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i just want to appreciate myself for giving myself my deserved self-care. as a child who's not covered in HMO, i never experienced having monthly checkups, dental care, and the like. kaya, i'm so thankful to God for giving me opportunities in which i can grow myself and expand my horizons. sobrang laking blessing na meron akong business because through this, i am able to give myself what i want and need without having to worry about the expenses. i know, malayo pa to... malayo pa to sa buhay that i am aiming for pero gaya nga ng sabi, "malayo na pero malayo pa" thank you Lord God for being so good!! 🙌

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What we think is what we become

Anonymous

Attorney & RMP in my name someday!! 

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[my name] MKA22 | 1st Honors, 2nd Semester A.Y. 2022-2023

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now idk who’s im mentioning here :/

-omf! i did not expect to find his youtube channel! with content pa ha HAHAHAH

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it’s been so long since i used this app. i am now a college student, in an unfamiliar university surrounded by unfamiliar people and scenarios. there are a lot of things that took place in my life over the past months. i might blog them on the upcoming days coz im gonna vent out a certain thing at this moment. 

it’s exhausting. university. him. life. everything around me just exhausts me. how stupid of me to think that he’s my “pahinga”. tomorrow’s already the first day of our exam, yet, im not even half on reviewing my materials. i asked for a vm, to somehow motivate me, but he firmly refused to do so. am i being immature coz i blocked him or am i just preserving myself because he always disappoints and exhausts me? 

im so confused. i shouldnt have said yes in the first place. i should have just stayed in my place coz if i did, i might not be crying rn, questioning the decisions that ive made from the previous months. 

idk what to do anymore. if he wishes to walk away from my life again, ill never disrespect myself again just to beg for the love that i know i deserve. 

Lord, if we’re not meant for each other, please make a way to separate us again. 

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im finally in college. 2 weeks have passed. it's exhausting, but gladly, he's with me. thank you L for giving me an angel and source of motivation. pls make us last.

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settin’ up my own YouTube account! my contents will be about songs coz i live for music! prolly gonna start uploading in April this year. omooo, so excited!

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im so obsessed with kakie’s works!! <3 i love how she put everything to words. 

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-omf! i did not expect to find his youtube channel! with content pa ha HAHAHAH

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Some days, i want to be independent, like i love this solitude. I dont others to be involve in my business. But there are also 'need' days that i have to go through in my life. I need someone to share the rest of my day with, be my motivator, and someone i can hug if things go wrong along the way.

3/14/21 it's still you that i want, i need, and i love.

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i’m in a deep deep pothole where i can’t think of anything to lift myself up, away from this. i’ll be embarrassing myself in the 10th day of March, this year and people might have doubt on my capabilities. it’s such a pity that i decided to enter this mess where from the start, i know that i will never be chosen. jokes on me for joining this cup. 

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is it normal na mabuwisit sa taong ‘di mo naman pinagkaka-buwisit-an noon? aga aga pre, she’s getting into my nerves

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so lola's seven-year-resident tenant bid his goodbye today since he got promoted on his job and was transferred to another branch of their company. i wasnt expecting that my eyes would form teardrops when he was talking to us a while ago. sayonara, my favorite tenant. do well in your field & i hope to c u again

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i am so annoyed!!! even though there is already an approval from IATF that one can travel without any papers (medical and other covid related stuffs), i know and i am a hundred percent certain that my grandma will never let me leave this place. i’m stuck for like a yeah here!! i really miss my fam in sur. i surely do.

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everyyything’s fucked up lololol. at first, i was really glad that i landed in this so called group that is consist of top students in the class but upon implementing, we always and really find ways to prolonged our working hours omfggg im so tired with this set up!! i often think of leaving this current group of mine but i’ll be a hypocrite if i do that, so i have to endure this bullshit until april or may this year. 

++ oh, we are also planning to add some spice in our business. and guess what? we are going to fuckingg add 3 products more!! how time consuming is that??? in just a day?? production crews of 5 members?? lol, you must be kidding me. perhaps i can understand and agree with that if the products that we are going to offer doesnt requires a lot of procedures but it does!! 

this isn’t all about impressing our teacher and the consumers, or aiming for THAT title. we are running a goddamn business and we must work strategically while gaining more profit. im so doneeee with this!

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Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing. A memory to someone. A home to a life.

Nayyirah Waheed (via thoughtkick)

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Audre Lorde, from “A Litany for Survival”, The Collected Poems of Audre Lorde