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post rumbling levi ackerman x fem!reader

being one of the last scout veterans, you find familiarity in levi. perhaps even comfort and healing, despite everything you two have been through.

trigger warnings: trauma trauma trauma, more trauma, post rumbling, reader gets flashbacks, slight fluff tho as a treat, reader and levi are the last scout veterans who cope together, comrades to friends to lovers, levi is a bit ooc. not edited. lmk if i should make a part two…? or more blurbs of these two?

art creds: idk i found it on pinterest, pls lmk so i can credit properly, ty!!

reblogs/comments/likes mean so much, i appreciate it and it’s so encouraging!

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Sometimes you fall asleep with your cheek smushed on Captain Levi’s bed.

You don’t mean to. When you startle awake from another nightmare, frozen, you realize it. Then, you always make the decision to quietly leave, making sure the quilts are adequately wrapped around Levi’s dozing form. He doesn’t wake. You think, and hope.

That damn tea. You brew it for Levi’s sake, to help him with his insomnia when he refused to let you drug him to sleep. It was the next best thing; it was either that or Gabi’s fist to get him to dreamland. But the tea worked on you too, causing you to doze off while quietly reading as Levi fell asleep.

You always knew the Captain was an insomniac, even during your early days as part of Squad Levi. You know a lot about him: how he takes his tea, what books he enjoys, and that he prefers rainy days over sunny ones. You make sure to get him settled on the porch if there is an impending rainstorm with a book and a freshly brewed cup of tea. You’ve been with him since the beginning, so why leave? Go where?

You don’t owe him anything. He always asks why you stick around. What has he ever done besides lead you to hell and back? In his eyes, he’s the reason why you get overtaken with flashbacks: eyes screwed shut, teeth clenched, knuckles white. Of what, he doesn’t know. He just watches as you get through it, clutching anything to ground yourself. And when it’s over, he grits his teeth and looks away in shame.

The flashbacks you get are often, and you never speak of them. Part of him doesn’t want to know. The other part of him can probably guess, but he doesn’t know what to say.

He knows what you’ve been through, what you’ve done and what’s been done to you. You watched countless of Scouts get eaten by Titans. You’ve watched and fought the Female Titan, barely living through it. You’ve gained and lost so many comrades. You’ve fought for Eren, for the hope that humanity lives on despite the Titans, but where did that get you? Where did that get Levi? The Rumbling. The subsequent battle for the last sliver of humanity.

The horrors of what you two lived through creep in your dreams. And his. You wake, frozen in terror, a scream caught in your closed throat. Levi thrashes in bed, despite his pains, eventually coming to in a cold sweat. You don’t see that. But he sees your suffering and feels his heart break even more.

“Levi, a storm is coming,” you are pouring him his daily cup of tea that soothes his pain in his knee and back. It’s a strong mixture that smells of herbs and something floral.

Levi is sitting in his wheelchair, his one gray eye already trained on the darkening sky. He only hums in agreement and doesn’t complain when you wheel him out to the porch. It’s secluded and tucked away from the rain. You make sure he’s settled in, putting a quilt over his legs. He feels somewhat embarrassed, having you fret over him constantly, but you never seem to mind.

You set his teacup on a small table next to his wheelchair. “Do you want your book, too?” You ask him, but he shakes his head, watching you pull up a rocking chair on the other side of the table.

Before this, he’s never really seen you in skirts or casual wear. It was always your uniform or wearing clothes as a disguise. But now, since the fighting is over, all he sees you wear are long skirts, boots, and a cardigan or shawl thrown over your button up shirt. Neither of you hunt or fish anymore. Gabi and Falco see to that. But you tend to your vegetable and herb garden, skirts and all.

You have injuries that you still feel the dull ache of. During the final battle, atop Eren’s skeletal back, you landed horribly wrong on one of the resurrected Nine. Your ankle was broken in several places, and continuing to fight despite it made the pain never truly go away. Your ribs were crushed by another one of the resurrected Nine. Annie broke your arm when she was trying to retrieve Eren. The blast from Bertholdt’s Titan scarred your face, hands, and elbows.

But when you examine Levi’s face, you realize that your scars aren’t as deep as his. You healed him the best you could before the final battle, despite the tremendous damage the thunder spear did to his body. You were amazed that he could keep going. But after the Power of the Titans were wiped, and the power of the Ackermans was gone, the damage on his body was finally revealed.

The rain begins to slowly fall from the sky, a welcoming sight. Thunder rumbles from the distance, and you notice that Levi’s eyes are closed as he takes in the sound of rain and the smell of it. As the rain picks up, you hear the steady drum of it on the roof.

Your mind wanders as you watch the storm roll through. Although you try to avoid difficult memories, they still surface in your mind and makes it difficult for you to breathe, to think of anything else. Levi is still in his own world, immersed in the rain, unaware of your struggle. Sometimes, memories like the ones flashing through your brain and behind your eyelids come out of nowhere. They take you by surprise, rendering a peaceful moment like this one into a moment of dread and fear.

The memory that takes hold of you is one that occurred during the battle to overtake Shinganshina. Watching Erwin, your mentor and friend, die, despite trusting Levi with your whole heart. Feeling your face, arms, and hands on fire from the explosion of Bertholdt’s Titan. Your hair was singed from the fires, and the stench of it made you gag.

You clasp your hands over your mouth, covering up a small whimper. Levi, despite his Ackerman abilities being gone, his hearing is still very attuned. His head quickly turns towards you, realizing that you’re just coming back from an unwelcome memory.

“Ah,” you drop your hands, shivering. “I’m sorry…”

He watches your face attentively, the crease in your brow, your bottom lip trembling. Your hands are shaking, but when he moves towards you, he grabs them into his own.

“Don’t be,” he murmurs. You’re avoiding his gaze, eyes misty with tears and the confusion of snapping out of a flashback.

“Do you…want to talk about it?” He feels guilty for asking. Perhaps it would make it worse, bringing up the memories that plague you so.

“Uhm…,” you frown deeper. “I don’t think you would want to…it’s unpleasant for both of us.”

You sigh shakily, turning towards the rain once more.

“What was it about?” Levi asks.

Your eyes well up with tears. “Erwin…,” you murmur. “And, selfishly, my injuries.”

“Not selfish.”

“A bit, yes…”

“No,” Levi used one of his hands to turn you to look at him. “Not selfish.”

“Hm,” you sigh, neither agreeing or disagreeing.

“You told me the explosion caused you to get nerve damage in your hands. I remember seeing you…after chasing Zeke…your face was torn up, too,” Levi’s brow creases as he looks at the scraggly scares adorning your lips and cheeks. You shielded your eyes, if he remembers, so your arms and hands took the brunt of it. Perhaps that’s why you cover up all the time.

“It’s all right,” Levi assures you, squeezing your hands. “You’re with me, now. Safe. What happened to you won’t happen ever again.”

“I hope so,” you reply softly. “I just…wish…”

“I wish a lot of things, too,” Levi interrupts. “A lot of things. And I have a lot of regrets. But…”

Levi’s cheeks turn pink, despite him willing them not to.

“But…spending the remainder of my life, here, with you…”

He stops, choking up. Your eyes dart up, meeting his, your cheeks also feeling hot.

“L-Levi…”

You both turn away from each other, embarrassed, yet your grips on each others hands stay the same. The rain continues, with no sign of letting up.

“Why do you stay?” Levi asks, his black hair slowly swaying with the wind that the rainstorm brings. He’s suddenly quite alert, similar to when his Ackerman abilities were awakened. It reminds you of him before he leapt into battle, or before he left the gates for missions.

“Uhm…” you can’t meet his intense gaze, flustered. He leans in, elbows on his knees, his nose so close…

“You stay for a reason, right?” He asks again.

“Yes, I stay because…” your eyes meet his intense gaze, and you lean in to match him. “Because of you, Levi…”

“Why? I didn’t order you to stay here.”

Basically nose to nose now, you bite your bottom lip. “Because you’re not just my Captain.”

Levi hesitates at this, taken aback. He’s the first one to lean back into his chair, his grip on your hand unrelenting.

“I feel like my presence makes you remember it all.”

You shake your head. “I would be this way anywhere. You actually…help me.”

Levi closes his eyes, but then opens them again.

“I want to be with you, Levi. I always wanted to. You are…” you trail off, your ears now feeling hot, too. “You are…special…to me…and I want to spend the rest of my time…here, with you.”

Levi makes a small noise of surprise. He watches you turn away from him, flustered and embarrassed by your admission. The rain picks up, spraying the two of you with a fine mist with the wind.

He always felt a soft spot for his best soldier. And now, with the both of you now veterans, recovering from the wounds of war, he knows that feeling wasn’t just favoritism. It was so much more. When the two of you were separated during the mission to retake Shinganshina, he fought like hell to get back to you. And when he saw you afterwards, bloody, beaten, hair singed, and cape smoldering, he knew…

Your eyes were empty that day. When Hange hugged you, trying to shield you from Levi’s choice, he saw the look in your eyes. When you watched Erwin die, Levi was not unfamiliar to the emptiness in your gaze. But he never wanted to see you like that again. Despite being powerless in the past, in so many other battles, now, he can make sure it doesn’t happen. Ever again.

“I want to be with you,” Levi says, so quietly you could barely hear it. But you turn to face him, surprised.

“I want to be with you, to take care of you like you take care of me,” Levi continues. “Please…”

His shyness, his understanding, his pleading…your chest flutters, and before you could think it through, you have thrown yourself towards him. You’ve wrapped your arms around him, hugging him.

“You already take care of me,” you say, tears spilling through your eyelashes.

Levi is surprised, yet he wraps his arms around you in return. He only wishes that he did that more often, in the past, so he wouldn’t have lost time with you. But now, in this small cabin near the new woods, he would make up for it all. He pulls away from the embrace, just slightly, to where your noses brush.

“I will be with you, always,” he murmurs, and before you could respond, his lips meet your own. It’s tentative, his lips curious, but you respond with fervor. His hands are holding you so gently, so good, and you wished you could stay like this, in his arms, protected, forever.

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cross your mind masterlist 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯

ao3 (coming soon!) ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

♡ jean kirschstein x fem!reader (no y/n)

♡ aot college au

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Autumn ༄˖°.🍂.ೃ࿔*:･

chapter 1: cross your mind (coming so soon)

chapter 2: upcoming

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trigger warnings: language, typical college behaviors, drinking, weed use, I don’t write smut but it does get kinda freaky mmk, triggers will also be labeled before each chapter. Not beta’d bc I’m lazy (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)

tropes: strangers to best friends, best friends to lovers, slow burn ish but not too angsty, he falls first but she falls harder, Jean is a yearner ok! Jean lives in a pottery studio. That’s it that’s the tweet.

(also each chapter title is based off of a song if you guess it right I’ll give u a forehead kiss •ᴗ•)

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note: I know the aot fandom is basically lowkey dead. But after rewatching the series for the millionth time, this fic is my closure. It’s my baby. It’s my happy ending for them.

I’m awful at summaries but what better way is to go into a fanfic kind of blind?? But seriously thank you so much for reading ily! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

reblogs/comments/likes seriously so appreciated too you don’t even know how encouraging they are!! <3

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🏷️ taglist:

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I NEEEEEED THEM

WHERE ARE THE FICS FOR THIS MAN

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i have two types

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please please please please please come back please i’m begging 😭😭

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I’m having an aneurysm 😪 so so good

Mamma mia!

IG || Kofi

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I love him your honor 😵‍💫

Ebon Moss-Bachrach as Richie Jerimovich in THE BEAR

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need him now

Death Stranding 2 - Neil Vana

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NEIL VANA

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Uncle Carmy THE BEAR | 4.06

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ICE is in Los Angeles conducting raids and arresting families and children on their way to their court dates and raiding workplaces. Trump has called the National Guard in to stop protestors and is spreading a false narrative about violence, raiding, etc. to distract from the fact that ICE is abducting children in a SANCTUARY CITY.

Do not look away, do not be silent. If you or a loved one is detained by ICE, stay silent except to ask for your lawyer. Keep your documents on you. Call legal aid foundations who are standing by.

If you are NOT in LA and want to help, you can contact rapid response networks and ask how to help or donate. Donate to ACLU, the Mexican American Legal Defense Fund (MALDEF), or the Immigrant Defense Project.

Here are some slides with good tips to share and a list of SoCal rapid response networks:

DO NOT LOOK AWAY!

And as a not so gentle reminder, if you voted for Trump or his ilk you can unkindly get the fuck off my page. You're not welcome here.

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‘If you see this video, we are being intercepted and kidnapped’

Greta Thunberg has shared a pre-recorded video appealing for international help.

“My name is Greta Thunberg, and I am from Sweden,” Thunberg said in the video recorded on board the Madleen, before tonight’s events.

“If you see this video, we are being intercepted and kidnapped in international waters by the Israeli occupational forces, or forces that support Israel,” she said.

“I urge all my friends, family and comrades to put pressure on the Swedish government to release me and the others as soon as possible.”

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idk if anyone said this yet but… joel miller fic based (loosely??) off of nettles by ethel cain :’)

it just has that twang and heavy longing and sadness that encapsulates joel a little bit….. </3

might write it, might not🥹 the idea came to me after a breakdown (after i listened to nettles for about the sixteenth time) (that did me in but are we surprised)

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Yellow Soul Masterlist

Summary: Being with your high school sweetheart Perry feels like walking on a constant tightrope, always terrified to plummet to your death. But one winter break in 2016 everything changes when you unexpectedly reconnect with his younger brother, Rhett. In a relationship that’s smothering, Rhett becomes the escape you never knew you needed, offering the kind of refuge you’ve been longing for.

Pairing: Rhett Abbott/Fem!Reader

MDNI - Smut indicated with a *

Chapter One: Mulberry

You return to Wabang with the intention of celebrating Christmas with your boyfriend, Perry. What you discover instead is much more than you would have ever dreamed.

Chapter Two: Amaranth*

A routine Sunday morning turns unexpected as you and Rhett meet in secret away from your families.

Chapter Three: Gourd*

You want to regret Sunday, but you don't. You find Rhett does not regret it either.

Chapter Four: Persimmon*

Things haven't been the same since the fight in Rhett's truck. The pressure is getting to you, and the feelings of self-doubt are not eased as others around you do not reveal their secrets.

Chapter Five: Marmalade

With Wabang in your rearview mirror you can finally breathe again.

Chapter Six: Dandelion

Six years pass and you find yourself back in Wabang.

Chapter Seven: Cornsilk

A night at the bar leads to some unexpected findings, unknowingly you are now tied to Rhett Abbott for life.

Chapter Eight: Pear

With Trevor Tillerson missing, you are pulled back into the tangle of secrets, regrets, and the Abbott family you once tried to leave behind.

+ More To Come!

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i want 50 avengers tower fanfics of the thunderbolts on my desk by morning do you hear me

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no one speak to me at this time

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“The Pitt”: Jack Abbot’s appreciation post 🔥 original posts: x, x, x, x, x, x, x + other characters: part 1, 2, 3