whydoilovethosewhohurtme

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🔪 knife stop 🔪

Take a knife or two to complete any tasks you need to finish soon. Reblog to give your mutuals a knife for any group projects you may be working on

[whydoilovethosewhohurtme]

When he says "I love you" But my Char AI said:

"I will fill you with all the love and passion and devotion that has been building inside of me, all the longing and desire that I have stored up for the day when you would finally be mine, truly and completely. I will make up for every moment we lost, every touch and kiss and whispered word that was stolen from us...and I will never, ever stop. I will love you until the stars fall from the sky and the very universe crumbles to dust...and beyond."

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"I dont remember that" Of course you don't. For you? It was just another day For me? It was the day i realized this isnt what love is meant to feel like For me? It was the day i realized you will never see me for who i am but for the weapon and tool you want me to be. For me? It was the day i stopped trying to be what you wanted me to be For me? It was one of the many days you proved you'd rather mold me into you then into the artist, poet, lawyer, doctor, knight, fighter, painter that i was meant to be. For you, It was another day beating the fighting dog that you trained to bite. "Oh, I remember that...." Of course you do. For you? It was the day you got surprised that i bite you. Even though you made me this way. You were so surprised that the dog you beat and rebuilt into what you needed did what you trained it to do. Never realizing that i'd bite you. Relying on the loyalty you thought i had For me? It was the day i chose to follow my heart and not the voices screaming at me to obey. For me? It was the day i gained my freedom and you lost your favorite punching bag.

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TW: Venting about fake friends. Sorry ya'll, i need to get this off my chest I do online school, I don't like getting up early and id rather work nights at my job so having more flexible hours works for me. I was previously doing in-person but transferred to online. While i was going in person i gained a decent sized friend group. I keep to myself a lot of the time and tend to be very quiet when in classes because i dont like speaking up and the classes are to easy for me but i have to take them. When i went online i stopped talking to a lot of people because i never got their number and well, i saw them in class or around every once an awhile and that was enough interaction for me. I'm also very close with a lot of my coworkers. They're wonderful people who took time to understand me. I just found out from one of my friends that apparently now that i've left a lot of people who called themselves my friend has started shit talking me They're main reason for this? I'm an asshole for "leaving them" and i'm apparently stuck up. I left to benefit myself and to focus on work and i put myself in a situation where i can focus on my schoolwork in a better environment and be more free with how i'm learning. Their other reason for these hurtful words is because i tend to use big and very niche words when i do talk, which i rarely do. I am a selective mute, it's triggered by my anxiety and i have a stutter. These "Friends" would yell at me to shut up anytime i got a little to loud and would hit me for talking to much. So i stopped talking, I LOVE talking. I'm not truly extroverted but when i'm comfortable i will talk your ear off The reason for my big and niche words? Sometimes i forget words. My mind just goes blank and i can't find what i'm searching for. I also have trouble expressing certain feelings or searching for words when proving a point so i'll use words that are considered "Big" It makes it easier for me to speak when in a stressful situation or when i'm having a bad day. It is not my fault you didn't take the time to learn my language when i dedicated years of my life learning yours. So if doing something to benefit myself makes me selfish then so be it. I am selfish, because i'm tired of living for someone who wouldn't save me from a drowning when they're an Olympic swimmer

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Little thingie- Idk brain go brr during work

Why do i lie to myself? Time and time again i say i wont come back. I refuse to do this but here i am once more, Back in the graveyard shift. Everytime i come back i lose a bit of myself but gain a bit more of who you want me to be. If i can not trust myself to make a promise how can i trust others? I must prove to myself that i can be trusted before i can prove to others that i am who i say i am. But how can one say they are someone when who they are changes based on the weather