Felt the heat as the graves lit up. 

Suddenly, cold at his back. He turned his head and was thrown forward. Ah, the salt and burn didn’t work. 

He hit his head on the corner of Her pedestal. Hard. He looked up and saw them. 

They were lovely. 

They stood before him and he didn’t move. 

One flickered forward and bent down, one pair of ghostly hands reached toward him. The other simply watching her. Probably gonna snap his neck. Dean couldn’t find it in himself to care. 

Where he expected the ghostly chill of fingers on his neck, there was none. The hand reached into his shirt pocket and pulled out the rosaries. Damn, he shoulda figured. 

What happened next would keep with him. 

The first nun- Juana- his mind supplies, she flickers back while the other flickers forward. Angelica. He can tell because of the birthmark on her cheek. He thought it was unique. It looked like a star. 

Angelica was suddenly before him and he could only gaze up, dazed and hurt. So very fucking hurt. 

She bent down, inches from his face. Her silky eyes forced him to meet her gaze. He was sure this was it. Happy birthday, Dean. 

She smiled. 

Raised a hand and he couldn’t help but flinch at the enormity of the end. 

A caress. Gentle. He opened his eyes and saw peach trees. The smell of wax with her scent. Letters carved into beads. A quick slit and her warm hand. Dean understood.

The hand retreated but the smile didn’t. Angelica flickered away and grabbed Juana’s hand. The light of their graves making the apparitions glisten something luminescent. Angelica handed over a rosary and somehow Dean knew what was carved into one of the beads. 

They looked at each other. Saw each other. And then they both threw their rosaries into the separate fires. 

They lit up and disappeared. 

Dean could only stare. He sat there, long after the embers cooled and the sun was peaking over the horizon. 

He raised his face and saw Mary looking down on him. “Amen, sisters.” 

His bones were stiff but he stood. He put one leg in front of the other and didn’t look back. 

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Dean saw them on a rack on 7-11. They were cheap but it didn’t matter. He paid for two. 

He stood outside by the pump for a moment as he carved. 

He got back in the impala. Looked over at him. 

“Gotcha something.” He placed the rosary over Cas’ head. It fell quietly onto his neck. 

“Dean?” Cas gave it a quizzical look as Dean donned his own. 

“We match.” Dean said with a big smile. 

Castiel had focused on one bead in particular and a soft smile overtook the confusion. 

“We do.” 

Dean put the radio up and drove. 

A warm hand caught his own. A squeeze, a look, and it was okay. 

“Happy birthday, Dean.” 

Yeah, it was.

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10.14 The Executioner’s Song

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cas and crowley are a great team up because historically no matter how little the writers give them to work with misha and mark will put their entire pussies into it 

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Anson Mount as Cullen Bohannon in Hell on Wheels 2.07

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A tall, thin blonde person of indeterminate gender was watching me. They were very tall, dressed like David Bowie and had a German accent. They took a big drag of their cigarette and said, “You know, the problem with you humans is you give away every part of your self until there is nothing left.” I looked down at my body, and my entire torso had been hollowed out. Everything inside had been replaced with black and silver machines. They blew out a big cloud of cigarette smoke and told me, “Just because you exist by accident doesn’t make it any less meaningful.”

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Damnation 110 - God’s Body

Honorable Mention goes to Sheriff Uncle Don Berryman

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“We stood up against the imperialist war machine of the United States of America, and the greedy money men of Wall Street who was *itchin’* to send the children of the Proletariat off to die in foreign lands so they could be fillin’ their coffers! It weren’t their sons bleeding on the beaches! No, they draftin’ people like ye for the dirty work while they’s watchin’ the dollars roll in. Yer the pawn, the patsy of cantankerous men in marble mansions. While I seed through that shit, decided not to be party to it.” - Horton Boone, the southern communist we need.

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im not sure how I feel about Wolfenstein II because I personally think the gameplay is a downgrade from The New Order but holy fucking shit this dialogue scene with Horton Boone fucking makes up for a lot of the shit this game puts you through

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Terrance Zdunich could sing anything and it would be a bop to me

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Alright, heres from my top songs 2020

1. Hoist That Rag : Tom Waits

2. Chop Suey! : System of a Down

3. If I Told You Once : The Circus Contraption Band

4. People Are Strange : The Doors

5. The Bidding : Tally Hall

6. Mélancolie : Patrick Watson, Safia Nolin

7. Ex Lover’s Lover : Aurelio Voltaire

8. Cradles : Sub Urban

9. My Eyes : Neil Patrick Harris, Felicia Day (looks like someone up there got it too lmao)

10. my boy : Billie Eilish

and tagging, uh.... @lucibae-is-dancing-in-hell @brieflymaximumprincess @lucifer-in-leather @crobby I guess? I think I know all of you I’m sorry if I dont

i was tagged by @shrimpemojis to put my songs on shuffle and list the first 10! Thank you so much 😄💕

I have a separate playlist for musical theater, which explains the lack of songs from musicals :')

1- Mistral Gagnant by Renaud

2- Lola by Superbus

3- Bad Reputation by Joan Jett

4- The Judge by Twenty One Pilots

5- Les Hautes Lumières by Fauve

6- Spirits by The Strumbellas

7- Crazy by Daniela Andrade

8- Take on me by a-ha

9- Hey ya! by Outkast

10- Everybody wants to rule the world by Tears for Fears

Tagging: @layers-bloody-sun, @cinnella, @prune-life, @champagnemonarch, @multifangirlsworld, @oh-thatwallflower, @musicaltrashblog, @feralnumberfive