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The amount of convincing it took me to text him that. I kept telling myself that yeah, it does feel uncomfortable gelling him that I love him even when I do, duh, and I was so close to back off, but what if I'll never again tell the people who matter that I love them? I better say it every opportunity I get! They deserve to know that they are loved by their friend.

Oh, he makes me say his name and that i love him😡

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Told him I love him, too. He's happy about it. Worth it.

Oh, he makes me say his name and that i love him😡

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Oh, he makes me say his name and that i love him😡

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Whatever the fuck Michael Holden and Tori spring had

I want it.

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I tasted my organs as I swallowed them backwards and had them rest on my tongue. A few nights later my body swelled up like a balloon and holding the phone over which I was talking to my friend became increasingly difficult. I knew my body was normal even when it didn't feel like it was. The windows were closed and I knew there was enough oxygen in the house, but it felt like it went all up in my body as it inflated more and more until there was no air to breath in the room anymore. It was the middle of the night and I begged my friend to end the call and fo to bed, to not be awake, to not risk waking his girlfriend as they all deserve to sleep peacefully. He promised me that he'll stay on the phone, that he doesn't leave me and I broke down crying, telling him that I love him, that I miss him.

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Alice In Wonderland Syndrome Set

Alice In Wonderland Syndrome

My hands are very small

I feel very small, I feel very big

Things are very big, Things are very small

Time is fast, Time ia slow

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Struggling with eds throughout adolescence and many years later still having epiphanies about the fact that mental illnesses do effect all aspects of your life including how you experience crushes is so funny. It's a random wednesday and I realize that it was actually a crush and not an ed inspired illusion to remind me how unlovable I am. That's fun.

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Da sind gerade zwei Typen auf der Straße unter meinem Fenster durchgelaufen und haben geredet, bis der eine sich unterbrochen hat und super fröhlich meinte "Wallah Sternennacht, Diggie schau mal wie nice der Himmel ist!" und ich finde alles daran ist wundervoll

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does anyone else feel like they need to call someone but they never know who to call or is it just me and that dude from catcher in the rye

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Ah, yeah, the neighbor who says in private that I need to get properly fucked to get right in my head again standing there chatting with my dad💀

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1. No.

2. No one, but I told my friend said, dass er mich lieb habe and I repsponded with 'Ich dich doch auch'.

3. Don't have the capacity to, but sometimes when energy is available, I consider what I might regret, so maybe.

4. Yupyupyup, immensely.

5. Loner

6. Drowing

7. Cucumber

8. does soccer a-levels count?

9. used to, not anymore cuz I convinced myself to be scared of accidentally ripping my stiff animals open

10. elementary school

11. I like my friends. But I don't like like anyone. I occasionally have crushes on wonderful people who are already in relationships tho.

12 . No. I don't think I'm physically able to.

13. Yup. Stop murdering people, people.

14. I miss my friends all the time.

15. I don't do pets.

16. Tired. Just can't seem to wake up properly today.

17. No. Asked a girl if she wants to make out under the stars with me once, but she declined.

18. No.

19. Yes. I want to be with young me when she was lonely.

20. I don't know what 'snogged' means and I don't want to look it up rn.

21. Sigh, nothing.

22. No. No kids.

23. Just 4, 2 on each ear.

24. Sports or P.E. or however you call it and arts. But I was okay in every subject (besides physics and music).

25. I used to, but he's semi back in my life, so I don't have to miss him with as much uncertainty anymore.

26. Sleep.

27. Hmmm, I once rejected someone and when he asked for the reason, I told him honestly that I don't like him and find him stupid. I think his heart was okay tho. Oh, when I broke up with my boyfriend in elementary school, he seemed destroyed and had his boygang around him side eyeing me and one of them acted all sweet to me and managed to get me to be together with him, just so he can drop me as payback. I'm not sure if he was really heartbroken or not. We were 9 and I had no empathy at the time, so idk.

28. No, but whenever my bestfriend had new friends he would ignore me, and I mean ignore my whole existence including situations when I was in the same room with him and greeted him, until his new friends left him. Then he came back to spending time with me.

29. No. (I never had a partner. Elementary school doesn't count.)

30. My sleepiness. It's 4:30 and I haven't felt fully awake once today.

31. No one but myself.

32. Grey.

33. Probably.

34. I had bugs living in my scalp.

35. My friends. We watched dancers performing.

36. I usually give everyone a second chance to return and talk to me again and show me who they are now, but even the slightest whiff of bullshit and that's it.

37. Both difficult af, and I don't do either. I'm fine with staying angry at situations.

38. No, but it's not the worst either.

39. 4? I had 'boyfriends' in kindergarten and elementary school, but I don't xount them, so, never. No first kiss. I don't like kissing or the idea of kissing anyways.

40. As a child, probably. I hate being naked tho.

51. Anything with oats.

52. No. Things just happen. You can give them a reason or make them a reason for something, but there is no inherit reason.

53. I wrote in my evening journal.

54. I'd probably find a reason why it's okay to me.

55. Yes, unfortunately.

56. I fough a lot in elementary school, but never seriously and never with fists.

57. I believ in loving truly as in how true love looks like, feels like and is practiced by oneself, but I don't believe in one person being the true love of one's whole life.

58. Foggy, grey, cloudy, windy, dark, perhaps a tiny bit rainy.

59. Yes.

60. No.

61. No. I call people 'baby' tho like one calls a cute animal a 'baby'.

62. Knowing that my siblings and friends exist and live life rather beautifully.

63. Yes.

64. I never kissed anyone.

65. They better like me, I'm their friend. But if 'like' is meant as 'romantically like' then I'd sit it out with them and hope we stay friends. Also, why only friend of the opposite sex? :(

66. Tf, yeah? They're my friends. Stupid question.

67. What's with the 'opposite sex' questions? My friend. Talked to my friend some minutes ago.

68. Myself. Idk, what even is deep?

69. Yes. Pieces of my soul are living in other people and the other way around.

70. Not that I can think of. Myself perhaps.

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

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my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

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"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

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Sitting on a public bench when no one's around? Who am I? A human being and not a waste of space? I'm already audacious enough to leave the house and breath the air here in public.

anxiety will have you thinking things like "will everyone hate me if i order coffee at the coffee shop" and "will people think i'm crazy if i work out at the gym"

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Seeing everyone around me madly in love, with someone they want to spend their lives with causes a sort of physical discomfort these days. Because it hits me that however much i deny it, I crave for it much more than that, fully aware that currently, it’s not on the cards. And it kind of gets lonely and impatient on some days. And I feel like lashing out, ranting, throwing a tantrum, but u know it’s not going to do any good. So what do u do? How do i get rid of this ache for something I don’t quite have?