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Aaaa I’m back! 

I really need to start holding myself accountable so here I go again after “attempting” to recover- please don’t report this is just a venting space for me, just block me instead!!

17 / 5′2

SW: 125 

CW: 120 lbs

GW1: 117 lbs

GW2: 110 lbs

GW3: 104 lbs

UGW: 100 lbs

If I follow my high res plan I should be 117 by the 21st of Nov, 110 by the 24th of Dec, 104 by the 23rd of Jan, and 100 by the 14th of Feb <3 here goes nothing

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i know it’s just water weight but it stil sucks

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115 pounds this morning.... feeling kinda numb about it? i’ve been offtrack because of the schoolwork i have to do before friday but hopefully by then it’ll be easier :(

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feel so sick today... wish i never binged :( tomorrow will be better! gonna stay up tonight to study for math and try to do some assignments and tomorrow I will only eat fruits and veggies and that bit of chicken breast. i’ll snack on romaine lettuce and carrots :> 

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i failed today, fasted for 21 hours and had a clif bar and some low cal tortilla chips :/ tomorrow is a new day.

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it makes so much sense. my ed helps me cope and makes me feel less alone? idk why it just does

Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

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when you’re short even 114 looks fat ha,,,

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me right now :/ i wish they weren’t so busy with school and work do they even miss me?

Don’t you hate it when you’re dead inside and run out of apps to refresh

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rules for self + welcome ^_^

Hi! This is just a little diary for me that may be triggering to some, I am pro recovery but am not in it. I’ll mostly talk about my ed but I might rant about life/my interests from time to time. Stay safe everyone <3

RULES FOR SELF

2 L of water every day.

Try for at least 10k steps a day, minimum of 5k steps.

NO processed sugars, you are only to eat fruits/vegetables with natural sugars.

Try your best to include protein in every meal.

NO added salt, NO snacking on unhealthy things EXCEPT on Sunday.

Fast everyday, either 16:8 or 18:6.

Stop eating from 7:00 to 8:00 pm.

Stretch stretch stretch, try to include a little bit of yoga every day.

HIIT 2 times a week.

Just Dance for an hour 3 times a week.

Saved YouTube exercises every other day, daily if possible.

Try to sleep 8+ hours.

Take your vitamins!!!

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gonna make a new pinned ew

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not wanting to wear clothes that fit because people can see my body 🤝 not wanting to wear clothes that are baggy because it makes me look even bigger

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thinking how my mom said my legs were getting too big last summer ;-; I was like 126 at the time but my legs are still the same :|

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edtwt is so crazy sometimes 💀

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i really need to get around to buying a digital scale :(

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fasting REALLY helps, I’ve been doing the 16:8 for only a week now (though I keep accidentally fasting for 17-19 hours instead) and my stomach’s shrunk so much,,, tried to have a granola bar around 6 pm and felt so full I thought I’d throw up 😃  now I’m at 113, a number I haven’t seen since probably early freshman year

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Something I’ve noticed

Everyone seems to be focused on lasting long fasts and loosing 10lbs a week but I think you should celebrate little achievements too, yanno?

Like the time you really wanted to eat that one thing but stayed strong

Or that time when your friends were all eating something you knew you shouldn’t and you didn’t or only ate a small amount

The first time you changed your diet slightly in a positive direction

The time you noticed the scales gone up but kept it together and knew it would be ok

There’s probably a lot more but these were a few examples I could think of, celebrate little positive things, eventually they’ll turn into habits, not everything will happen overnight

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Diet Plan

I’m starting this tomorrow! High res but my rules are no salt, no processed sugars, and I have to exercise at least every other day. I’ll most likely end up eating under the max cals allowed every day anyways, but I wanted to give a little breathing room in case I underestimate anything as I do not have a scale for my fruits/vegetables/chicken :( I will not be following the rules listed below, I want to be stern and will not add cals to the next day :P