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Hate

I am a wilted flower with roots that carry hate, anger, frustration and sadness. I was once a flower that gave shade to others, who stood proudly tall, whose petals were adorned with beauty and grace. But like everything, winter arrives and wilts the once graceful stem. But, winter hasn’t ended in many moons, it seems as though spring will never arrive and the grounds is too wet to bring nutrients back to the soil to help the flower. 

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The Return

It has been indeed, a very long time. I actually came back on here as a mistake, I didn’t even know. I went back to Tumblr since their privacy policy, and the one blog that gives me inspiration, is NOT at my disposal, unfortunately.  

Anywho, I am back. I really want to dedicate my thoughts here. My real ones. I am really on a path.. I HATE that so much. Thinking this way since that it never ever works. But honestly, I really need to get out of my head and fall into the arms of reality. Isnt that so funny, circa One Direction DAYS.

I need to re-organize my room, clean it out and make it nicer for myself. I know that if my room is clean and organized, I can quite literally TAKE ON THE WORLD. 

Mums leaving in a bit and I would like the alone time to figure the room out. We may go shopping in a bit. Really can’t spend too much since I am broke as. I have some school things to finish which is the bane of my existence. But again, I want to really be the main person in my novel. In my life. 

Thanks for reading.....  

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Isolate

I am in isolation! Yas.

I know that I will live in nostalgia for this moment when I do get out.  I feel eerie. I feel good. I feel weird.

I need someone to send me a care package asap.

This is day #2 of official isolation. I thank God that im not sick.

Taking my PCR test in about an hour or so 

I think I will re-org my room while I wait. The breeze is so nice, I really can’t handle.

 I hope to focus on skincare and self growth.

I will be avoiding 2 major things so that’ll be funnnn 

Until next time,

With love, White Avril 

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Relif

I think it is so funny how much I live in my head. Like I really think about what people think more than how they actually feel in real life. 

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In A Daze

I am slowly recovering from a haze thanks to the vaccine shot, the second one of course and I am feeling waay better than I was feeling yesterday. 

By lamenting on my days, I am slowly realizing that I want to be sunshiny and peppy and not moody and ghoslty. I made the mistake before of wanting to be like ‘that persone’ but at this moment, I want to be me. I really don’t want to cast a showdow. AND, I am realizing that I never want to be that person that people dread talking to or hanging out with.. maybe I have stayed indoors for too long. That is probably what that is.

Withlove, White Avril. 

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Time Before Having To Do...

It is always very interesting, the time before having company because it seems like your everyday happenings are so mundane. It seems as though time stopped and that you are working endlessly to prepare but the next day, everything has come back to normal. It is very interesting in that way.

Anyway, today, we are having fam friends over and I am going to grab some sushi with friends. I am really interested to see how itll pan out, tonight. it’ll be interesting, mark my words.  I’m so interested in doing as much as I can before work starts back over and over again -.-

Withlove, White Avril

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Beginning of something Great

This is my fist Blog Post. 

Posting this on a really hot July evening, nearing 8:30 PM.

I really to want to post my life on here. Anonymous, where my thoughts and pics will be scattered through the internet but no one near me know who I am. To be honest, this is a really comforting feeling. Anonymity is a beautiful thing. 

X - With love, White Avril