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winged-self-indulgence · 50 minutes ago
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Im sorry Nik but I need to sketch Wes he so adorable ahhhhhh😩😩😩
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winged-self-indulgence · 53 minutes ago
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Nik’s gotta present 4 you 🥺
Been meaning 2 post this but I was too embarrassed but lately I have been trying to unlearning shame 😁
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God I wish I was on vacation so bad rn
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winged-self-indulgence · 53 minutes ago
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winged-self-indulgence · 57 minutes ago
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My contribution to the fandom
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winged-self-indulgence · 14 hours ago
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ts cast as ATEEZ golden hour pt 3 songs + solos!
allow me some coping in these trying times. i'm condensing the golden hour part 3 & in your fantasy edition albums into one post for convenience!
FIRSTLY, the entire cast & the general theme of the game is perfectly encapsulated in the title track in your fantasy. basically: desiring that which is dangerous, seeking a savior within monstrous strangers, ignoring all logic to indulge in your fantasy, &c.
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some notable points from my perspective:
i've always seen san as leander (due to physical appearance mainly) and in this MV, he's locking us in a room and guarding the door—very leandercore. seonghwa is embodying vere's cunty predator vibe throughout the MV with the reoccurring vampire imagery. yeosang is giving mhin, from his white blouse + black pants to his lines about fighting your inhibitions. jongho is serving kuras's poise & authority. hongjoong's lines make me think of ais, but so does all of yunho's poses with the lighter/match. mingi's body language, rap, and blue lighting give elyon. biker!wooyoung with the mask and sopro (lore) makes me think of sen; she holds secrets we can only guess, kinda like ateez lore. project your own thoughts onto the members and lmk how you view the MV :)
ok now the individual songs:
leander — creep, in your fantasy (korean ver.) vere — NO1, masterpiece ais — now this house ain't a home, slide to me mhin — skin, sagittarius kuras — legacy, castle sen — bridge : the edge of reality, to be your light elyon — lemon drop, roar
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explanations:
leander
creep: aside from the very fitting title (/j), this song fits leander the best out of the cast because it's a song about deeply desiring someone to the point of perversion. the lyrics can be interpreted in a romantic light or a more .. stalkeresque darkness. let's see how YOU interpret this: "nobody needs to know our secrets / taking turns (taking turns), push and pull (push and pull) / i'll give you everything you need and want / ... i feel like a creep, yeah / keep it on repeat, make it overheat / take it all thе way, make me wanna stay / i feel like a creep." then, at the end of the chorus, the line "now i see the creep" is echoed. san explained that he wanted the "creep" to be open to interpretation—it can be him, the listener, some third party, maybe everyone all at once. he also said he personally resonates with the lyrics, as sometimes he feels like a creep: "i kind of feel that way. like… i see myself as someone i can't stand. it's a really simple expression of 'me'. what i feel." this entire concept is insanely leander to me. the obsession, the perversion, the desire. the mystery. leander's heroic pride masks self-hatred and insecurity 100%. and even then, there's one more reason why this song makes me think of leander... according to san in a livestream, this song was originally way too steamy, "like fifty shades of san." the choreo originally featured him undoing and whipping his belt... which he deemed too much for the concert. additionally, there is a discrepancy in the lyrics—official sources say the line is "i kinda like it / the way you hide it" but san CLEARLY sings "the way you ride it"!!! add onto the fact san is out here rocking gay leather daddy BDSM attire..... GIRL that's leandercore af. in your fantasy (korean ver.): now you may be wondering why i've included this version when i assigned the title track to the entire cast... it's because the korean lyrics are way freakier. like this: "i want you / baby, got a type / i feel your trembling / the crack you can't hide / i dig in and spread / in a fleeting moment / the line blurs / between good and evil" ............ oh. oh my. like leander worming his way into your psyche... you're his target. he finds your weakest point and makes room for himself within you. and now you can never get away. what the fuck. i'm just now realizing the parallel with ais in this way—getting into mc's head and controlling them, either with Classic psychological manipulation or with the evil Brain Virus. also: "don't rush, having you isn't all i want / the outcome's decided, but i hope the process runs deeper / break until you're broken, finally worth watching / i know you're afraid of it, but it's only a moment / i'm getting in your head" YOOOOO you get it right?? it's fucked in the best way, like leander!!
vere
NO1: ok i gave this one listen and assigned it to vere, here's why: the lyrics "n-o one, off the leash, i'm on the throne / n-o one, drip so hard, they can't clone" immediately made me think of vere. a once revered god, reduced to little more than a hunting dog, but he still retains so much dignity and poise (or at least tries to). he's an invaluable asset to the senobium as long as he's leashed. "n-o one, made the fake boys all fold" is absolutely in reference to leander, and other people like leander, who back down in the face of vere's brutal honesty, who cannot handle his meddling, his judgement. aside from this, i'm introducing a new trope for vere: rave girl <3 he deserves a club jam, and hongjoong personalizes the intro for whatever location (country music for nashville, latin-inspired for orlando, etc). vere deserves that kind of special treatment too! masterpiece: ok and this song is just blatantly about having sex, but with the metaphor of making art. vere, our skilled artist of the cast, matches this concept well. the song goes "paint it, paint it, left, right, up and down / come write your name for me, make it a masterpiece, yeah" which is very clearly an innuendo—but it also may specifically refer to a trend where idols would write their names with their butts (here's wooyoung and seonghwa doing it && wooyoung doing it again)—so basically, um.. it could refer to riding dick. like in a gay way. when hongjoong was asked about the meaning of this song, he got really shy and quickly moved on. because the IMPLICATIONS are GAY and FILFTHY. i've been stuck on this because holy fuck he's out here writing beautiful gay anthems like it's not world-shattering to some (i love him sm). i forgot this is about vere, sorry. uh vere is a walking sexual innuendo. i am cautious to assume much about him when it comes to his sexuality because the several hands on him in the trailer and the way he lures in victims makes me think of exploitation (???), BUT this is touchstarved The Game and he's an LI, so. he fucks i guess. make sweet love to this poor monster. make him feel valued and loved and REVERED ok. and make it a masterpiece <3
ais
now this house ain't a home: this is a heartbreaking song about no longer belonging to your childhood home, your childhood self. about outgrowing your past and barely recognizing your memories. it fits ais for these reasons. "the darkness that blocks my view / from the outside, noisy voices judge everything" you know i'm thinking of the voices in his head when i read this. "...someone else defines my beliefs and values" —someone like ocudeus— "this place feels cold to me, so cold / the whole world is dizzying, dizzying / we need to break free to a place / where we can fully embrace who we are." slide to me: aaand the FUCK song !!!! bc ateez said IN YOUR FANTASY and they rlly meant it. it opens "i got you on my mind / the tension that reaches your fingertips, take it slow / i'll make you crave me more / i can feel the thirst in your eyes / so come and hold me tight" which reminds me so much of being crammed up against ais while hiding and being unable to keep your gaze from wandering, your breath from hitching,, your heartrate from spiking. and he knows. then: "make eye contact and hear your voice / in your scent, i feel so drowned" ofc the water symbolism but also the fact ais is consumed by the mc from the start. he's smitten. another line: "hey, slide to me, no need for words / i don't have a problem / ... you can show me another way / don't have to be bored" this reads very ais to me bc i know he's fucking to banish the Bad Thoughts & Feelings. boredom means being alone with the voices. he needs a distraction, and boy is mc a worthwhile one.....
mhin
skin: i first assigned this song to leander because of the snake symbolism—but really it's all a metaphor for vulnerability, sensuality, and most importantly, according to seonghwa, shedding your skin. i can't find a source for this but he said it at the show in atlanta so just trust me bro (source: my memories). the lyrics read as more innuendos for sex and desire: "the sharp touch of temptation / a tangle of countless senses / covered with naked layers / you have me now..." but there's an edge to the song: "swallow everything deeper / i know that you want it / i'm waiting for that touch ... it's written on my skin / it's suffocation, all day night / i can't escape" which reads to me like a mhin/mc dynamic, curses and all, esp taking into account seonghwa's perspective creating the lyrics and choreo. it's a song about wanting to consume the other, become one, letting your darknesses meld, throwing away all inhibitions. it's dangerous, it's vulnerable, but that's what makes it so hot. "trapped in the darkness / feel each other's breath / emotions arе dangerous... hide me in secret / but baby, only if you want" like it's the perfect monster searching for a cure x monster searching for a cure song. it's a level playing field; you're working together, helping the other, both in and out of the sheets. sorry lmao sagittarius: LISTENNN this is such a beautiful song and it's truly something special. i had to give it to mhin. i admit, i usually give them all the angst bc that makes me thrive (it's all out of love). this song is about wanting to give back to someone who lights up your darkness, and finally being able to because of the love they've given you. it was a gift from wooyoung to fans and got its official release in this album. it opens "the truth i've been keeping in silence in the dark / the night of my sky i've been hiding without an end / the world with no such thing as light / the galaxy that has lost its brightness / now your light is making changes / in ways i never imagined / now, i'm shedding light on you." it's a beautiful mhin/mc dynamic again. the light at the end of this dark tunnel for mhin, and now, with mc's love and kindness, they can drop their walls and shine some of that light back onto them. helping each other once again. "it seems that this dark, fallen heart / has found its light again / only when i am headed towards you."
kuras
legacy: i didn't even have to think about this one. it was automatic. this is a powerful song, a we're-going-to-war anthem. and yeosang resembles a fallen angel while performing it! (that's the best fancam i can find rn). he sings, "the day i managed to catch my breath with these torn wings / nobody knows what i've been inside / ...the red scar is getting deeper / it doesn't matter anymore / no force can break me now..." then, in a resounding pre-chorus, "(what are you waiting for?) all day, at this moment / (what are you waiting for?) believe i'll show you, god / the pain engraved inside my body / i believe in those burning eyes / i know what is going on, yeah / this is the proof written in the end" which is SOOOO apocalypse angel who has spent too long repenting for his sins. the chorus solidifies this: "rising with the sunrise / one more step, let it all out, louder / no more praying, it's the time to rise up" which i especially love because this album has plenty of biblical references throughout, most notably the references to lucifer in the title track (i even have the lucifer in your fantasy shirt that tiktok hated bc even the gay 12 year olds are redpilled conservative over there). obv lucifer rebelled against god & heaven and now rules hell as the devil, but he's still an angel, still of god's creation. still something holy, otherwordly. just like kuras—he's a monster to some, a heavenly presence to others, the end of the world and also the beginning... an all-powerful being mortal eyes cannot truly behold. i'd fight a war for him fer sureeee. the drummer boy on that battlefield will have us fucking JAMMING castle: in a different vein, this song is about escaping instead of confronting. running away, leaving it all behind. "let go of everything / take my hand, just you and me / let's escape to that place / to a castle just for us." i'm interpreting this so-called castle as heaven, or some other unique plane of existence where mc and kuras could live out their happy endings—maybe at the end of the world? (i'm obsessed with that concept i'm sorry). the song goes on, "it's okay, nothing is guaranteed / there's no obligation to endure / the world just keeps spinning / not everything has a reason / there's only one thing that's certain to me / it's protecting you from unhappiness." like kuras is honed-in on protecting you from all evils in the world..
sen
bridge : the edge of reality: you're gonna have to walk with me here. this song consists of only one lyric, really: "i throw it back" repeated, distorted, with the sound of marching footsteps keeping beat. then there's an onslaught of incomprehensible whispers, up close, all around. you gasp, lungs inflating with fresh air for the first time in so long... a loud siren cuts through your mental fog and awakens you. the whispers continue as the music builds, stretches, winds through the space, and suddenly your heart is racing to keep up with the rhythm. it crashes. you activate, mind set on a singular goal.... to throw it back revenge. ok see what i mean lmfao it's just all vibes. sen ambiance. but also: this song was the end of the golden hour part 3 album, which was strange given it's titled BRIDGE, aka something that connects. past ateez albums end with FIN or OUTRO, which fans were quick to point out. after the in your fantasy edition was released, it became clear that this track actually connects golden hour part 3 with "in your fantasy" and all the solos. this track also shares the beat with the title track "in your fantasy." it is the shadow of the title track (which represents the rest of the cast, remember?)—mimicking it, much like sen being a "shadow" of a living person, someone undead, someone mimicking life. the bridge between the living and the dead. the bridge between mc and the senobium. freedom and imprisonment. mercy and vengeance. sen is my girlfriend wife and i could dissect shapes in the clouds or specks of dust for her to be your light: a beautiful, heartfelt ballad about connecting with whom you love, despite any distance or difference. "when the light grows faint and distant / remember me in the stillness / ... i'll run to you, to where my heart reaches / if we walk step by step, we'll be able to find it / you and i ... walking an uncertain path / something we nevеr even dared to imagine / is now coming true..." it's a song about a dedicated love that can only be felt by someone truly deprived of any compassion, stuck on a path she didn't think she could stray from... a fate she couldn't fathom defying until now. "even if we wander once more through the silence someday / holding tightly to your hands, which never changed / we'll make it happen, just like we once did / we'll make it happen, we'll make it happen."
elyon
lemon drop: ok i posted about this a while ago but this is the song that started slutty ateez summer. it's a fun, summery bop with a HOT premise and music video (literally and figuratively). what does this have to do with elyon? well he's surrounded by whores so— (i get fucking sniped by the US government) (the senobium brings me back as a reanimated warden jester and i marry sen).. basically this is a song about letting loose and enjoying the summer heat with friends and cold drinks and nice cars and being sexy and—ignore the ominous figures looming in the background—it's just a chill tiiiiime. mc you're so naughty <3 "you're the kinda muse i admire" oh mc <3 "yeah, you caught my attention, eyes locked onto you" mc you're so different from everyone else in my life <3 "you're so bad, stop tempting me" i'll spoil you mc <3 "just you and me, our own little party / yeah, i feel the heat going crazy" no don't get strangled mc haha you're so sexy <3 "this is fine dine, just good time" i'll take good care of you mc <3 haha unles.. roar: ok and he also gets the "fuck all y'all i'm the baddest" track because he fer sureeee thinks highly of himself. he enjoys his luxury and fine tastes.. but something is up with him.. something dark. this is mingi's fuckass emo solo and he included BARKING (smth fans apparently started) and i legit barked at this man until i was hoarse. and i would bark at elyon too if he paid me!! that's not even analysis that's just being horny on main jadhbwiuabd anyway the lyrics are as follows: "hold up, they can't do it like this / can't even fill a single show like this / get on our level before you speak / don't toss around the name tag ATEEZ carelessly / don't get mad at me / know your place and copy properly next time" this is giving fine tastes, nobody can replicate what i do etc. "once i load, i shoot / ...even big companies copy our vision / screams that exceed the decibel limit / fan chants tear the venue apart" yeah we were barking at you man.. "drivers struggle 'cause of us, stadiums shut down" YEAH I WAS STUCK IN ATLANTA TRAFFIC AND WAS LATE TO THE SHOW thanks for rubbing it in!!!! elyon would do that shit 100%. polishing his own ego to mc's annoyance, whether he truly believes it or if it's to save face, to keep his reputation as a highborn LANDLORD.. he's a capitalism monster. "let the presumptuous critics and self-righteous moralists disappear to the bottom / cowards pretending to be tough fall like dominoes / 'break away idol,' my ass, just bring those dollars to korea" LIKE WE GET ITTTT you are investing in the marketplace of ideas grindset mindset sigma alpha morning routine. yeah yeah yeah blah BLAH. eridia's economy is thriving bc of you or whatever (buildings are crumbling, roads are flooding, monsters rip impoverished ppl to shreds.. but this guy can get you LAID by the HOTTEST babes for the LOW, LOW price of *infinity money*)
sometimes i have genuine, deep commentary to make and others times i'm purely going off vibes and cracking jokes. i love you mwah stream IYF to fuck a hot demon in your sleep tonight <3 i am very sleep deprived and this is what all my energy went to hah ....
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winged-self-indulgence · 14 hours ago
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Look at these super cute summer thumbnails that our art team sketched last year 🏝️
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winged-self-indulgence · 1 day ago
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commissioned from crowme
To man, a higher power worth believing in was usually a long-distance affair—an unapproachable god and the hope that they should deign to bless you. To monster, it so often meant something far more tangible. More able to be… partaken in.
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winged-self-indulgence · 1 day ago
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I can explain this -->
This is pure perspective practise...
Nah i actually can't explain this rose x leander wip 💀
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winged-self-indulgence · 2 days ago
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he turned out too handsome I hate him (me when I lie)
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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Free from K-Pop Demon Hunters is such a Mhin and Ais coded song. Like imagine MC as Rumi and them as Jinu.
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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My favourite self indulgent fantasy for TouchStarved is this: You and the LIs are in the Amaryllis District. It's a street party, maybe a festival, maybe people just vibing. Regardless, there's music and everyone's dancing. And you want to dance but oh no what if you accidentally touch someone?
So you hang back, swaying to the music. Leander sees you and is about to go charm you into joining him on the dance floor when, ohhhh what's this? IT'S VERE SWOOPING IN FOR THE KILL.
He doesn't even really ask, one minute you're watching the party and the next he's got his arms around your waist, teasing you like, "aw, were you planning to be a wallflower all night? Why don't we have some fun, hm?"
And then the two of you fucking eat up that dance floor. Spins, tosses, dancing on tables and weaving between plates and cups. You're having so much fun you don't notice the tense atmosphere that surrounds the other LIs, or Vere's impossibly smug grin.
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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new xavier myth huh
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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two of them is telling a lie, only one is telling the truth
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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He’s waited 800 years to bring you flowers <3
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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𝘚𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦, 𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦 (𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘓𝘰𝘳𝘥) | LADS + when YOU send a pic
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warnings: vaguely suggestive, your pics aren't included bc I don't want to lock you/mc into any particular skin colour/race/body type bc she's you!! you can imagine yourself in her!!, possessive behavior, allusions to stalking, blood mention, jealousy
.˚₊‧˗ˏˋ ─── xavier
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.˚₊‧˗ˏˋ ─── zayne
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.˚₊‧˗ˏˋ ─── rafayel
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.˚₊‧˗ˏˋ ─── sylus
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.˚₊‧˗ˏˋ ─── caleb
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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Oh, to actually be his kitten 🥺
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winged-self-indulgence · 3 days ago
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if Leander does have a god complex what if all his sweetness isn’t just him trying to win you over but also him being like: oh look at this helpless baby, I guess they need someone like me
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